My heart goes out to both of you that have had problems with trying to conceive, etc. I somewhat know the pain that you feel with a strong "want". My story is a little different though. I have 2 boys at home now (almost 6 and 4 in April) however, it wasn't an easy journey. My first children Victoria is my little angel in heaven and she will be 7 on the 21st of this month--she was premature and passed away.
I feel for you- my first DS is an angel also. He would be 16 this month. He died at birth(44 weeks gestation)