Thanks for all of the support with my mini-breakdown this afternoon. I'm still pretty upset about it, but I'll answer some questions
We are not renting anymore. We have been living with family for about 3 months now which is part of the reason this has me so distraught. I love my sister (and my mom and dad) more than anything.... so it breaks my heart that right about now I want nothing to do with them most days when they come to "our part" of the house. I swear, I no sooner see my mom or sister and want to scream at them. And that kills me, because they've done nothing wrong. It just stinks living with other people. I know it happens all the time, and that's why we didn't think it would be too big a deal. We had some issues at our apartment and our lease was up anyway, so rather than pay month-to-month rates, we thought we'd move in here "for a few months". No different than people while they move, build houses, etc. And it really HAS been nice, I'm just done. It's making me a basketcase emotionally (not that it takes much for that to happen

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We have not technically found a house yet. Our goal date was originally May 1st, with May 15th being kind of our latest closing date we were looking at. When we were told this would be no problem, we started looking and fell in LOVE with a market house from a local builder. Because they don't keep inventory, the house was "marked down" $60K, and had everything we would ever want (and then some) for a price that was miraculously within our budget. Then it was gone, because of the aformentioned bump in the road. So I'm not even letting myself look right now, until we have a paper in hand. I don't think I will believe anything they say until that point.
I did talk to Kyle on his way home. He says we should most definitely keep our trip scheduled. Even without knowing that we would lose money by cancelling it. We are keeping our fingers crossed to close by June 1st still. But if that doesn't happen, what does it matter if it's the 3rd or the 10th? Good point, I said, although really I just want to do it as early as possible.
I guess that's it. It WILL be fine. I know that, it's just disheartening. All my summer clothes (including everything I'll need for our trip) are in storage. Heck, most of my life is in storage. It's going to be hard to get ready for that. Then there's the issue of moving. May 1st was perfect becasue I'll have the WHOLE month of May off, and we both have a few weeks in June. Talk about all the time in the world to get settled in! But now we'll just have to do it (probably) while we work... people do it all the time. It's just not how I planned it, that's all
Thanks again for your support. I suppose it's really not a big deal in the grand scheme of things -- even if it takes a month or two longer. It's just a disappointment, that's all. And I'm pretty much a wreck right now anyway because of the whole living situation, and the lack of structure. I don't do well without routine