It appears things may be improving for the DDA. But I am still sending
and
to everyone.
So I should be at work or sleeping but I am not doing either of the above. I am on the Disboards and hyped up on caffeine, because I thought I was going to be working from midnight until 5:30pm tomorrow night. I should be at work or so I thought. I went to work tonight I thought I was supposed to be there from midnight to 8am tomorrow. I was there for two minutes and someone knocks on the door of the group home I work at.
It is another staff person. I answer the door and ask them how they are doing. I then ask them if there is a reason why there are two staff members scheduled tonight. They said no, except that our site supervisor probably messed up and I should have worked last night. Apparently they were supposed to have Paid Time Off (PTO) last night, but got paged at 12:15am that they needed to come in.
The problem is because they have to ask for PTO on what would appear to be the next day it confused our site supervisor. Because they asked for PTO on Saturday meaning 12am to 8am on Saturday morning, but our site supervisor thought Midnight to 8am Saturday night into Sunday morning.
So I ended up going home tonight, instead of working since I have to work at my other job from 9:30am to 5:30am.
I am just afraid it is going to look bad on me because I am still really new. I also got alerted at 8:10am on Thursday morning, where are you. Apparently I was supposed to work 8am to 11am before I went to my other job. It was not listed on the schedule and I didn't write it in my planner. I write everything down right away, so I am not sure how this error occured. I did go in and stay until 11am.
I just can't keep up working both jobs. My full time job has become more demanding since I started the part time job because our assistant manager quit. The one day I went in he just handed me the keys said he's sorry and that our manager pushed him over the edge. So until they hire someone else it has just been me, the manager and one part timer.
I am thinking about quitting the one I just started in January. The other one is full time and pays my benefits. I can't keep working 60 to 75+ hours a week, plus run a Brownie troop by myself. But I don't want to be a quitter. I just need to find a good full time job with good benefits doing something I want to do, so I don't feel like I am just quitting for the heck of it.
But it is really hard to do a job hunt working more than 60 hours a week. You can't just schedule interviews or answer phone calls whenever when you are working so often. I feel like I am stuck in a catch 22. I am working too much to be able to take the time to find something else.
I have been struggling emotionally and physically by working both jobs. I was talking to someone the one day and I said all I want to do when I go home is sleep or sit on the couch and do nothing. They said to me if I was doing what you are doing I wouldn't even be standing up right now. They said you have every right to do nothing. But then nothing gets done.
It did kind of wake me up a little though, that I am doing too much. At first I was like it is just a few extra hours a week but it turned into 40 hours and maybe more at the full time job plus 32 hours at the part time job some weeks, plus a brownie meeting. When I write it out is seems like so much more than what it appears to be.
If possible I would like pixie dust and good vibes to get some motivation and good luck in the search for a new job.
Sorry this is so long and I just keep babbling on and on.
I am going to attempt to sleep before going into work at 9am.
Becky
I was thisclose. A really major crappy day.
I have my coffee. I'm going to go back and read all of the notes I skipped. 
is Monday.
Love Ghiradellis
) and Le Cellier for my Birthday dinner (just Mommy and Daddy
)Loved Le Cellier
)
