It feels like MONTHS must have gone by. But it hasn't even been a week.
I think about NOTHING besides that letter. I am making myself crazy. I am making DS crazy. He is second guessing the audition, thinking of all the "Would have, could have, should have".
I told him last night if he doesn't get in it isn't his fault. We did everything we could to prepare him, but at the end of the day none of us have any control over whether he gets in or not. He says he doesn't want to disappoint me, which makes me sad. I don't think he gets how much hinges on this admission. But like I said, he has no control over it. It is so frustrating.
I want to tell you my story. Hopefully it will make you feel better about the whole thing
I went to our public high school my freshman and sophmore years. I played cello, so I still had something artsy to do, but I was in love with theatre. I worked on the Sr play both years, the spring play both years, and everything else they did that was 'production' worthy.
I decided before my junior year that theatre was where I belonged. I apprenticed at our local Shakespeare festival, volunteered for all the local theatre that I could, and I auditioned for Youth Performing Arts School. I was denied. I was crushed. I was dramatic about it. (You know, my life is over, I've put everyone through this and failed, all that good stuff). YPAS had 3 auditions that year. I went to the 2nd one. I resold myself. I personally think I rocked it out, but I was denied again. I almost gave up. But my mom (love love her) talked me into going to the last audition. I couldn't figure out why, but they accepted me!!
It meant starting my junior year with a bunch of freshmen. I was OK with that. There was another junior with me, we were good. I found out later that it was my grades up to that point (didn't really care about school until I fund the passion of theatre you know?) but that my persistance and determination won them over. I rec'd a scholarship to the university of my choice, and amazingly, now work at a school...that doesn't have theatre...
I look back now and know that my experience of not fitting in at the first school to totally fitting in at YPAS made me who I am today. It was two totally different worlds, and I completely understand what you are saying and going through.
You have to have faith and dedication. Don't let him give up his dream. When you give up, you lose. You know what I mean?
I hope he gets in. I'll be watching and waiting right along with you if you will have me! Sending big hugs your way!
He sang for "Into the Woods" but he isn't really a singer.Sounds like things went well so we'll be thinking of you!
and Red Wine 
