Thank you all so much for your kind words

[6_Time_Momma]

It really does mean a lot to me. Needless to say, I am having trouble sleeping tonight. Having told so many people (my parents, my SIL and BIL, his parents, etc.) the shock is starting to wear off and the extreme pain is setting in. I keep looking back at the past few weeks trying to see if I may have done something to cause her death.

I am sure some will say it isn't as bad as losing an already born child, but I cannot imagine feeling any pain worse than what I am feeling now. It is the most terrible pain I have ever felt. I truly do feel like my heart has been torn out. The image of her motionless on the ultrasound screen just keeps going through my mind.

I just can't imagine having to go through labor and then not having a baby to take home with me. We have also been disucssing having a priest there, if we want to have a small funeral (just us and grandparents), if we will hold her, etc. Horrible things to be having to think about, I tell you.

My DH is having a terrible time also as you can imagine. He, especially, struggled so much with his faith when Garrett was born, and he is going through the same thing now.

Bradley (my 12 year old) is not dealing well either. He has been crying most of the night. Brittany understands, but I am not sure she really knows what it means for the baby to be dead. The other kids don't realize yet.

Anyway, I don't expect you guys to read all this or respond, but I think it will help me in some way to type it all out. Thanks guys.

 

[#1 Disney Fan]

Of course we will read this, Kristy, and of course we will respond, because we care about you very very much. My heart goes out to you tonight. No words to heal your pain, but I am sending more prayers and good wishes along with another big comforting {{{{hug}}}.

 

[WebmasterAlex]

of course we will read it and of course we will respond.. there really aren't words that can take your pain away.. but know that there are a lot of people sharing your pain and more than a few tears.. sometimes all anyone can do is be there.....

 

[RhondaS]

Kristy,

You just let it all out. We'll cry and share the pain with you.

{{{hugs}}}

-Rhonda

 

[debster812]

Kristy,

My heart is aching for you and your family. Please know you have been in my thoughts all day.

Please do not let ANYONE try to diminish the pain you are feeling. I have no idea what you are going through, and can really not offer any words of comfort. I would be happy to help however I can, email or PM me, I would be happy to 'talk'

I think you have to do whatever feels right (what can feel right?) to you and your DH.

Hugs to you all, and to your 12 YO as well, it cannot be easy for any of you.

{{{{hugs}}}} to you

Debbie

 

[LemonDietCoke]

I don't know you, but my heart bleeds for you. God bless your little angel and the rest of your family.

 

[KaraKW]

The DIS can be a very cathartic place... We're all here for you. I can't imagine the agony you must be experiencing, but I wish there were something I could do to make it all disappear... like a bad dream of a reality that never was...

{{{HUGS}}}

 

[CookieGVB]

Kristy, as long as you want to share your grief and thoughts with us, we're here for you, sharing your pain and offering what little comfort we can at this sad time.

 

[RNMOM]

I am so sorry for your loss. I feel the service you are thinking about would be very nice and may help all of you. My thoughts are with you and your family.

 

[PKK/MJK]

Kristy,

I wish there were words that could take away your pain!! What devastating news you are trying to cope with!! Please do not torture yourself--you did NOT do anything to cause this!!! For some reason, which we'll never understand, God wanted your beautiful, little angel in heaven with Him. While you may not be able to hold her in your arms, you will always hold her in your heart. God Bless you and your family!! May He give you the strength to endure this tragic loss! {{{HUGS}}}

 

[catsrule]

I am sorry for all your pain, Kristy. I hope you can find some comfort with us, your family, and God.

 

[minniecarousel]

That's what we're here for - to support one another. I'm keeping you and your family in my prayers.

 

[mrsv98]

My heart is breaking for you Kristy. Of course she is real to you, and she always will be. The only comfort I can give you is to say that she is with God and you will see her again someday. She will be watching over you and waiting for you and will know how much you love her.

My totally unsolicited opinion is that a small service would be a nice way to celebrate her, even the short time you had with her. Be strong and know that we are here for you.

 

[Keli]

Kristy, I'm just so sorry. There are a million things I'd like to say but I'm not sure what would help and what would not. I never have known how to comfort others in their grief very well but I just want you to know that although I am clumsy with words my heart feels for you intensly.

 

[supercarrie]

{{{HUGS}}} We are all here for you, hun, for whatever you may need in this time - love, support, prayers, or just a place to let it all out. I will continue my prayers.

 

[Liz]

You'll know the right thing for you when the time comes. I so feel for you and am so sorry your whole family is having to deal with this. So much sad news on the DIS right now.

 

[Dan Murphy]

Kristy, your little baby is most assuredly with the angels in heaven. God bless you, and may she be a guiding light for you for all your life, till you see her again. {Hugs}

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[tiggerlover]

Kristy, I have no words of comfort for you during this most difficult time. Just know that there are many of us out here that care and are keeping you and your family in our prayers. {{HUGS}}

Debbi

 

[KimRaye]

"Kristy- Mommy to five little devils and one tiny angel."

That, Kristy, speaks volumes!

I am soo saddened by your loss. Continued prayers for comfort, peace & understanding during your grief.

And also, most sincere {{HUGS}} and comfort for the delivery.
I can not even imagine but, I hope I can offer support.

God Bless all of you.

 

[Jeff in BigD]

I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. Your family will be in my prayers.