Karen - your food story made me laugh.

Priceless. Here's to Rey doing better and better.
Thanks to both of you.

I was having a really bad day. And feeling very sorry for myself - wishing life was different for so many people - no amount of wishing is going to change it for them. And feeling like I was striking out when that's what you do over and over with dementia and a cancer diagnosis. So.....
As for my joy - FOUND TONS. Tons. I'm going to get screamed at but I'm in NYC.
My plan was to appear in ME/MASS/CT on the way here to my friend's place/while here NJ/way back NY. Yep, my plan. I had everything figured out. And no I wasn't going to just appear on all five of your doorsteps. I was going to give *some* notice.

Maybe ransack the beach house. Laughing. But then I had to leave much later and it all had to be scraped. Dfkjldaskfjdsalkfjdslkfj. My brother decided to come and stayed a day later than thought and I didn't want to have one regret. (Lord knows I'll still have some

).
Also, I didn't want to try to make contact/hook up because I needed to feel very spontaneous this time. (And plus I promised Liz that we would come to Red Bank the next time - she's a big time student now - and I'm short for time).
Anyway - JOY OVERLOAD!!! OMG, the most beautiful two days. Manhattan all day. Finished up at midnight (train). Glorious Lower Manhattan - did a few things I hadn't crossed off list - Staten Island Ferry (cause it was hot as he!!) - Battery Park beer garden (I had a Daquiri - HEAVEN) - then off through the West Village over to Chelsea because I wanted to finally see High Line park - got there very late - OMG HEAVENLY JOB!!!! Lovely. Especially at night. I love great urban planning more than ANYTHING in this world. Well maybe if I get a date one day I won't say anything.
Today took the ferry over to Fire Island. Just came back. Hopped ocean waves with a million gay men for hours.

Well they were hardly jumping - but I was! Jumping waves.



They were way too busy peacocking. And MCKelly - they were having an afternoon tea party.

. I'm not pulling your leg - some heels/hats and all. Lost my favourite sunglasses to the dam@ ocean. Lost my second favourite this summer jumping off a twelve food pier in one of the Great Lakes last month. So I'm feeding our major waterways well! I get so dam@ excited both times about getting in the water- forgot. Crap. But lovely day regardless.
And had this thought that made me laugh as I was jumping the waves - all of a sudden I realized I'm 45 not 25. I laughed out loud that I was my age - like I just realized. I think because I don't have a marriage or children there are less time markers. Or I'm bullsh1tting. I'm unsure. Laughing. But it was a great body moment - I'm 45. Some 45 year olds won't even get their hair wet or let go of the fact that their bathing suits just might be in a different (read uh oh ) position on the other side of the wave. So good on me. Good on the 40 somethings here. Hey! Ronda!?!
And tomorrow back down to Manhattan early. Central Park with cheese and bread from the Upper West Side's Fairway market and see if I can out of there without arguing with the cheese attendant. And want desperately to hit the Historical Museum of New York - but I doubt it with this flippin' gorgeous weather.
SO JOY FOUND.

And I can stop feeling sorry for myself. This is life and it what it is right now. Yes I'm talking to myself. Convincing myself until I slip again. I did have a big smile. I phoned my parents and my father got a 60" flat screen TV. OMG! Priceless. I don't even know what my mother would do to him with her born with brain. Too funny. Love it for him.
Still without computer. Hopefully soon.
Kimberley - school - details.