Not as bad as I thought I'd be. I don't know if that's because it just hasn't really sunk in yet, or if it's just because I was so prepared for it, and she had been in so much pain the past few days.
I'm going to dinner at my parent's house tonight, and will probably spend the whole night holding her dog, who even though I don't know if she understood me, I promised her last night I would take very good care of.
I think sometimes when they're suffering, it's easier to let them go. Almost a relief, if you will. I know my mom was only in ICU for 5 days, and where as in the beginning I was begging for her to stay and begging for her to get better and begging for her to come back - once I realized she was trapped in her body (they never called it a coma - but she was unconcious and unable to respond to anything EXCEPT when I would talk to her, and tears would stream down her face, which was awful!!!
The nurse said it was just a physical reaction, not 'real' tears, yet it only happened when I was close to her, talking to her.
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Anyways - it was the last day, on Saturday, when I said "Go be with your father, I'll take care of the boys, I'll be fne" when she left. And I was okay with it....then. KWIM? I felt *good* about it, if that makes sense.
UGH! Death flipping sucks, so terribly bad. So, so bad.
SUN - How is Mr Sun, doing?
Alright - so get this, you guys... LOL!
So, last night and the night before it was pretty darn hot outside. And breeze-less, so we decided to turn on the air. An hour passes and I said "I'm stil *blank-ing* hot!!!!" We look at thermostat, and it hadn't moved. Still 80 soomething degree's in this place. That creepy repair man, didn't fix the air portion of the damn thing!!!
So last night my husband eyeballed the thing outside, that big fan thing (I'm a girl - keep that in mind with my technical terms) and comes in and tells me it has no heat load. Apparently the thing outside should be blowing out hot air.
He calls Mr Creep and the dude says he can come tomorrow (today) at 3. Jimmy get's stuck on calls and can't make it home before 3. UGH! You know, I am NOT a scared person. AT ALL. I normally am the tough cookie - and this guy gives me a BADDD vibe! So, I pull whining with my husband "Yoooou gottta commmme home!! I dont wannna be alllllooooone with him!!!!" He get's mad "Oh youre fine!" (cuz see? He knows I'm not a wussy and thinks Miss Tough Cookie can handle herself. But isnt getting the fact that I dont TRUST this guy. The whole thing seem's odd. WHY WOULDNT THE AIR WORK?!? He told Jim he needed to add that freon stuff back into it. WHY DIDNT YOU ALREADY DO THAT?!??!
UGH! Soooooo - at 2pm, I load Charley in the car and go to Danny's school. Joey's at a track meet, and I wasn't gonna be alone here with Mr Creep!!! (so I go get a 13 y/o for protection!
) He happened to be outside with his class, reading - and I pull up and yell to him "Go to the office!"
I pulled him out, to protect me from Mr Creep.
So, we get home. Wait, wait, wait.... Jim finally gets home (thank God!) and not 10 minutes later, Mr Creep shows up (at 4!!!) And again, Mr Creep didnt call (like we asked)
He goes in the basement, Jim goes down with him - not 5 minutes later he comes back up. I look at his face and Jim's doing this shocked face like this:
He goes 'he has to leave AGAIN!!! He doesnt have what he needs to finish the job!!"
WTH!?!??!?
He says he'll come back - but not sure if he can get us going - but he can come back tomorrow if not. Alright....WHAT IN THE HELL!?!?!? What a whack job!!!!
Then - (I know this is long, but get this...) Jim is in the kitchen, doing dishes - hears this dude walk up the back stairs and.... can you guess?? HE OPENED THE DOOR AGAIN!!!!
This guy is a flipping LOOOOON! Whacko!!!!
He's down there now. WHo knows what he is doing. Creep.
I told Jim - my gut is telling me this is weird, weird, weird. Why is he so insistent upon coming back and back and back??? WEIRD!!!!
Then while he was out in his van, Jimmy and I peered out the window and looked into his Van. He barely has anything in it!! We started laughing like maniacs!!! Joking he has a tool box, and a pair of tweezers back there....and duct tape.... and some gum. LOLOLOLOL!
This dude has been in business for 20 something years! Jimmy does service calls. He can 'diagnose' on the phone and knows what to bring. This guy installed this thing....TWICE!! What a clown.
And the icing on the cake.... when we resigned the lease here (I think we might end up staying here a long, long time. We love this place. We might ended up buying, here) the owner let us know, if anything happens with the heat / air to call Mr Creep - cuz he knows them, he's known them for yearssss. And she said it all proud. I dont think she knows Mr Creep is a psychopath weirdo looney toon.
He just called out to Jimmy. I will keep you updated. LOL!
You and your family will be in my thoughts & prayers.
