Eeyores Butterfly
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This is my first time posting on this board though I have followed several posts here and have prayed for several people.
A bit of background: I am 24 years old and very active. I am a former competitive dancer and did two entertainment CP's with Disney where I performed in various shows and parades (pics in my WISH journal).
In September I was diagnosed with prediabetes. As you can imagine it has been very difficult. This may not sound PC, but I thought to get diabetes at my age you had to be obese pretty much your entire life and very sedentary. Until college I never weighed over 100 lbs. Yes, I gained weight in college (and believe me, hitting the "triple digits" as I think of them was a huge blow psychologically), but I was never overweight. Merely toward the upper end of the spectrum for my height. I joined Weight Watchers but was never very serious about it because it was more vanity pounds and not wanting to become overweight.
I had a pretty good handle on things until I left my last College Program. Going from 5 parades and shows a day to sitting in a classroom with no adjustment of eating habits on my part yielded predictable results. I did become overweight, even obese by the clinical standpoint (I hate that word) but do not see myself as an obese person. In fact, most people don't understand why I want to lose as much weight as I do. The weight gain has only been in the last two years, so being told I had prediabetes was a shock.
The assumption is that I am on my way to Type 2 diabetes. This makes no sense to me. Yes, I am overweight, but I am still an active person. I have absolutely no family history of diabetes. I also think the doctor has missed the mark. I frequently have readings as high as 280, which means that it is not prediabetes but some form of full blown diabetes. My cholesterol is high, but that is hereditary and could be related to my blood sugar. My blood pressure tends to be on the low end of normal, so it's not metabolic disorder.
My current doc has never even heard of type 1.5 which I strongly suspect I have. In a few short months I have gone from being 180 after meals to 280. Other than my weight I have not one risk factor. I think part of me wants it to be 1.5 because then it is not my fault. I was not too stupid or lazy or fat. It was simply a bad roll of the genetic dice. If it is type 2, I brought it on myself and deserve to have it and that has been a tough pill to swallow.
On top of that I have been experiencing some serious stomach problems. Cramps so bad I can't stand up, alternating diarrhea/constipation, bloating, gas, feeling full within a few bites. I'm being told possibly celiac or IBS. First doc only ran food allergy panels. The nurse practitioner I saw had me take a few blood tests and it all came out normal. I have to have an abdominal ultrasound over spring break. I've also been referred to a GI doc but won't get to see them til mid May because they are a two hour drive from me and I can't afford to miss any more student teaching for doctor's appointments.
To cap it all off I have just been totally wiped this semester. The past two semester my memory has been shot it seems and that kind of worries me. I have fallen behind on my assignments and really have some catching up to do so I can graduate. The problem is I have zero energy. I get home from teaching and immediately take a nap which often turns into four or five hours. I then end up staying up much later because I can't sleep but I'm too exhausted to do anything. I hate this feeling of having no mental or physical energy. I'm terrified of what happens when I graduate because I can't afford to have no health insurance and I still haven't been hired for a teaching job. It's just all taking its toll.
Thanks for letting me vent.
A bit of background: I am 24 years old and very active. I am a former competitive dancer and did two entertainment CP's with Disney where I performed in various shows and parades (pics in my WISH journal).
In September I was diagnosed with prediabetes. As you can imagine it has been very difficult. This may not sound PC, but I thought to get diabetes at my age you had to be obese pretty much your entire life and very sedentary. Until college I never weighed over 100 lbs. Yes, I gained weight in college (and believe me, hitting the "triple digits" as I think of them was a huge blow psychologically), but I was never overweight. Merely toward the upper end of the spectrum for my height. I joined Weight Watchers but was never very serious about it because it was more vanity pounds and not wanting to become overweight.
I had a pretty good handle on things until I left my last College Program. Going from 5 parades and shows a day to sitting in a classroom with no adjustment of eating habits on my part yielded predictable results. I did become overweight, even obese by the clinical standpoint (I hate that word) but do not see myself as an obese person. In fact, most people don't understand why I want to lose as much weight as I do. The weight gain has only been in the last two years, so being told I had prediabetes was a shock.
The assumption is that I am on my way to Type 2 diabetes. This makes no sense to me. Yes, I am overweight, but I am still an active person. I have absolutely no family history of diabetes. I also think the doctor has missed the mark. I frequently have readings as high as 280, which means that it is not prediabetes but some form of full blown diabetes. My cholesterol is high, but that is hereditary and could be related to my blood sugar. My blood pressure tends to be on the low end of normal, so it's not metabolic disorder.
My current doc has never even heard of type 1.5 which I strongly suspect I have. In a few short months I have gone from being 180 after meals to 280. Other than my weight I have not one risk factor. I think part of me wants it to be 1.5 because then it is not my fault. I was not too stupid or lazy or fat. It was simply a bad roll of the genetic dice. If it is type 2, I brought it on myself and deserve to have it and that has been a tough pill to swallow.
On top of that I have been experiencing some serious stomach problems. Cramps so bad I can't stand up, alternating diarrhea/constipation, bloating, gas, feeling full within a few bites. I'm being told possibly celiac or IBS. First doc only ran food allergy panels. The nurse practitioner I saw had me take a few blood tests and it all came out normal. I have to have an abdominal ultrasound over spring break. I've also been referred to a GI doc but won't get to see them til mid May because they are a two hour drive from me and I can't afford to miss any more student teaching for doctor's appointments.
To cap it all off I have just been totally wiped this semester. The past two semester my memory has been shot it seems and that kind of worries me. I have fallen behind on my assignments and really have some catching up to do so I can graduate. The problem is I have zero energy. I get home from teaching and immediately take a nap which often turns into four or five hours. I then end up staying up much later because I can't sleep but I'm too exhausted to do anything. I hate this feeling of having no mental or physical energy. I'm terrified of what happens when I graduate because I can't afford to have no health insurance and I still haven't been hired for a teaching job. It's just all taking its toll.
Thanks for letting me vent.