@lynxstch, are you my mom?


Your list of "got-done" sounds like one of hers. Always moving!
I'm trying to get out Halloween decorations today, but the Monkey has requested that I wait until he can help. So the stuff is out but not placed. If he wants to help after school, that is...he always wants a snack and TV when he gets home. Needs to decompress.
We did a lot of errands this morning. Started at the library, where one of my picks was a Christmas book already. It's been on my list since it was released last year, and when I see something on my list, I grab it because it might not be there next time (I've had that happen with another book that I saw probably a full year ago...I put it back, thinking "Next time," and haven't seen it since). Picked up a few things at Shop Rite - Turkey Hill ice cream was 2 for $5. Our freezer is jam-packed right now but I found spots for it! Not passing up that price! Then to Kohl's to pick up some things I had delivered to the store, as to avoid the $9 shipping charge. I can't figure out why they don't sell their basic store-brand sleepshirts in the store

I decided to get Josh one more pair of jeans, as his new Old Navy pair already looks like he's wearing through the knees, but Kohl's didn't have any of their brand "skinny" jeans in his size. He really needs that style...they're still loose on him, but one of the best fitting. And he needs some slipper socks for winter. But I'll have to order online. Then it was off to Costco, where I found a book about Ancient Egypt for Josh for Christmas, and the cheddar broccoli soup that my in-laws like. Then just home for laundry, decorating, rearranging Josh's bookcase, etc.
I'm feeling a little down right now as well. October is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month, along with Breast Cancer Awareness. I'm in a PAIL Awareness group on FB and one of the things she does is to have mothers send in their stories, and she posts 2-3 of them per day. Sometimes they have photos. Unfortunately this triggers my PTSD. I don't want to leave the group or mute them for the month, but some of those photos make me cry uncontrollably and they stay burned into my mind for days on end. I was never able to get help or counseling for my own losses, which is probably why I can't handle it. Just makes me so incredibly sad and I want to snuggle my own child - and of course, he doesn't totally understand and doesn't want to snuggle. (A few weeks ago, he actually threw it in my face when he was mad at me one day..."You're a horrible mommy, you didn't want my siblings and that's why they're gone!" That was a knife in the heart right there.)