Pregnant & neurotic thread.

[ferrytale]

Mrs Charming! That is great news

Kiki Mouse - that's good news about her size!

I had a 15 week appointment today, they drew blood for a penta screen since when I went for my sequential I was 1 day too late and the baby was literally just a tiny bit too big. Also got the H1N1 shot and the doctor said everything looks like its progressing right on schedule. Heartbeat was at 159 & good.

Oh, and I was SO hoping for a bar to have been installed at the OB office since our last visit but no such luck. I could REALLY use a glass of sangria....doesn't that count as a serving of fruit? Lol.

 

[Mrs. Charming]

OK, I have my neurotic moment for the day. I made my 1st OB appt (it's late b/c I'm seeing my RE for monitoring) and I'm afraid I jinxed myself. My b**bs don't hurt at all this morning... howeevr I did barf from smelling soap. (Yes, I"m weird... my olfactory aversions are like soap, shampoos, laundry detergent... LOL)

Gah... I know logically I'm fine but still!! Yikes!! Can't wait till my Thursday u/s. They're a lifesaver!

 

[Gabes_mommy]

This is totally the thread for me! I have had 3 miscarriages so of course being pregnant is terrifying! My first 2 miscarriages were prior to having DS and were at 5 weeks and 7 weeks. After I had DS I got pregnant again and everything was going great then at 12 weeks the baby just died. It was horrible. After that loss DH and I decided to never get pregnant again and just enjoy DS. Well obviously that didn't work out as I am now expecting again.

I have an U/S scheduled for next Monday and I am so scared I get teary eyed just thinking about it.

I have an appt today with the high risk OB, so we'll see how that goes.

 

[KiKi Mouse]

Congratulations and please let us know how today goes for you.
I used to look forward to u/s & appts. before I had m/c's...with this pregnancy they became a source of terror!

 

[irisbud]

Hope your appointment goes well today Gabe's mommy.

Mrs. Charming: Everytime I feel "too good", I think disaster is imminant. Hope your Thursday ultrasound goes well!

My next ultrasound is a week from tomorrow. I will be exactly 9 weeks at that point. I am looking forward to it, but at the same time I am terrified that it will bring horrible, unwanted information. Everyday seems to just draggg by, I am so worried that something will happen. Also, DH doesn't really want to tell anyone we actually "know" as he is afraid it will jinx things. In some ways, that makes me feel more nervous and takes away some of the joy I am able to muster up, as I am not sharing it with friends, etc. I understand how he feels, but at the same time if, God forbid, things DO go wrong I'm not going to just pretend it never happened!

Have a great day everyone!

 

[Mrs. Charming]

Irisbud, I totally know how you feel. A few people know, but there's no way we could have hidden it from these people. Basically the "extra" people we told are the people who would be supportive if I miscarried again. I also couln't pretend nothing happened. I'd crack. I'm SO afraid of jinxing things... it's amazing how superstitious I've become. I feel like a nut. And yeah, the thing about feeling 'too good' and disaster being imminent-- omg that's the story of my life at this point. Every week, every time I see that heartbeat, I'll relax a little... a little.

I bought a pregnancy journal the other day because I didn't keep one with my pregnancy with DD, it was just a horrid pregnancy. So I really want to keep one this time, but then I can't help but envision myself having to throw it out because of.. welll .. you know.

Kiki, the days before my ultrasounds are the WORST. The thoughts that go through my head-- OMG!!

Heya Gabe's Mommy I'm sorry for your losses... seems like almost all of us in this thread have that one thing in common.

We're going to get through this, and we're all gonna have healthy babies!!

 

[Mrs. Charming]

Well I had my 7 week "Ultrasound Thursday" yesterday, and I do feel a bit better about things... kind of a gradual feeling of "OK-ness."

I'm starting to wonder now... crap? What do I need? I have a lot of clothing, etc left over from DD, but I can't remember what I threw out and what I didn't, and what can or can't be re-used. Gah!! LOL I wish enough people cared about us to have another baby shower... oh well!!

 

[KiKi Mouse]

Mrs. Charming,

Glad the 7 week u/s went well!!!

As for what you need etc.
From your ticker I see you have 228 days to go. I am sure between now and then it will all come together.

I dragged my butt on stuff because I was/am stuck in "what if" land. Last week I picked up a couple of new sleepers because I thought new baby deserved something nobody has pooped in yet. We have a bassinette that has been in the garage for 2 years because the "what if" really happened. So now we get to use it.
We are looking at new cribs now because DH doesn't want to use the one DD#2 used as he thinks there was probably a recall on it at some point. More $$$ More $$$ Other than that...I can't even think that far ahead...LOL

I know I do want a casserole party or something where people cook for us and load up our freezer for when we are home with a newborn.

 

[Mrs. Charming]

I keep forgetting I have months and months and months to go.. LOL. I agree, I'd also like to have a few things DD hasn't pooped in, either!!

Ohhhh a casserole party... a full freezer... <drool>

I think we're going to keep the crib, I dont *think* there are any recalls on it. We just have to get DD a twin bed. Maybe something from IKEA?

 

[Mrs. Charming]

OK, I have a weird question. Has anyone had a "pinchy" pain in her cervix at around 8 weeks? It feels SO weird!! I can't pinpoint what it is, and I'm googling it, and coming up with nothing.

Thanks

 

[irisbud]

Mrs. Charming: I haven't had that, but have had some odd pains, sort of sharp, "down there". The Doctor said it is probably hormone changes. Maybe yours is caused by the same?

We had our 9-week ultrasound yesterday, and the Doctor said everything look perfect! The heartrate was 166 BPM. We didn't get a very good picture because they did it extrenally. They offered to do an internal if we wanted, but we decided that as long as everything looked okay there was really no need. I go back again in four weeks.

I am trying to decide if I want to get the H1N1 shot now or wait until we finish the first trimester. The Doctor said no problem with getting it now, but I wonder if it would be safer to wait? Any thoughts?

Hope everything is going well for everyone else!

Have a great day everyone!

 

[WDWAurora]

I'm not sure what trimester I was in when I got the H1N1 vaccine, but I work in public schools, 15 of them, and I thought the risk of getting H1N1 was too much. I was probably in the 1st trimester, because I was one of the first vaccinated in my county, so Octoberish? I haven't had any problems.

 

[chicagoshannon]

I SOOOOOOOOOOO need this thread. Our 1st daughter is an IVF baby. Then 15 months after she was born we managed a miracle pregnancy on our own. Lost that baby at 8 weeks. Then we did an FET with our leftover embryo's from DD's IVF last Feb. I had a chemical pregnancy.

Miraculously we got pregnant in October. I had spotting at 8 weeks. Everything looked fine, then I brought myself to the ER at 11 weeks (it was a Saturday) for more spotting. Baby looked great. I haven't had an appointment since almost 12 weeks and I'm starting to freak out. They should seriously let people that have had losses go in to the doc every week. I go to the doc again on Wednesday. I'm so paranoid that I'll go and find no heartbeat. Yesterday I hear a story of someone going to the doc at just before 16 weeks and her baby had died. I was just starting to feel ok and now I"m back in crazy land. I almost ordered a doppler last night but it wouldn't make it to my house until like Tuesday so I thought what's the point. I rented a doppler with DD but was trying to be less neurotic this pregnancy. YEAH RIGHT!

I'll be 15 weeks tomorrow and am not feeling the baby yet. I pray almost every minute of every day to just feel the baby move for some reassurance. I'm seriously going to end up in a mental ward soon!

 

[KiKi Mouse]

Shannon,

That was one of my worries with this current pregnancy. That I would go along thinking everything was fine and then *bam* only to find out I had been carrying a dead baby (been there done that). I had an u/s at 7 wks with this one and then at 9 wks I had a HUGE anxiety attack right before we left on vacation. There's a non-medical u/s place in town that does the 3d imaging etc. I called them up in a panic and the girl squeezed me in and did a heartbeat check.
Is there any place like that where you live? I was charged $25 and it was worth my sanity.

 

[chicagoshannon]

I had my appointment today- I'm 15w5d- and the baby sounded great. I'm SO relieved.

Got my big ultrasound scheduled for March 2. As soon as I got home I did online check in for our vacation. I had been holding out til after the appointment in case I had to cancel.

 

[EeyoreEma]

I for some odd reason decided to take another pregnancy test tonight (5w2d) and the line didn't seem all that dark. I've had 2 m/c before, but usually don't keep testing, so i'm not sure if it should be darker or not by this point. What do y'all think? If I m/c again, I think I'm done as I would be very happy with my 2 anyway, and I don't think I could go through this again.

 

[Mrs. Charming]

You might have just tested with more diluted pee. Call your Dr and see if you can get some betas done. I know your pain, and I wish you the best, and for a happy little sticky baby!