So in addition to my story that put me in a crappy mood let me tell you what else happened today.
My dads been having some problems with his legs. They are very very weak and almost got to a point where he couldn't walk. Well, he couldn't except for a few feet. The Drs. are not quite sure what is causing it but through a course of steroids, other meds and PT he's been getting a little better but still uses a rolling walker for stability.
So I travelled out there to take him to an appointment and he did so good getting up and down the stairs, in and out of the car, at the restaurant. It was such a great day spending it with my dad. When we got back to his house he was going up the stairs and got to the last one and fell. Thankfully he fell "up" onto the porch instead of backwards down them! The neighbor across the street happened to be out and saw it and rushed over to help. Of course the neighbor is elderly too so it was hard getting him back up. We finally did and then got him into the house. It just scared me so bad. Not only to see him fall and feel so helpless but to see him in such a state.
I love my dad with all my heart and we are so close. I just can't bear to see him this way and to think he could get worse. I know he's getting older and I know that people's health will start to fail but he's my dad, he's infallible! This has been a truly sucky day!
But my Dh did take me out for dinner so that was nice.