Please spare an extra prayer for me UPDATE..

[The Mystery Machine]

 

[PrincessKsMom]

I'll keep you and your family in my prayers and thoughts.

 

[dg39]

Thankyou all so very much for all the prayers and good wishes. I do have to say that I spoke with Alice (from these boards) and she was soo full of info. I thank her for taking the time to speak to me and explain some things that I had questions about.

It seems that I may carry the cancer gene and if I do I will then need a double mastectomy and have my ovaries removed. As I said to Alice, I'm ok with that. I'm 49yrs. old and had my kids, so I don't need my ovaries anyway. I'm also ok with the double mastectomy. The way I see it is, I'm going to be out for the single mastectomy so when they take the other breast off, I won't be in any pain, I'll be out..KWIM....

I'm just afraid out of my mind about the chemo. I can't stop thinking about it. I think about everything that can go wrong, will.

I also know that as of now 1 node is bad and I pray everyday to God that no more are affected.

I have the appt. with the surgeon on Fri. morn. We're going to Sloan Kettering and my dh will be with me every step of the way. I know I'm not alone in this, but, if I wasn't so afraid, I think I'd be able to manage better.

Thankyou all again for thinking about me and sending prayers my way...

Denise

 

[Goofyluver]

My thoughts and prayers are with you.

 

[Aliceacc]

Denise, you sound great!!

It's a good idea to have your husband come along with you. This is such an emotional time, it's easy to mis-hear or entirely miss something the doctors say. Having another set of ears listening is really important!!!

Let us know what the surgeon says on Friday, OK??

I have an appointment with my plastic surgeon this afternoon for another "fill up." I'm well on my way to those perky breasts!!

Before you know it, we'll be the "perkiest" 50 year olds in the tri-state region

Take care. You'll remain in my prayers.

 

[AnnaS]

Denise - glad to hear you have your husband and your children. Talk to your friends too or come here. One day at a time. It helps to share it.

We are all here praying for you. Keep us posted.

 

[Pea-n-Me]

Well, I see a lot of "positives" in your post, having been in a similar situation myself. You've already had your children; you're being tested for the gene; you're being treated at a wonderful center; with a double mastectomy you'll avoid the pitfalls of a single; your case was handled efficiently and you already have a lot of information before you. Sometimes these things drag out seemingly forever and it just makes it that much harder.

I can completely relate to how you're feeling about chemo. I was the same way - absolutely terrified. I've discussed it at length many times over on the breast cancer thread, but fortunately I found a good support center and a wonderful nurse and social worker who helped calm me down (as nobody else could) and learn to think about it in a helping way, rather than a hurting way. Laurabelle has said to others that remember, cancer is the enemy, not chemo! Feel free to come by and we'll be happy to talk about it some more if you want to.

 

[Aliceacc]

I second that suggestion. The breast cancer thread has been a HUGE help. The wondeful people there have answered so many of my questions, honestly and completely.

Here's the link: http://www.disboards.com/showthread.php?t=1710007

 

[mickeyboat]

Denae

 

[Trish Bessette]

You are in my prayers.

 

[CJBaby]

I'm praying for you to conquer the spirit of fear that is in you and for God to bring you strength and peace. I'm copying a piece from the "praying parent" thread by live4christp1 that really helped me. It's written with the intention of helping a parent help their children overcome fear, but it really helped ME when I was overwhelmingly fearful. I pray it does the same for you.

"Fear is something that comes upon us the moment we don't believe that God is able to keep us, or all we care about, safe. FEAR or False Evidence Appearing Real - easily strikes children because they can't always discern what's real and what isn't. Our comfort, reassurance, and love can help them; but praying, speaking the Word of God in faith, and praising God for His love and power, can free them."

"There are times, however, when fear is more than a passing emotion. It can grip a child's heart so strongly and so unreasonably that no actions or words can take it away. When that happens, the child is being harassed by a spirit of fear. And the Bible clearly tells us a spirit of fear does not come from God. It comes from the enemy of our soul."

"Parents have the authority and power through Jesus Christ to resist that spirit of fear on their child's behalf. Fear doesn't have to have power over them. We have power over it. Jesus gave us authority over all the power of the Enemy (Luke 10:19).

Today's weapons of warfare:

Isaiah 41:10 - Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will srengthen you, yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.

Psalm 91:4-6 - He shall cover you with His feathers, and under His wings you shall take refuge; His truth shall be your shield and buckler. You shall not be afraid of the terror by night, nor of the arrow that flies by day, nor of the pestilence that walks in darkness, nor of the destruction that lays waste at noonday.

Psalm 27:1 - The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The Lord is the strength of my life of whom shall I be afraid?
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[dg39]

I'm praying for you to conquer the spirit of fear that is in you and for God to bring you strength and peace. I'm copying a piece from the "praying parent" thread by live4christp1 that really helped me. It's written with the intention of helping a parent help their children overcome fear, but it really helped ME when I was overwhelmingly fearful. I pray it does the same for you.

Thankyou so much for this. I will copy it and keep it with me along with the other prayers/novena's I'm saying.

 

[Aliceacc]

Denise,

Good luck at your doctor's appointment today. It's the surgeon, right?

Remember to bring paper and a pen, and to write down any questions you have before hand, as well as anything he says.

You'll want to speak to the plastic surgeon too. I got mine as a referral from the regular surgeon-- get a few referrals so you can be sure to get someone who takes your insurance.

As always, you're in my prayers.

Fill us in later, OK??

 

[kellyg403]

Denise,

Good luck at your doctor's appointment today. It's the surgeon, right?

Remember to bring paper and a pen, and to write down any questions you have before hand, as well as anything he says.

You'll want to speak to the plastic surgeon too. I got mine as a referral from the regular surgeon-- get a few referrals so you can be sure to get someone who takes your insurance.

As always, you're in my prayers.

Fill us in later, OK??

Yes, definitely do this. It helped so much when my mom was going through all her appointments. She said it helped her feel more in control of the decisions that had to be made. Having it written down in black and white, getting the answers and knowing how to proceed were real important to her.

God Bless...
Kelly

 

[lucyanna girl]

Prayers said. Isn't it wonderful how many people have posted about being a survivor? I can only imagine how scared you are and I am so sorry sweetie. Get as much information as possible. Write it down. Pray. Come here and talk to friends.

Penny

 

[dg39]

Hi everyone,

We had our meeting with the surgeon at Sloan Kettering this morn. It went pretty good. Turns out that I won't be getting a double mast.. I will be getting the left breast removed and then chemo afterwards.

We'll find out more about the nodes after the surgery which is scheduled for Oct. 23.

I left the hospital actually feeling good and if you can believe it I felt relieved. Most of the tests were already done, so after pre op, PET scan and some blood work, the only thing left will be the actual surgery.

I think I'm ok with all of this, as the dr. reassured me that I will be fine. This week has been a roller coaster of feelings. I thank all of you for your continued prayers and well wishes.

Thanks to those who sent pm's reassuring me that things will go well and giving me their own info. regarding either themselves or their loved one's who conquered this beast. It put my mined at ease and that is so very much appreciated.

Thank you all again,
denise

 

[lucyanna girl]

So happy to hear you got some positive news!



Penny

 

[Dan Murphy]

You are on the road, Denise.

 

[Muffy]

I know things will go well at Sloan Kettering. Best of luck to you.

 

[Aliceacc]

Hi everyone,

We had our meeting with the surgeon at Sloan Kettering this morn. It went pretty good. Turns out that I won't be getting a double mast.. I will be getting the left breast removed and then chemo afterwards.

We'll find out more about the nodes after the surgery which is scheduled for Oct. 23.

I left the hospital actually feeling good and if you can believe it I felt relieved. Most of the tests were already done, so after pre op, PET scan and some blood work, the only thing left will be the actual surgery.

I think I'm ok with all of this, as the dr. reassured me that I will be fine. This week has been a roller coaster of feelings. I thank all of you for your continued prayers and well wishes.

Thanks to those who sent pm's reassuring me that things will go well and giving me their own info. regarding either themselves or their loved one's who conquered this beast. It put my mined at ease and that is so very much appreciated.

Thank you all again,
denise

I'm so glad it went so well!!! And that you only need a single, not a full. (It will be so much easier having the use of your right hand the whole time!!)

Have you figured out where you're going with reconstruction?

And how great that you only have to wait 2 weeks... the waiting is brutal.

And, again, if my experiences are typical, this whole thing is painless. Honest, from the start to finish, the most painful thing was the IV-- nothing else hurt at ALL!!!

Feel free to call or PM when questions come up.

So, all in all, you really did have a good day!