One Year Ago Today....

[PrincessSuzanne]

My beautiful mother, my best friend, passed away , but in her death 2 people were able to see again. Every time I think about her and get sad, I try to think of those 2 people and hope their life is much better.

I am just as sad today and I was then. It has gotten better as far as everyday life, but it is still very painful. She was the only parent I had and I was her only child, so we shared a very special relationship, especially after my grandmother got sick and passed away.

I believe she sent me a message on Friday, through the morning dedication on my favorite radio station. I cried my eyes out, but I just knew it was meant for me.

I am not sure why I am posting this, I guess I just needed to see my thoughts and to help me not break down, she wouldn't want me still feeling this way today.

Well the day is almost over and I had better get ready for bed. For all listening, well reading, I really appreciate it.

Suzanne

 

[luvmarypoppins]

Sending you a hug. I miss my mom soo much too. What a blessing that others are able to see as the result of her gift. My one ds is eventually going to need a cornea transplant, so I know just how much this means to the receipients, Blessings to you.

 

[dakuhn]

I too believe that those that have gone before send messages just to comfort us a bit. They know how much it hurts sometimes. Rainbows are a sign of my grandpa. There were two rainbows the day he passed and two rainbows again the day we buried him. Now whenever I see them, I think of him. BTW, I live in Ohio, so seeing rainbows is not a common thing

 

[Mackey Mouse]

I miss my Mom everyday and it has been many years that she is gone, but I remember her with love and smiles and it does not hurt anymore.

 

[312.Duck]

My beautiful mother, my best friend, passed away , but in her death 2 people were able to see again. Every time I think about her and get sad, I try to think of those 2 people and hope their life is much better.

I literally fear the 1 year date of my mother's passing. I have a really bad feeling I'm going to lose it, big time (just hit 5 months on Saturday). I completely understand what you mean how it gets better, yet is still incredibly painful. It's not fair. It's not right.

 

[PrincessSuzanne]

I literally fear the 1 year date of my mother's passing. I have a really bad feeling I'm going to lose it, big time (just hit 5 months on Saturday). I completely understand what you mean how it gets better, yet is still incredibly painful. It's not fair. It's not right.

I still have really bad days, even 16 months later. Last Tuesday was my 8th Wedding Anniversary and my MIL called to talk to DH and I had to disappear, because it wasn't fair that he could talk to his mother in person and I could only talk to mine with no response.

Christmas is going to be hard, that is why we are going to WDW, but I am sure I will have a cry in there somewhere. WDW was mom's favorite place to be and I know she will be there with me.

I am here if you just want to talk

Suzanne

 

[312.Duck]

Last Tuesday was my 8th Wedding Anniversary and my MIL called to talk to DH and I had to disappear, because it wasn't fair that he could talk to his mother in person and I could only talk to mine with no response.

Spot. On.
Felt that same thing with my wife talking to her mother. My mother was in much better shape (better than all of us, actually), yet she had to go!! I feel cheated.

I went to DW in Sept for the first time without her (nor my dad - he couldn't handle it), and it was bad. Well, it was great, but so, so many triggers from trips past, and the fact they were supposed to be there with us which set me off - a lot.

 

[Shelly F - Ohio]

I have walked in those shoes. The one year anniversary was hard but not as hard as Mothers Day.
We need to start a daughters without Mother support thread since there seams to be a lot of us on here.

 

[PrincessSuzanne]

I have walked in those shoes. The one year anniversary was hard but not as hard as Mothers Day.
We need to start a daughters without Mother support thread since there seams to be a lot of us on here.

That would be a wonderful idea, since I don't really have anyone else to be so open with. My cousin lost her mother (my mom' sister) but she has children and isn't always avail to talk.

Mother's day was really hard, as was mom's birthday since they had just laid her headstone the day before. My birthday was hard because I am an only child and she always made a big deal about it. Mother's Day was hard because I don't have children to refocus my attention on.

Suzanne

 

[Shelly F - Ohio]

Suzanne I too do not have kids to refocus on. It's hard not having someone to talk to which makes the matter worse. There are days that I want to not be here to deal with this. Life can be so mean. My sister is not receptive to talking about it either. I kept everything in and dealt with it the best I could which was not my best thing. It lead to two attempts to take my life just months after my mom died. I felt no reason to go on.
There were no chat boards back then so I was all alone. So we should lean on each other.
I do have to run to get a hair cut and a few errands then we have to go to the funeral home. DH grandfathers brother passed away. But I will be on here later if you want to chat.

 

[PrincessSuzanne]

Suzanne I too do not have kids to refocus on. It's hard not having someone to talk to which makes the matter worse. There are days that I want to not be here to deal with this. Life can be so mean. My sister is not receptive to talking about it either. I kept everything in and dealt with it the best I could which was not my best thing. It lead to two attempts to take my life just months after my mom died. I felt no reason to go on.
There were no chat boards back then so I was all alone. So we should lean on each other.
I do have to run to get a hair cut and a few errands then we have to go to the funeral home. DH grandfathers brother passed away. But I will be on here later if you want to chat.

I would love to chat later. I am on my lunch break, but will have time at home later.

I wished at times I could have gone with my mother, but DH was right there for me, but he still doesn't understand like a woman does, and he isn't as close to his mom.

Look forward to chatting later

Suzanne

 

[312.Duck]

We need to start a daughters without Mother support thread since there seams to be a lot of us on here.

no!

 

[312.Duck]

Mother's Day was hard because I don't have children to refocus my attention on.

Suzanne

Same here. My brother and sister do, and the combination of living for them and just keeping them occupied certainly helps (or so it appears).

 

[312.Duck]

but he still doesn't understand like a woman does, and he isn't as close to his mom.

It's not just a woman thing. I understand the Mother/Daughter, Father/Son thing, but those relationships are a matter of intuitive biological connections. They mean absolutely nothing in terms of the love shared between a mother and any gender of offspring.

 

[PrincessSuzanne]

It's not just a woman thing. I understand the Mother/Daughter, Father/Son thing, but those relationships are a matter of intuitive biological connections. They mean absolutely nothing in terms of the love shared between a mother and any gender of offspring.

My DH was raised by his father and step-mother not his mother and while they are close, he doesn't understand the closeness my mom and I shared, actually alot of people don't seem to get it. I didn't have a father in the home to get close to.

But, there is just something different about a relationship between a mother and daughter, NOT that there isn't with a mother and son, but it is about being women.

Suzanne

 

[luckylab]

I miss my mom everyday as well, and it has been 18 years since her passing.