How is everyone this evening? I am so thankful that tomorrow if Friday and that this week is almost over. Thank goodness. I can't take anything else at work this week. Bah.
Hey LL! The evening is going pretty good. The dredged weekend has arrived. I'm already thinking negatively about it. Now, we don't make much, but we still have the funds to do things here and there. Everytime his family comes up, no matter if it's 2 people or 5 people, we always buy food for them ahead of time. Blake cooks breakfast, I cook dinner, and we MAY go out once for lunch just for something to do, because Blake and I always plan activities that don't involve spending much money.
Now, one of the things that ticks me off about going down there is that no matter who's house we stay at (his brother's, his sister's or his mom's) NOBODY plans ahead of time for food, so we're always spending unnecessary amounts of money eating out or buying food for ourselves. And with my milk allergy, I can't have dairy products, so pizza, ice cream, anything with butter in it has to be modified or taken apart. And what do they get..fast food, pizza...and we have to buy everything for ourselves. Just SO annoying when we're trying to budget our hearts out here and then the progress is GONE in one weekend. Lately, we've been trying to bring soy milk, etc. from home so I don't have to buy them there.
And another thing...(sorry for the rant ladies..the pre-weekend is bringing it on!!) Blake's sister is so irresponsible when it comes to money. She's only a year younger than him and graduated college in december. She's been with her boyfriend for 7 years and his family owns their own business so they have a lot of money. His parents BOUGHT them a brand new townhouse, they only have to pay about $300 each for rent. His boyfriend has been covering her since they moved in in November (he has anxiety) and she FINALLY got around to looking for a job, and is making $8.00. I feel like she rubs it in my face that she has this brand new place, which she doesn't pitch in with at all....Blake and I only have a 1 bedroom apartment, but we pay for it ourselves, we've never had any help with bills.
Now she's an art/photography major and could be doing weddings or something that actually INVOLVES her major, but chooses not to because she says it's too much responsbility. So this weekend, she has an art show, some sort of senior showcase for her last graduation requirement. She KNEW this was coming up for at least a year, and instead of saving her money like a responsible adult does when "bills" come around, she spent all of her money at the bar, and made her mother, who doesn't make much to begin with, fork up $500 to get all her artwork framed for this weekend!
I have so much "hostility" toward her and most of his family, that it's very hard to put on a happy face. I'm not sure if it's the distance, that I see them every few months or so and they never email me, call me, act like I'm part of their family (we've been dating 5 years next month) that I feel like playing the ignorance game with them. Yet in the same respect, they play the "can't dish it game" and say it's me that never does anything to be a part fo their family. Sometimes I feel like I want to get to know them and be included and other times I feel like I just don't really care.
I don't know...hopefully I can just grin and bear it this weekend.
(Rant over!)
I'm working on it!! I think I have gotten to bed at the latest 11pm this week.... but yeah, the getting up at 5am....not so much
But I hope to be around more soon!
