Noah's Wish Trip (Wings ~ July 29, 2009)

[kdzbear]

It's been a while, but I've been lurking on the boards alot lately, and felt the need today to post.

It's been 2 months since our world crashed down around us. We are still just trying to keep our heads above water. I hate the reality of our lives...the loss of everything that was Noah.

I am still so very lost.

We have booked a return trip to Disney for November 26-December 9th. We all have such a longing to go back to the place that holds so many memories...to visit GKTW and see Noah's paver. (And free dining was a good motivator to book). The plan is to spend the first few days at Cocoa Beach, and then head to the CBR on the 29th. I have mixed emotions about the trip as it will be a very, very different trip. Praying that it will be an enjoyable time for our family, and that I won't spend the WHOLE trip in a puddle of tears.

A huge thank you to those of you who have sent emails, cards and little gifts recently. How they brighten up the day, and remind us that Noah is not forgotten. I hope to get back to this trip report soon, before all the little details are forgotten.

I am glad to hear you are planning a trip back. We miss hearing about little Noah's journeys, but I bet he is on a more important one right now. Your trip misses Tyler's Wish trip by one day. We go home on the 25th. Our family would have loved to have met yours!

 

[MouseTriper]

It's been a while, but I've been lurking on the boards alot lately, and felt the need today to post.

It's been 2 months since our world crashed down around us. We are still just trying to keep our heads above water. I hate the reality of our lives...the loss of everything that was Noah.

I am still so very lost.

We have booked a return trip to Disney for November 26-December 9th. We all have such a longing to go back to the place that holds so many memories...to visit GKTW and see Noah's paver. (And free dining was a good motivator to book). The plan is to spend the first few days at Cocoa Beach, and then head to the CBR on the 29th. I have mixed emotions about the trip as it will be a very, very different trip. Praying that it will be an enjoyable time for our family, and that I won't spend the WHOLE trip in a puddle of tears.

A huge thank you to those of you who have sent emails, cards and little gifts recently. How they brighten up the day, and remind us that Noah is not forgotten. I hope to get back to this trip report soon, before all the little details are forgotten.

Oh Nichole, my heart still aches for all of you. Not a day goes by that I do not think of your sweet little Noah! Noah truly touched so many hearts and he will NEVER be forgotten!!!!!!! I can't even imagine all you must be going through. I'm happy to hear that you have this trip planned. I hope you are able to smile thru the tears when the memories of Noah at Disney come flooding back. I'm so glad that Noah got his Wish trip and that you all had that time as a family. My thoughts and prayers are with you!

 

[Applemomma]

There isn't too many days that go by that I don't think of Noah or check your blog to see how you're doing. I'm so glad to hear you are planning a trip. It gives you something to head towards. I'm sure the trip will be difficult and different in many respects but remember you are allowed to have tears .... and you are allowed to smile; remember that too.

Keep breathing and know we're here for you.

 

[Piglets Mommy]

I am happy to see that you are planning a trip in December. i'm sure it will be a bittersweet one, but I know that you will find comfort in the Disney magic.

 

[twinmum]

Nichole: I think of you daily, and just wish we could all bear some of your pain. Yes, it will be a difficult trip, but I am glad that you are planning some time together. Hopefully this time at WDW will rekindle the happy memories of Noah's Wish Trip. And, most certainly, the Disney magic will bring some measure of happiness to you all.

 

[eyor44]

Nichole
I think of Noah often and pray that you and your family are doing okay. I too wish you the best and hope you all have a wonderful trip full of wonderful memories.

 

[Wis2InTink]

Nichole,
My daughter and I will be at CBR the same week. Thank you for sharing your story with us. I sincerely hope that your writing is good therapy for you during this difficult time. This trip is something that your family can look forward to.

 

[carrie6466]

I followed your trip report as well, even though I didn't say much. I'm glad you are going to go back. I hope it will be everything you want it to be. I also will be at Carr. Beach at the same time from 12/3 until 12/8.

 

[ndloewen]

Thank you all for your kind comments.

kdzbear, it's too bad we won't be there during Tyler's wish trip. Our family would have enjoyed meeting him.

Perhaps we will run into some of you that are staying at CBR while we are there.

We have been told by a few people that we must be crazy to be going back to Disney...to a place that holds so many memories of Noah. I have told them that I can't imagine going somewhere where we didn't feel surrounded by Noah. Right now I need to be surrounded by everything that was him. So, yes, I know there will be many tears. (Disney brings me to tears at the best of times). But I am hoping that there will be joy too...that we will be able to smile and enjoy the magic that is Disney...that it will be a time of memory making for our family.

 

[macntosh]

Miss you guys, and think of y'all often. Hope you can get some pin trading in.

 

[Jenvenza]

I just wanted to bump this and let you know I was thinking about Noah today. My heart still aches for you. I hope you have a wonderful trip.

 

[ndloewen]

We are off to the World in 9 days! I have very mixed emotions...

 

[HeatherSue]

We are off to the World in 9 days! I have very mixed emotions...

 

[maroo]

We are off to the World in 9 days! I have very mixed emotions...

Totally understandable!

We love you!

 

[CoP Luv]

Hi Nichole - I read your blog and my heart just aches for you. BUT I do hope you have a GREAT trip with you family. It may be just what you all need.

 

[FormrCastMbr]

My thoughts have been with you and your family. It is totally understandable to have mixed feelings about your trip. I wish you all the best for safe and happy travels.

 

[cathie1327]

We are off to the World in 9 days! I have very mixed emotions...

Try to have a great time.

Thinking about you guys.

 

[tinytreasures]

so glad you are going back

 

[MouseTriper]

We are off to the World in 9 days! I have very mixed emotions...

Awww, major hugs to you Nichole. I imagine you will have both tears of sadness missing Noah but tears of joy in watching Kailyn and Josh. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

 

[twinmum]

We are off to the World in 9 days! I have very mixed emotions...

Of course, this is totally understandable. I hope you have a wonderful trip!