New TTC Thread

[Pollito916]

Thanks everyone!! I am so excited. I feel great today so I'm hoping my estrogen is rising and keeping me in that good mood (I've felt down for the last week).

pollito, ovulating has been painful for me since getting off BC and having Scooner. I feel the pains for 3 days actually. I always feel it in my back, on the left or right side. Like below where your kidney might be? So I know exactly when I am ovulating because I always take the OPKs just in case and they match up.

I hope that's what it is and not your endo sneaking back up!

Thanks for that description, vettechick. That is actually very similar to how I have been feeling since Sunday night, more on the left side, in the front and back. I never felt pain in back with endo. I have never tried OPKs, but maybe we should. I hope DS is very tired tonight and DH is not.

 

[esbrick]

esbrick-I think the meds to make you ovulate are probably different, but not necessarily. I had to take meds to make me get follicles ready, which was, in turn, supposed to make me ovulate. When those didn't do it on their own, we added a trigger injection (an injection-only way to take a trigger) and continued the other meds (clomid or femara) for days 3-7, then added the trigger on day 10 or so (whenever the u/s indicated follicles were ready). I hope that makes sense.

vettechick-WOOHOO!!!

Thanks so much! So I picked up the perscription last night and it is an injection. I couldn't do clomid because I was past the day, 3rd day of my cycle, per Dr. K. Doc said he didn't want me to take anything while I was away incase I had a bad side effect or something. I'm hoping that AF is gone today. To top things off (TMI here, sorry!) I also have an infection that I began treating last night. I feel better today but that means no "practice" sessions this weekend for me Sheesh when my system is messed up it's fully messed up! ANNNNNNDDDD The machine is malfunctioning! CRAZY!!!

 

[Mrs. Charming]

May I vent a TTC vent here? I've only posted once or twice in this thread, but I'm super frustrated. Would you mind listening?

Thanks.

 

[esbrick]

I don't mind. Pull up a chair and start venting/typing!

 

[Mrs. Charming]

Thank you so much. I'm ready to pull my hair out! We've been TTC for nearly 2 years, and it's totally gotten to me lately, combined with the holidays, I'm just a mess. Back in August, I started seeing a RE. I went through all the tests, and back in November I had laparoscopy/hysterscopy. They removed scar tissue from my c-section from DD, a uterine septum, polyps, and endometriosis... yeah, no wonder we weren't getting pregnant. So, about a week or two after that, I was able to stop the bcp's they had me on, and so I'm on my first cycle. We were supposed to start clomid this cycle, but I was misinformed about my insurance, and basically the insurance won't cover ANYTHING since I've had my diagnosis. We just can't afford $900+ a month for clomid monitoring! Like we're not poor, but $900+ a month is a LOT. Especially around Christmastime.

The RE had previously said that "once we get you ovulating, you should have a good chance of conceiving." I know I was ovulating semi-regularly before the surgery, but just not every month. Since then, I haven't heard a peep from the RE's office, despite two calls to try to get in touch with the Dr. but I don't even get returned calls. I don't know if it's my coordinator (the fake-nice gatekeeper) or what. The Dr. has told me on many occasions to call her anytime. I just want to know if there's a less expensive option. I'd try a unmed natural cycle, but it's just as much as a clomid cycle, less $18 for the clomid. I just feel like I've been dumped! Like I haven't paid them enough already! The worst part is, I am having a little redness around the stitches and I just don't even want to call them!

So... I wasthinking, and I remember using Vitex to conceive DD, and it worked really quickly. So, I splurged and bought FertilAid and FertileCM and a whole new box of Clear Blue Monitor sticks. I was so full of hope at the beginning of the cycle, and now, I'm just blah. I'm now on CD17 and the monitor says "high" but there hasn't been a lot of change on the sticks, just an almost indiscernible bit darker every day. I feel like I should be on peak by now. ::sigh:: I'm not sure if I'm just plain anovulatory or if it's just delayed because of the Fertilaid. I know I should be temping but I just thougth I'd give myself a break this month. I'd only have partial craziness, and just use the monitor.

I just feel so desparate... I even bought a fertility spell on ebay! I feel like a kook! Like I seem to collect all the "fertility" items I can-- jade turtles, gemstone fertility bracelets, charms... ::sigh:: I feel like such a loser!

I'm living like a nun, I don't smoke/drink et... I don't even take advil! I'm even convinced that um "marital relations" doesn't create babies anymore.

Thank you so much for listening/reading. I had to get that out!

 

[D&DDisney]

Thanks so much! So I picked up the perscription last night and it is an injection. I couldn't do clomid because I was past the day, 3rd day of my cycle, per Dr. K. Doc said he didn't want me to take anything while I was away incase I had a bad side effect or something. I'm hoping that AF is gone today. To top things off (TMI here, sorry!) I also have an infection that I began treating last night. I feel better today but that means no "practice" sessions this weekend for me Sheesh when my system is messed up it's fully messed up! ANNNNNNDDDD The machine is malfunctioning! CRAZY!!!

I hate "baking bread" (as a friend of mine used to say).

Thank you so much. I'm ready to pull my hair out! We've been TTC for nearly 2 years, and it's totally gotten to me lately, combined with the holidays, I'm just a mess. Back in August, I started seeing a RE. I went through all the tests, and back in November I had laparoscopy/hysterscopy. They removed scar tissue from my c-section from DD, a uterine septum, polyps, and endometriosis... yeah, no wonder we weren't getting pregnant. So, about a week or two after that, I was able to stop the bcp's they had me on, and so I'm on my first cycle. We were supposed to start clomid this cycle, but I was misinformed about my insurance, and basically the insurance won't cover ANYTHING since I've had my diagnosis. We just can't afford $900+ a month for clomid monitoring! Like we're not poor, but $900+ a month is a LOT. Especially around Christmastime.

The RE had previously said that "once we get you ovulating, you should have a good chance of conceiving." I know I was ovulating semi-regularly before the surgery, but just not every month. Since then, I haven't heard a peep from the RE's office, despite two calls to try to get in touch with the Dr. but I don't even get returned calls. I don't know if it's my coordinator (the fake-nice gatekeeper) or what. The Dr. has told me on many occasions to call her anytime. I just want to know if there's a less expensive option. I'd try a unmed natural cycle, but it's just as much as a clomid cycle, less $18 for the clomid. I just feel like I've been dumped! Like I haven't paid them enough already! The worst part is, I am having a little redness around the stitches and I just don't even want to call them!

So... I wasthinking, and I remember using Vitex to conceive DD, and it worked really quickly. So, I splurged and bought FertilAid and FertileCM and a whole new box of Clear Blue Monitor sticks. I was so full of hope at the beginning of the cycle, and now, I'm just blah. I'm now on CD17 and the monitor says "high" but there hasn't been a lot of change on the sticks, just an almost indiscernible bit darker every day. I feel like I should be on peak by now. ::sigh:: I'm not sure if I'm just plain anovulatory or if it's just delayed because of the Fertilaid. I know I should be temping but I just thougth I'd give myself a break this month. I'd only have partial craziness, and just use the monitor.

I just feel so desparate... I even bought a fertility spell on ebay! I feel like a kook! Like I seem to collect all the "fertility" items I can-- jade turtles, gemstone fertility bracelets, charms... ::sigh:: I feel like such a loser!

I'm living like a nun, I don't smoke/drink et... I don't even take advil! I'm even convinced that um "marital relations" doesn't create babies anymore.

Thank you so much for listening/reading. I had to get that out!

TTC is sooooo very frustrating! Just plain STINKS that with all we are doing, trying, taking, etc.that NOTHING ever happens. Not after 1 month, not after 5, not after 9, not after a year --- JUST NOTHING!!!!!!!

You're not a kook, nut, or loser. You're just frustrated and so very disappointed. We feel your pain.
My advice...stop living like a nun and come have a drink with us.

 

[esbrick]

I hate "baking bread" (as a friend of mine used to say).

Yep that would be it and it SUCKS!!!

TTC is sooooo very frustrating! Just plain STINKS that with all we are doing, trying, taking, etc.that NOTHING ever happens. Not after 1 month, not after 5, not after 9, not after a year --- JUST NOTHING!!!!!!!

You're not a kook, nut, or loser. You're just frustrated and so very disappointed. We feel your pain.
My advice...stop living like a nun and come have a drink with us.

I second the whole come have a drink with us! Living like a nun may frustrate you even more!

You may want to put some Neosporin on that redness. TTC is a nightmare for more couples then you realize, no matter how long or short you go through it.

As you may have read my "machine" as i called it is screwed up this month too Your system may still be trying to work itself out so give yourself a break. If you want to by some fertility beads or candles go for it! If they are helping you relax then they are doing their job!

I won't tell you to be strong, you already are. I will tell you that you have come to the right place where you will meet other strong women who will support you . One woman's experience can be another woman's answer to her own struggle so vent when you need to.

Take care and I hope your stay here is a short one. . .

 

[si-am]

Vettechick-- congrats!

Mrs. Charming-- Feel free to vent here anytime. A lot of us have been going through all this stuff for a long time and have been where you are. Insurance just totally sucks. My RE wants to do IUI but my insurance won't pay for it, and my RE is just really unhelpful regarding any other treatments or options. Honestly, I think so many infertility cases are such a mystery that they don't really know what to do outside of IUI/IVF. I am pretty much giving up on mine because I don't see much more point in going.

 

[skuttle]

Mrs. Charming... Insurance sucks!! Is there anyway you could do the clomid cycle with your OB/GYN? And have them code it differently? My insurance covered all ultrasounds with my IUIs through my OB/GYN. They just didn't cover the sperm wash, IUI or the clomid and trigger shot. I spent $500 out of pocket for each IUI. Still alot, but less than $900. After 3 years of TTC, I had my first RE appt last month and my next step is injectables, but I'm taking a break before jumping into that...for my sanity as well as for financial reasons! Don't give up on the monitor just yet. I O late, sometimes not until CD 20, so don't give up yet!! Keep peeing on that stick!

E...when are you supposed to do the injection? I did Clomid CD5-9 then trigger when the follicles were ready, anywhere from CD14-18 for me, then we did IUI 24-36 hours later. I was very lucky and had NO side effects from the clomid, trigger or progesterone. If you need meds, I hope you are just as lucky!

So I'm a bit down lately. DS has been struggling with his behavior in class so I posted a thread on the family board to get some advice. Most were very helpful, but one poster asked if DS was an only child because that may be the problem. OMG. I couldn't help but cry. So now, my inability to have a child is causing my DS to have behavior problems? I responded to her, and tried to be as nice as possible, but it was very hard. Ugh. Just had to vent...I know y'all understand.

Plus, my BFF that had a baby in October is coming in for Christmas and I know I'll have to see her. *sigh* I almost started crying buying the baby a Christmas present. We're trying to figure out a day to meet. I want to meet with our other friends there so it's not as awkward.

And another plus, the pregnant girl at work is about to burst. And she hasn't gained a pound anywhere other than her belly. UGH!!

Vettechick, congrats! You are very lucky to get pregnant so quickly. I hope all goes well.

 

[chloelovesdisney]

Hi Mrs. Charming. Sorry for all of your troubles, that stinks. Infertility insurance coverage seems to be hit or miss, although some states now make some coverage mandatory, bless them. Can you get a clomid prescription from your gyn and forgo the RE monitoring?

Esbrick, it's only Wednesday, the weekend festivities may still be on.

Went in again today, seems like everything is growing as it should and I am supposed to give myself the trigger shot tomorrow night. Friday I am going for acupunture, and on Saturday morning we go in for the IUI. I wish I felt more positive about everything, I am trying hard not to feel like this is all a giant waste of time.

As always, lots of babydust to all my TTC friends.

 

[chloelovesdisney]

Hi Skuttle. That poster didn't know what she was saying and was out of line for suggesting that.

I feel your pain regarding the pregnant girl at work. The girl that sits right next to me is pregnant and due the week after I was, so lucky me I get to be reminded every single day. Well, Monday - Friday anyway. I really do my best to be cheerful and ask how she is doing, etc., but it's tough.

 

[si-am]

Man, skuttle, that stinks. What a nasty thing to say, even without knowing about infertility issues!

 

[Mrs. Charming]

I hate "baking bread" (as a friend of mine used to say).



TTC is sooooo very frustrating! Just plain STINKS that with all we are doing, trying, taking, etc.that NOTHING ever happens. Not after 1 month, not after 5, not after 9, not after a year --- JUST NOTHING!!!!!!!

You're not a kook, nut, or loser. You're just frustrated and so very disappointed. We feel your pain.
My advice...stop living like a nun and come have a drink with us.

Oh I would love to come have a drink with you ladies!! Count me in.

It totally stinks!! STINKS I tell ya!! And the worst part-- no one understands. Sorry, it's hard to be PATIENT after 2 YEARS!!! 2 months, I was really patient, hopeful... 2 years, 4 rounds of clomid, monitors, charts, tests, and a surgery later-- NOT so patient! Gah!! TTC has turned me into a crazyperson.

Thank you for listening to me, and being supportive. I really needed it!!

 

[Mrs. Charming]

I second the whole come have a drink with us! Living like a nun may frustrate you even more!

You may want to put some Neosporin on that redness. TTC is a nightmare for more couples then you realize, no matter how long or short you go through it.

As you may have read my "machine" as i called it is screwed up this month too Your system may still be trying to work itself out so give yourself a break. If you want to by some fertility beads or candles go for it! If they are helping you relax then they are doing their job!

I won't tell you to be strong, you already are. I will tell you that you have come to the right place where you will meet other strong women who will support you . One woman's experience can be another woman's answer to her own struggle so vent when you need to.

Take care and I hope your stay here is a short one. . .

Joining in for a drink!

That's so true, TTC is a nightmare... I just don't really know any other couples going through it.

Thank you... I hope all are journeys are that much shorter.

Yeah I've had some neosporin in the navel, it seems to be getting better, except when I get a 2 year old elbow in it... ouch! lol She doesn't know any better, so I can't get mad, ya know?

Haha darn these ClearBlue monitors. I reset mine because I think it was thrown off by previous clomid cycles, I figured I'd start fresh. Now I'm not so sure I did the right thing. I shouldn't be too suprised that it's still low... I don't think I've ever O'ed before day 15 in my life! Heck, I was 2 weeks late for AF when we *conceived* DD.

Thank you again for being supportive... the holidays are hard... babies and preggers people everywhere. That and DH doesn't get it. He just doesn't get why it's upsetting.

 

[Mrs. Charming]

Vettechick-- congrats!

Mrs. Charming-- Feel free to vent here anytime. A lot of us have been going through all this stuff for a long time and have been where you are. Insurance just totally sucks. My RE wants to do IUI but my insurance won't pay for it, and my RE is just really unhelpful regarding any other treatments or options. Honestly, I think so many infertility cases are such a mystery that they don't really know what to do outside of IUI/IVF. I am pretty much giving up on mine because I don't see much more point in going.

Thank you

Insurance totally does suck.. the bills are mounting and I feel like we've paid a fortune, and our insurance "covers" everything we did. Ugh! With what the insurance pays, I'm not even sure why we have it.

I know how you feel about giving up. I sometimes just want to throw my hands up, and because of my insurance, I don't see a point in going either. I keep trying to tell myself that if I stop going, I'll stop stressing, and it'll work. I dunno. I'm not getting any alternative options either. Sucks.

I really hope the best for you, for all of us. I wouldn't wish infertility on my worst enemy, even my SIL! haha.

 

[Mrs. Charming]

Mrs. Charming... Insurance sucks!! Is there anyway you could do the clomid cycle with your OB/GYN? And have them code it differently? My insurance covered all ultrasounds with my IUIs through my OB/GYN. They just didn't cover the sperm wash, IUI or the clomid and trigger shot. I spent $500 out of pocket for each IUI. Still alot, but less than $900. After 3 years of TTC, I had my first RE appt last month and my next step is injectables, but I'm taking a break before jumping into that...for my sanity as well as for financial reasons! Don't give up on the monitor just yet. I O late, sometimes not until CD 20, so don't give up yet!! Keep peeing on that stick!

E...when are you supposed to do the injection? I did Clomid CD5-9 then trigger when the follicles were ready, anywhere from CD14-18 for me, then we did IUI 24-36 hours later. I was very lucky and had NO side effects from the clomid, trigger or progesterone. If you need meds, I hope you are just as lucky!

So I'm a bit down lately. DS has been struggling with his behavior in class so I posted a thread on the family board to get some advice. Most were very helpful, but one poster asked if DS was an only child because that may be the problem. OMG. I couldn't help but cry. So now, my inability to have a child is causing my DS to have behavior problems? I responded to her, and tried to be as nice as possible, but it was very hard. Ugh. Just had to vent...I know y'all understand.

Plus, my BFF that had a baby in October is coming in for Christmas and I know I'll have to see her. *sigh* I almost started crying buying the baby a Christmas present. We're trying to figure out a day to meet. I want to meet with our other friends there so it's not as awkward.

And another plus, the pregnant girl at work is about to burst. And she hasn't gained a pound anywhere other than her belly. UGH!!

Vettechick, congrats! You are very lucky to get pregnant so quickly. I hope all goes well.

You're so right, insurance totally sucks. I wish I could get clomid through my OBGYN, but 4 cycles was the limit. He was a douche anyway. I'd love to ask my midwives, but I highly doubt it would happen. I just wish it was a little less expensive. I think every other cycle we could pay like $500, but $900, that's a lot to come up with. It sucks, because clomid is SO cheap... I think the trigger shot was like $60. I could do that so easily.. and even a little bloodwork I could handle, but crap! I'm not rich, I just want a baby! You shouldn't have to be rich to afford this fertility stuff!

I usually O late too, usually CD 18-21 ish. I keep waiting for the monitor to say "Peak"... I'm just terrified that it won't and it'll be an anovulatory cycle. LOL I'm going to be peeing on sticks until the cows come home!

*HUGS* about the pg girl at work. I don't know how you do it, you're far stronger than I. I'd probably have to cry at lunch in the bathroom every day. And I can totally relate to having to buy baby clothes, I had to buy both my infant niece and nephew clothes for Christmas. I'd rather have had a root canal in a back alley.

Oh and that totally sucks about the person who said it might be because your DS is an only. That's a load of crap. I'm an only, and for right now and possibly for ever, DD is an only. It certainly didn't kill me, and I really don't think it's "the problem" with your DS. Ugh. People are so insensitive. Sometimes I think I"m better off an only, and sometimes I wonder why I'm going through all of this to give DD a sibling. Some of us just can't pop out kids all willy nilly.

 

[Mrs. Charming]

Hi Mrs. Charming. Sorry for all of your troubles, that stinks. Infertility insurance coverage seems to be hit or miss, although some states now make some coverage mandatory, bless them. Can you get a clomid prescription from your gyn and forgo the RE monitoring?

Esbrick, it's only Wednesday, the weekend festivities may still be on.

Went in again today, seems like everything is growing as it should and I am supposed to give myself the trigger shot tomorrow night. Friday I am going for acupunture, and on Saturday morning we go in for the IUI. I wish I felt more positive about everything, I am trying hard not to feel like this is all a giant waste of time.

As always, lots of babydust to all my TTC friends.

Hiya
I so wish I could get clomid from the OBGYN. I even had the horrible thought of ordering it off the internet, but then I thought better. I swear, it's probably easier to get hard drugs!

I wish I lived in one of those states that had mandatory fertility coverage. The kicker is, we live in PA. All but one of the surrounding states has mandatory fertility coverage. I could cry! I even wrote my senators, but didn't get a response from one, and another wrote me back saying that it's too expensive. Grr. DH can't give up his job or get transferred, either.. we totally thought about it!

I'm thinking about going back to acupuncture. Have you noticed a difference? I guess I didn't get to the point where there would be a difference, but then again I had a lot of physical barriers that I didn't know about at the time.

Best of luck to you, c'mon little follie!!

I need some positive thinking myself... it's hard to even try to trick yourself into thinking positively!

 

[D&DDisney]

Hiya
I need some positive thinking myself... it's hard to even try to trick yourself into thinking positively!

I hear ya sister!

Skuttle - Some of those "know it alls" on the other threads can be so mean. What an awful thing to say to you. Regardless of whether they knew better or not.

 

[Kronk's girl]

Hi guys, I know you will all be very nice if I join in this thread because I have been lurking on it for over a year and you have always been nice I had to make a new account because some people I know use these boards and my husband and I haven't told anyone we are ttc-ing.

Here's my story/vent- We have no kids, and we are both desperate to be parents. We have been trying for 14 months with no success (it feels longer because we wanted to try much sooner, but had some unemployment issues that made us wait). I am in the process of getting blood work done since my husband was already tested and seems to be fine. I have really long cycles and the doctor talked to me about clomid as a future possibility depending on how my tests come back.

We tortured ourselves by purchasing Disney baby stuff on previous trips (because we thought for sure we'd be coming home with an extra souvenir, which we obviously did not), but now that stuff just taunts me. My husband has hidden it in his closet so that I don't have to see it everyday. I think my sister-in-law may have gotten the hint because she kept calling and asking if/when we wanted all their baby stuff, and I said that we aren't interested in having kids right now (I had to lie because I could not handle filling our empty guest room with baby stuff, that would be the biggest jinx ever).

The best news I've had in a while- the doctor told me that I could stop temping- he said a year worth of charts was enough .

So I'm joining in- Congrats to Vettechick , and baby dust to everyone else

 

[Mrs. Charming]

Hi guys, I know you will all be very nice if I join in this thread because I have been lurking on it for over a year and you have always been nice I had to make a new account because some people I know use these boards and my husband and I haven't told anyone we are ttc-ing.

Here's my story/vent- We have no kids, and we are both desperate to be parents. We have been trying for 14 months with no success (it feels longer because we wanted to try much sooner, but had some unemployment issues that made us wait). I am in the process of getting blood work done since my husband was already tested and seems to be fine. I have really long cycles and the doctor talked to me about clomid as a future possibility depending on how my tests come back.

We tortured ourselves by purchasing Disney baby stuff on previous trips (because we thought for sure we'd be coming home with an extra souvenir, which we obviously did not), but now that stuff just taunts me. My husband has hidden it in his closet so that I don't have to see it everyday. I think my sister-in-law may have gotten the hint because she kept calling and asking if/when we wanted all their baby stuff, and I said that we aren't interested in having kids right now (I had to lie because I could not handle filling our empty guest room with baby stuff, that would be the biggest jinx ever).

The best news I've had in a while- the doctor told me that I could stop temping- he said a year worth of charts was enough .

So I'm joining in- Congrats to Vettechick , and baby dust to everyone else

Hiya I totally know what you mean about the "baby stuff/jinx" thing. I still have a lot of DD's old stuff around just for lack of space, ugh, it sucks! It's just a constant reminder. I had even purchased stuff over time in hopes of a new baby... (I was pg last year and m/c'ed) and well... I packed it all up in a Rubbermaid tote and left it at my Aunt's house. I just couldn't bear to have it in the house.

I hope you get somewhere with your RE. They're usually very thorough, I hope you get some answers!! LOL I had to laugh about the "souvenir." 4 trips later, I'm still empty bellied! I don't know how these other women do it. I could plan the trip around ovulation, and it still wouldn't happen, I'd either not ovulate or AF would come early. Isn't that a kick?

I wish you the best of luck