New TTC Thread

[WDWAurora]

Oh Allison, I'm sorry. It does FEEL like they stole your baby sometimes, doesn't it? I think being completely illogical and irrational is related to all the hormones, because I definitely have been over the past 2 years. One good thing is that if you host the shower, you choose where it is, and you can make sure you have an escape. Best thing I could have done for myself. I was able to "have to grab something from my room" anytime things got too tough.

 

[chloelovesdisney]

Hi Skuttle. You are NOT the worst friend around. We have all been there and felt the same way. I have another baby shower next week, so we can all commiserate together.

 

[skuttle]

Thanks guys. I'm not sure what I'd do without y'all sometimes. It is SO helpful to have people that understand. My DH just doesn't get it. To him, nothing is different. According to him, they didn't take anything from us, they didn't take our baby, we're still doing IUI, nothing has changed since my friend's announcement. He just doesn't get it and never will. He does want another baby, but he doesn't have the longing for another like I do. He'd be fine with another, or with just DS. And he doesn't get why that's not enough for me. *sigh*

Courtney: How have you been feeling? Thanks for the idea re the baby shower. The place we hosted her wedding shower didn't have an "escape room" so definitely something I'll need to keep in mind if I'm not pregnant by then!

Chloe: ANOTHER ONE?!? Ugh!

D&D: Thanks so much. It's so hard because I remember being SO excited on Easter morning with my BFP. Someone else on the TTC thread also had gotten a BFP that morning...she was lucky and hers stuck. After that chemical pregnancy, I know I'll never be able to be excited about a BFP ever again. Back in Oct, when I had the second chemical pregnancy, I didn't even tell my DH I got a BFP because I figured it would only last a few days. Unfortunately, I was right. I HATE that TTC does this to us! Something that should be one of the most exciting moments of your life is just the opposite...filled with worry and "what ifs".

I should get to work! I should here from the nurse today re when we'll do the ultrasound. At least I have the IUI to take my mind off of things.

 

[mickeyboat]

Allison. It will happen for you.

Sending lots of sticky baby dust to all.

As most of you know, I am not TTC - we are done. I just like to stalk you girls here every once in a while.

I had a PG scare this month and I think it might have been a chemical pregnancy. DH and I talked about how we would feel if I was PG, and I was surprised when DH sheepishly said "I would be happy. Would you be happy?"

We aren't going there on purpose, though.

I have been dieting and exercising, and feel great! I have lost 18 lbs and have a lot more to go, but I am pretty proud of myself.

I have been having some facial nerve pain for a couple of months and my doctor diagnosed me with trigeminal neuralgia - a chronic and very painful condition. I have an appointment with a neurologist next month. I can't help but think it's tooth pain, though. So before I freak out and ask for a CAT scan, I am going to the dentist. I really hope it's my tooth.

That's my quick fly-by message. Good luck ladies!

Denae

 

[ZPT1022]

Hi ladies Are you open to new people joining your discussion? Is it only for people who don't already have kids? I have three kids, but went through treatments to have two of them. My youngest are almost five and aside from one pregnancy and subsequent miscarriage this past fall, nothing since. My should have been due date for the one I lost in the fall is about 2 weeks away and I'm really bummed out. Can't bring myself to go to other people's showers, etc..... And I'm just totally upset that it hasn't happened again. Ugh. I don't think anyone understands who isn't going through it themselves, kwim?

 

[D&DDisney]

Hi ladies Are you open to new people joining your discussion? Is it only for people who don't already have kids? I have three kids, but went through treatments to have two of them. My youngest are almost five and aside from one pregnancy and subsequent miscarriage this past fall, nothing since. My should have been due date for the one I lost in the fall is about 2 weeks away and I'm really bummed out. Can't bring myself to go to other people's showers, etc..... And I'm just totally upset that it hasn't happened again. Ugh. I don't think anyone understands who isn't going through it themselves, kwim?

You are always welcome here. Some of us already have kids through adoption, pure luck or medical treatments so there are no restrictions on that. Just have to be going through the TTC process and need someone else who understands. That's us!

Skuttle - It really does FEEL like she "stole your baby" In fact, to make sense of it all, I look at it like this...

A bunch of us are waiting in line for the most wonderful coaster ride of our lives. Some lucky people get to say "Hey, lets ride the coaster tonight" and BOOM - they are riding the pregnancy coaster successfully. Some times multiple times. Others of us are waiting, and waiting and waiting and WAITING in line for our turn to ride. Sometimes we get teased by saying - its your turn next and actually get strapped into the ride and maybe go a few feet before they are yanked off the coaster by miscarriage. Some get to ride it once but don't get a second chance.
When someone comes along and tells us they are pregnant and we've been waiting in line FOREVER, its like they skipped us. Its very unfair that we have to wait FOREVER while they just come along and pass us by, get into the ride and off they go. Not to mention the fact that we have to be HAPPY that we got skipped and sometimes fake happiness for those who skipped us, at her shower.

Not very logical, I know, but it truly is how I feel inside. That doen't make you a bad friend.

 

[chloelovesdisney]

Hi everyone! Welcome to all newcomers and oldtimers!

D&D - I really like your coaster story. I think it's a very descriptive way to tell our story.

Yes, I do indeed have another baby shower next week. Lucky me.

Hugs and Baby Dust to All!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[skuttle]

D&D, that's a great description! It's so hard to explain, but you did a great job.

ZPT, welcome to the TTC thread! As we always say: We hope your stay is a short one! I have an almost 6 year old DS that was a surprise. We've been TTC #2 since the summer of 2006 with only two chemical pregnancies to show for it. It's so frustrating knowing that you did the whole pregnancy thing successfully before!

I talked to the nurse today and they want to do a follicle scan on CD12, which will be next Thursday. If things look good, we'll go forward with the IUI. If not, I may need another scan. If things still don't look good, we'll skip IUI this month and try it next month with Clomid. They want to see how I do on my own first, especially since my cycles are regular. It feels SO good to have a game plan!

I stopped at Walmart last night to pick up some OPK strips and also some prenatal vitamins. I figure the vitamins can't hurt. I'm wondering if I should temp this cycle as well. I feel like I'm TTC all over again...I haven't done all of this (OPK, vitamins, temp'ing) for probably a year!

 

[chloelovesdisney]

Hi everyone! Hope you are all doing well! I am now one week down, with one more week of waiting to go. I am feeling very positive this time around.

You have a good plan Skuttle, . I've had a whole bunch of sonograms while taking the follistim. I find it totally fascinating to find out the size of the follicles each time.

As our friend mickeyboat said - sticky babydust to all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[chloelovesdisney]

Just checking in and saying hi. I've been spending WAY to much time on this board the last few days. DH is away and I am bored. I should be cleaning out the closets, etc., and being productive, but instead I wile away the hours on the computer.

Still nothing going on, no signs one way or the other. I am doing a countdown. Six more days till I can take a test.

Hope all is well with everyone!

 

[DMickey28]

Argh ... I just wrote a whole long post and then DS came and hit the keyboard making it disappear.

Aurora - How are you feeling?

Allison - It is exciting to see you guys starting again. I used to buy my OPK's from early-pregnancy-tests.com. That way I could use them every time I went to the bathroom when I was close to O. Sometimes I would get a negative at 9AM, a positive at 11AM and then negative after that. I would miss my surge if I just tests once or twice a day.

I just had a miscarriage at 4w3d. I know it was super early but I found out at 10DPO but my tests never got darker. My LP is only around 11 days so I have been trying to lengthen that and I was an early tester. I am officially cured of my early testing obsession. I will not be testing that early anymore. My beta on 13DPO was 15 and all my sx disappeared that day too. My beta from 15DPO was only 16 and as of 19DPO it was down to 4. I started spotting on 17DPO and full force the next day. We had been TTC #2 for six months. The worst week of my life knowing I was pregnant but that it wasn't going to last.

We are not going to keep trying for now. We have a lot of changes coming up and decided to give it a break. We are moving home in May/June and are actually going to stay with my parents for the summer. We want to buy a house in the Fall so we can save up mucho money doing this for a few months. In the summer it's easy because we have all the outside room and my mom works long hours in the summer. DH will be at work Monday through Thursday and come home on the weekends. HOpefully it all works out!!

We are going on vacation to Myrtle Beach in a week and if my cycle gets back to normal it will peak week and as much as I would love a surprise, hopefully we can play it safe!!

 

[skuttle]

DMickey, I'm so sorry. I've had two chemical pregnancies, and even though you're only pregnant a short while, it's still really hard. My first one was the worst because I wasn't expecting to lose the pregnancy. Like you, my line never got any darker. I got a BFP on CD30 (I also have a shorter LP) and then by CD34 AF had arrived. I had another chemical pregnancy this past October, but that one didn't bother me as much because I didn't get excited seeing the BFP because I figured I'd lose it again. It's a shame that TTC can take that joy away from you. Good luck with your move! Maybe a change of scenery will help things along!!

I bought a large pack of OPK sticks at WalMart that will allow me to test 2x per day. I plan on starting around CD 10 or 11. I'll have to check out that website for next time.

 

[WDWAurora]

Nothing new here. I'm clingy, a little moody. (Ok, maybe seriously moody-DH caught some mega anger last night. I was about as mad at him as I've ever been, over nothing serious) All of these things are kind of normal for me, though. I've been wanting candy, which is fairly odd for me, but I go through those spells every now and then (I'm normally not much for sweets) I can't believe I have to wait until Thursday!

I won't be around much for a few days-we're headed to the beach! Hopefully there will be a lot more going on here in the next few days.

I'm sorry, DMickey. We're going to be just north of Myrtle in 2 weeks for a wedding. I actually thought about staying in N. Myrtle, instead of at the wedding site for better rates. It's a beachy month for us, apparently.

 

[chloelovesdisney]

Hi DMickey. I'm so sorry. I had a chemical pregnancy not too long ago. The loss was very upsetting, no matter that it was early on. I really do feel for you.

Aurora, enjoy your beach trip. You are on the same schedule as me, just five more days to wait.

 

[momsully]

I have not had alot of time to read/post since I got back from vacation. Mexico was fun, a nice relaxing break from work and some good quality time with the kids.

Allison - I know how you feel with your BFF. I have had to be happy for my SIL twice and my sister once since starting this quest for another baby. However, I am excited to see you and DH have a plan to move forward with IUI.

Courtney and Chloe - Hope the last week of the 2WW goes fast for you both.

DMMickey - That is exciting about moving home and buying a house.

D&D - I LOVE your analogy. It really does seem like that sometimes.

Denae - Good luck with your tooth!

Happy Easter everyone!

 

[D&DDisney]

Happy Easter/Passover to all!

Momsully - glad you had a great vacation. You deserve it. Looks like you'll be going on another soon.

Aurora & DMickey - Enjoy your beach vacations. Come back w/ good news.
Yeah on the moodiness Aurora!!! I know that's a good sign.

My 2ww is over and I'm out - as usual. Bummer Easter gift. Hope everyone else has better luck this month.

 

[momsully]

Looks like you'll be going on another soon.

We have a crazy vacation schedule this year. I get five weeks vacation and never use it all, I think I have an extra two weeks in carryover days so we decided to take couple more vacations than normal this year.

Our June trip I am taking my nieces who are 5 and 3 to meet the princesses. As a mom of two boys I am pretty excited about this. I booked the princess breakfast in Norway and BBB to get their hair done! DH is staying home for this one it is my, SIL, MIL and four kids!

October is a trip for my 40th. My parents are going with us so we are pretty excited about that one as well.

We try to travel somewhere when the kids are on spring and fall break from school if we can get a good deal. We have to pay $300 a week for childcare so that is a good incentive.

D&D - Have you ever been to Mount Rushmore? We are thinking of making it a weekend trip sometime this summer (I think it is a five hour drive) and was wondering if you had a good campground.

 

[skuttle]

Courtney and Chloe...I'm SO excited for you both!! I hope you both have good news later in the week!!

Today we went to our home town for my cousin's son's birthday party. Another extended family member was there (my mom's cousin's kid...I think that's my cousin some sort of way!) and they are expecting their 2nd child. I had no idea so when she walked in all big and pregnant, it was like someone punched me in the stomach. It's funny (and pathetic I suppose) how seeing a pregnant person can bring me down SO far SO fast. *ugh*

I hope everyone has a great holiday weekend!!! Maybe the Easter Bunny will bring us all some good eggs, just waiting to be fertilized. LOL!

 

[WDWAurora]

We're home. We had a good trip. I had to take it easy on some of our activities, just in case, but nothing big. I'm going crazy, though! Yesterday, I was sure I was going to end up testing tomorrow (they said that was the VERY earliest I could) but today I'm feeling a little better about waiting.

I'm starting to have some PMS symptoms, so I'm thinking no. Sore chest (always get that with PMS and always let it convince me it's from pregnancy rather than PMS) and mild cramps. We'll see. The nurse said I probably wouldn't start my cycle until I came off the progesterone, but that hasn't been the case before. I think I'm going to the dollar store to stock up on tests tomorrow. Pretty sure I'm out of them.

 

[KiKi Mouse]

Aurora, I'm really hoping you get your positive test in the next couple of days.

Skuttle, *hugs* I KWYM. My next door neighbor is actually due today. I avoid any contact with them whatsoever. They probably think I am such a you-know-what.

me...nothing new..
on day 11 right now of my fourth cycle of Clomid. ugh.