New TTC Thread

[ZPT1022]

You are always welcome here. Some of us already have kids through adoption, pure luck or medical treatments so there are no restrictions on that. Just have to be going through the TTC process and need someone else who understands. That's us!

Skuttle - It really does FEEL like she "stole your baby" In fact, to make sense of it all, I look at it like this...

A bunch of us are waiting in line for the most wonderful coaster ride of our lives. Some lucky people get to say "Hey, lets ride the coaster tonight" and BOOM - they are riding the pregnancy coaster successfully. Some times multiple times. Others of us are waiting, and waiting and waiting and WAITING in line for our turn to ride. Sometimes we get teased by saying - its your turn next and actually get strapped into the ride and maybe go a few feet before they are yanked off the coaster by miscarriage. Some get to ride it once but don't get a second chance.
When someone comes along and tells us they are pregnant and we've been waiting in line FOREVER, its like they skipped us. Its very unfair that we have to wait FOREVER while they just come along and pass us by, get into the ride and off they go. Not to mention the fact that we have to be HAPPY that we got skipped and sometimes fake happiness for those who skipped us, at her shower.

Not very logical, I know, but it truly is how I feel inside. That doen't make you a bad friend.

Thank you for the welcome. I LOVE the roller coaster analogy.

D&D, that's a great description! It's so hard to explain, but you did a great job.

ZPT, welcome to the TTC thread! As we always say: We hope your stay is a short one! I have an almost 6 year old DS that was a surprise. We've been TTC #2 since the summer of 2006 with only two chemical pregnancies to show for it. It's so frustrating knowing that you did the whole pregnancy thing successfully before!

I talked to the nurse today and they want to do a follicle scan on CD12, which will be next Thursday. If things look good, we'll go forward with the IUI. If not, I may need another scan. If things still don't look good, we'll skip IUI this month and try it next month with Clomid. They want to see how I do on my own first, especially since my cycles are regular. It feels SO good to have a game plan!

I stopped at Walmart last night to pick up some OPK strips and also some prenatal vitamins. I figure the vitamins can't hurt. I'm wondering if I should temp this cycle as well. I feel like I'm TTC all over again...I haven't done all of this (OPK, vitamins, temp'ing) for probably a year!

Good luck! I have an almost 8 year old who, like your son, was a surprise. I actually got pregnant with her on the pill. I have twins as a result of injectibles plus IUI. The infertility specialist actually said that he thinks I got pregnant on the pill the first time because the pill regulated my cycle enough and tricked my body into thinking I was cycling normally for the first time. Weird, huh? Anyhow, I was diagnosed with PCOS but managed to have the twins with lots of help. Since having them I've been diagnosed with endometriosis as well (found that out when I had my "period" for over three months despite being on the pill).

My twins are almost five and I desperately want another one. I was pregnant in the fall but had a miscarriage around 8 weeks. I would have been due next week if I hadn't lost the baby. I'm not sure if I can put myself through the whole injectible & IUI thing again, at least not yet, so I don't know if I can consider us officially TTC given my history but we are.

Argh ... I just wrote a whole long post and then DS came and hit the keyboard making it disappear.

Aurora - How are you feeling?

Allison - It is exciting to see you guys starting again. I used to buy my OPK's from early-pregnancy-tests.com. That way I could use them every time I went to the bathroom when I was close to O. Sometimes I would get a negative at 9AM, a positive at 11AM and then negative after that. I would miss my surge if I just tests once or twice a day.

I just had a miscarriage at 4w3d. I know it was super early but I found out at 10DPO but my tests never got darker. My LP is only around 11 days so I have been trying to lengthen that and I was an early tester. I am officially cured of my early testing obsession. I will not be testing that early anymore. My beta on 13DPO was 15 and all my sx disappeared that day too. My beta from 15DPO was only 16 and as of 19DPO it was down to 4. I started spotting on 17DPO and full force the next day. We had been TTC #2 for six months. The worst week of my life knowing I was pregnant but that it wasn't going to last.

We are not going to keep trying for now. We have a lot of changes coming up and decided to give it a break. We are moving home in May/June and are actually going to stay with my parents for the summer. We want to buy a house in the Fall so we can save up mucho money doing this for a few months. In the summer it's easy because we have all the outside room and my mom works long hours in the summer. DH will be at work Monday through Thursday and come home on the weekends. HOpefully it all works out!!

We are going on vacation to Myrtle Beach in a week and if my cycle gets back to normal it will peak week and as much as I would love a surprise, hopefully we can play it safe!!

I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. It doesn't matter when it happens, it's always so difficult.

Courtney and Chloe...I'm SO excited for you both!! I hope you both have good news later in the week!!

Today we went to our home town for my cousin's son's birthday party. Another extended family member was there (my mom's cousin's kid...I think that's my cousin some sort of way!) and they are expecting their 2nd child. I had no idea so when she walked in all big and pregnant, it was like someone punched me in the stomach. It's funny (and pathetic I suppose) how seeing a pregnant person can bring me down SO far SO fast. *ugh*

I hope everyone has a great holiday weekend!!! Maybe the Easter Bunny will bring us all some good eggs, just waiting to be fertilized. LOL!

I feel like the pregnant people are everywhere and I don't know if there really are that many more around or if I am just hypersensitive to it because of our loss and subsequent failure to get pregnant again. On Easter, my SIL's friend dropped by and she is pregnant again. This will be her third kid since my twins were born. Craziness! I can't deal with it

We're home. We had a good trip. I had to take it easy on some of our activities, just in case, but nothing big. I'm going crazy, though! Yesterday, I was sure I was going to end up testing tomorrow (they said that was the VERY earliest I could) but today I'm feeling a little better about waiting.

I'm starting to have some PMS symptoms, so I'm thinking no. Sore chest (always get that with PMS and always let it convince me it's from pregnancy rather than PMS) and mild cramps. We'll see. The nurse said I probably wouldn't start my cycle until I came off the progesterone, but that hasn't been the case before. I think I'm going to the dollar store to stock up on tests tomorrow. Pretty sure I'm out of them.

OMG, it drives me so crazy that my PMS symptoms and my pregnancy symptoms are so close to the same. I have an herbal supplement I take to help try to ease the PMS but of course I am always too paranoid to take it just in case. I feel like I've put my life on hold for a maybe that never seems to happen. Can't take the PMS supplement, might be pregnant. Can't have a glass of wine, might be pregnant. And so on and so forth.

 

[WDWAurora]

Bfn

 

[skuttle]

Aw, Courtney, I'm SO very sorry.

 

[mickeyboat]

So sorry, Courtney.

 

[D&DDisney]

Bfn

So sorry! Isn't it early yet or is today the day? Any hope???

 

[ZPT1022]

Bfn

I'm so sorry

 

[skuttle]

Courtney....how are you doing. You know we are here for you.

Chloe...any more news for you?

I had my appt today. Follicles are still too small, which doesn't surprise me. I usually don't O until CD18ish, and today is only CD12. I go back on Sunday morning for another u/s. If things are still too small, I'll go back on Tuesday. Hopefully things are looking better by Sunday. I've been doing OPK the past couple of days and it's not getting darker yet, so that's good. I don't want to miss O!!

Today at the Dr's office was just awful. I started crying in the u/s waiting room. I was the only woman in there NOT pregnant, and some of those girls were teenagers! No way do they realize how lucky they are and the gift they have been given. It makes me so angry. I never knew I could feel such hatred towards complete strangers! Then, the u/s waiting room had 3-D u/s images on the wall. I left so mad and sad and just aggravated that I'm having to go through all of this. At least my appt Sunday will be at the hospital, and since it's a Sunday I shouldn't run into any pregnant ladies there for routine stuff. At least that's what I'm hoping.

I've been emailing my BFF#1(the one that had a baby last year) about everything because I don't want to vent to my other BFF#2 that is pregnant right now. I used to update them both, but stopped updating BFF#2 after she told me she's pregnant. BFF#1 offered to come to my appt with me and blindfold me so that I can't see any other people in the waiting room. LOL!

 

[WDWAurora]

So...now that I'm home and not trying to post from my phone...It was very quickly a negative this morning. I called the doctor's office, as I was told, at about 7:30. They say if you call before 2:30, they'll call back by the end of the day. I waited, and waited, and waited. The nurse finally called me back around 4, and said that the doctor was in surgery and she wasn't going to be able to talk to her until tomorrow. She couldn't answer anything, like whether or not I should come in for a blood test, etc. I'm going to POAS again tomorrow. She said I may have to come in for a consult, since I've done 3 cycles of drugs, which scares me, because if they say I need to go to IVF now-we just can't afford it. I mean, we'd start saving, but who knows how long it would take? Ugh. I am holding it together pretty well, but I'm pretty sure I'm going to lose it when the lights go out tonight. I was so SURE that this was it.

Allison-are you doing this at your OB-GYN? That's TERRIBLE!!!! I freaked out when a lady who had been successful at my RE was behind me checking out the other day and they brought her a printout of the image and said congratulations-no tummies involved. I get upset when people bring their kids in there, too. Hello, rubbing it in the faces of others. The teenager thing is tough. My school system (the one I work in, not live in) has the highest teen pregnancy rate in the state. It makes me crazy!

DH has said he has no interest in adopting, but I question whether our money wouldn't be better spent toward adoption. I mean, you spend the money, but you're basically guaranteed a child, unlike IVF.

 

[chloelovesdisney]

Hi everyone. I'm really sorry Courtney. I know it's very disappointmenting.

I didn't need to go into the doctor today, I became a very obvious BFN last night. This upcoming cycle is out, as I will be away on a business trip. It's only a few days, but it's on THE days. Stinkaroni. I'm going to focus on healthy eating and exercise while I wait for the next go round. Has anyone tried accupuncture? I got a good recommendation from a coworker and am seriously considering it. I know I keep saying it, but I'm afraid of needles so I keep chickening out. I am starting to feel desperate enough to really do it now.


Hi Allison. It is difficult at an Ob-Gyn office. I find it hard around just one pregnant woman, forget a room full of them. I wish you nice, big follie(s) at your appointment on Sunday!


Ladies, this has been a disappointing month. I have great faith that we will prevail in the end, and all of these sad times will be a distant memory.

 

[D&DDisney]

DH has said he has no interest in adopting, but I question whether our money wouldn't be better spent toward adoption. I mean, you spend the money, but you're basically guaranteed a child, unlike IVF.

That's what we ended up doing the first time around. My DH was a little leery too. Got nowhere w/ IUIs so we decided to second mortgage the house and adopt internationally where we were gauranteed a child. (no chance of birth mothers changing their minds) It was after the adoption, when we tried IUIs again that we got our 1 and only BFP. I also had friends that adopted and then GOT PREGNANT w/o help. Never rule anything out. You just never know what life has in store for you. Just don't give up.

Has anyone tried accupuncture? I got a good recommendation from a coworker and am seriously considering it. I know I keep saying it, but I'm afraid of needles so I keep chickening out. I am starting to feel desperate enough to really do it now.

I've always wanted to but never got up the nerve to try it. If you do let us know. I've only heard good things about it.

Today at the Dr's office was just awful. I started crying in the u/s waiting room. I was the only woman in there NOT pregnant, and some of those girls were teenagers! No way do they realize how lucky they are and the gift they have been given. It makes me so angry. I never knew I could feel such hatred towards complete strangers! Then, the u/s waiting room had 3-D u/s images on the wall. I left so mad and sad and just aggravated that I'm having to go through all of this. At least my appt Sunday will be at the hospital, and since it's a Sunday I shouldn't run into any pregnant ladies there for routine stuff. At least that's what I'm hoping.

Been there. Done that! You're not alone in feeling this way.
Just had to comment about the pregnant teens thing. I used to see women I thought were pregnant teens but turned out they were in their early 20s. They just looked so young to me and I was only in my 30s.

 

[KiKi Mouse]

chloelovesdisney,

Acupuncture is awesome. I started after my first m/c because I heard it could help with fertility. It helped move my ovulation day up and lengthen my luteal phase. It also helped with my mood/depression after the m/c. I am lucky as my insurance covers 80% of the $75 visits. If you can do it I would highly suggest it. It is amazing.
You do not feel the needles at all. They are very fine...not like a syringe.

 

[D&DDisney]

chloelovesdisney,

Acupuncture is awesome. I started after my first m/c because I heard it could help with fertility. It helped move my ovulation day up and lengthen my luteal phase. It also helped with my mood/depression after the m/c. I am lucky as my insurance covers 80% of the $75 visits. If you can do it I would highly suggest it. It is amazing.
You do not feel the needles at all. They are very fine...not like a syringe.

How many times do you have to go in a week? month? to get results?

 

[mickeyboat]

Allison - My RE and OB shared the same waiting room and check-in desk. The waiting room was full of parenting magazines. My RE had a bulletin board full of pictures and announcements of his successes, but it made me feel depressed to look at them. The U/S lab did both pregnancy u/s and follicle checks, so another whole group of pregnant people to have to see during treatment. It was like I couldn't avoid it no matter how hard I tried, and then I felt terrible for feeling the way I did when I saw them.

Lots of luck to everyone!

Denae

 

[skuttle]

Denae and D&D, thanks so much. It is SO hard having the feelings I do at times. I'm always wondering if this is "normal". It's always nice to hear that others have had the same feelings.

Re adoption...I know someone that tried and tried to get pregnant and never could. She ended up adopting two kids overseas. A couple of years later, she was surprisingly pregnant. And a year or so after that, she found out she was pregnant again. Crazy how that works sometimes.

I think if I had to chose between adoption and IVF, I'd have to go with adoption since it's a guarantee. Unless, of course, I had a ton of money, then I'd try IVF.

 

[DisneyDreamer8]

Hi everyone

I used to post here and I just wanted to say that I understand what you all are going through and that I am so sorry that you all have to struggle like this. I so hope that you all are successfull in whatever method you use to become a Mom for the first time or again.

Allison-I'm so hopefull for you and your DH!!! I hope your follies continue to grow. I know when I was waiting for my IUI I did and OPK three times a day (morning, afternoon and evening). Went through a whole bunch of those little buggers but we caught that egg. I hope the same happens for you!!!!!

Courtney-I'm so sorry Maybe you DH will change his mind on adoption...you never know.

 

[skuttle]

So I"m sorta freaking out. I think I had a positive OPK earlier this afternoon, and now I'm having some pain that I think may be O pain. Today is CD14, but I never O this early. I have my u/s tomorrow morning for another scan, but I'm thinking we may be too late. Ugh. I've been taking my Metformin this month...could that move up my O date? I stopped taking it for a while because it made me feel bad and I had pretty much given up hope, but once we started talking about IUI, I started taking it again because I finally had some hope again. If that's the case, and this is O, but I didn't have any good size follicles on CD12 at my u/s, I"m thinking I may need clomid this next cycle. If I didn't have good size follicles on CD12, and today may be O, my follies couldn't grow to a "good" size that quickly, right? I'm SO confused. And SO frustrated because I think I may be going in for my u/s tomorrow and it'll be too late. Ugh.

 

[chloelovesdisney]

Hi Skuttle. I don't think you need to worry too much. Follicles grow about 1-2 mm (or whatever measurement they use) a day. So if any of the follicles seemed like they might be getting big enough, I'm sure they would have had you come in yesterday or today as well to follow up. Usually one follicle takes the lead and gets bigger than the others, it doesn't sound like that was happening yet. If that wasn't happening yet, you should still have time. Please don't worry, although I know that's what we do best.

 

[momsully]

Courtney - I am really sorry!

Allison - Sorry, I can't help but hopefully the timing is perfect with your ultrasound tomorrow. The metformin may have changed the O day but I would think only a day or two. Let us know how the ultrasound goes. We need someone to bring us some positive news and I am really hoping this works for you!

Kiki - How often do you go to acupuncture? I have thought of trying a few times but have never gotten up the nerve to call and make an appointment.

Chloe - Sorry about the business trip. That seems to be a frequent problem in our house. I travel about once a month for work (usually only one night) but it always seems to be at the most inopportune time!

 

[chloelovesdisney]

It's the same here. The occassional business trip just seems to fall at exactly the wrong time. If only it was one week later. I just hate to waste even one try, there are so few chances each year.

 

[minnieandmickeymouse]

Hi all. I posted on this thread once about 10 months ago. My DH was going to get a VR in July. We're still not pregnant, my cycles have been screwed up and this cycle I'm on now, is my 1st cycle on clomid to help bring on O sooner.

Anyway, I read your thread now and then and I just had to post a link to a site called IVF vacation. It was posted on the vasectomy reversal support group I hang out on and I just thought I would give you guys the link in case it could be an option for any of you. I guess it's much more affordable then having it done in the US.

http://www.ivfvacation.com/index.html

Good luck ladies!