yes moo~~~~ one could say.....i pig out!, sure hope i don't
come down..with the swine flu.
...all i can say.....mp, i'm happy we're pass our "new baby days",
of course, stranger things....has happened,
.....looking back, where have the time flew by. * the thing about
pictures...., you can sit down, and flipped thru the years in a
few minutes.
watching the "star trek" auctions & the different feelings from
the cast & crew.
human behaviors..aren't that hard to explained, nor complicated
in ...they were desigend for meeting needs ... & desires.
....and this year, has spilled into my own personal life, with a certain
set of problems..[ so i get to practice..what i preach] .
and one of my hobby~habits, is to do reflecting & look for dynamics
..behind the "thinking". for example, i think walt..had no idea....how
great or big, his "empire"...was destined..to be.....@ the begining,
just liked the feelings from creating and the family themes. [ i think,
....this, based on all his orginal work being lost thru legal means,
didn't even slow him down].
wow, oh wowsers!....our life systems, are sooooo simple. but the
underlying "dynamics"...it took to produce such "workings" , are also
in reverse. just a glimpse, from all my observations...& yet they provide
the same vision of..the universal....that is, the more i learn, the
more there seems to be discover.
used what life teaches you, no matter how insignificant one might
thinks...or feels. like the above observations.....it reminded me, of
the lil'miracle...i was a part of in nursing school.....that morning, i
was thinking...how easy, i was going to have it...never knowing how
quickly...all of my plans were going to change..nor the effects of my
actions.
* i had no clue. none @ all. until, my instructor hled me after class...,
& told me ..how the new grandmother~ let us know..that her daughter
"held" onto my voice..like a teddy bear."
see?..how faith sneaks..in there. so does alot of "great" things we all
can do.....with life simple dynamics. & all i am reporting.....there 's no
ways...all of these things "workings" under one "guide"....can be
explained by accident.
why ....it makes..me sooooo
?! because,,,, the future is like
a empty notebook, waiting for all of us...to write the stories of
our livies, by the choices we are going to make....& they do
produce.....3 types, positive , negative, & no significant changes.
but i believe, that's a great power..that alot simple , lilthings..can
make ...up ..real miracles & beyond.
not 100% proven...but everything ..in life..seem to be connected ,
in one way or the other. like chemical interacting, effects our feelings
and our motivation & energy forces. and what is the first major sign
of life?...movement. and what are we doing ? daily activities....that
in turns..mixes~up our internal chemicals, making it possible for us to
meet our external needs.
the fact is, i kept giving...the lil'girl instructions, though she was
experiencing grand-mal seizures..because there was nothing else i could do.
...who would've thought? so watching, the star trek cast talked about
their bonds...do a pretend show, makes more sense....and i think there
are lessons..in that we should not give up..even when things don't make
sense to us..because there could be dynamics/powers.....beyond our
current reasoning, that could make the difference.
but the opposite is true..too. ignoring the realities & the knowledge
of supporting our livies......can causes terrible outcomes. that's the
responsibility..of our professional health care..to provide the basics, so
no person 's life is lost. [ yes, i'm very disappointed that our system
failed..my nurse friend. ] if these common sense things are ignored,
they will produced negative outcomes.
* i think..the craiglist killer....is an alarm. the fact, that the person
was in med school....how?
...it just like ..ignoring our needs for mental health...the things that are
true today ,were the same from the begining of time.....as it will be
in the future...."family values"....are required for living healthy, happy
livies.
..i believe, our society ..do not valued these common sense, needs.....
are used as "cover"...for "dangerous to others"..sick individuals, to
"hide"....& act on, those defective feelings.
.. i am learning , our legal system, & media...is more driven by
$$$ , then to protecting society. ..and with this, so goes prevention.
and making parents' even more importnat/ as teachers...and protectors.
well enough rambling, but...happy mother's day!
,
..i'm getting old..but not that old,
....which reminds me....
life may have it's headaches...but it's still better than the alternative.
..& it has alot of...potential, by changes.
no you didn't moo..it just took me alot longer..thinking & posting,
,[ well she had to be..
It wasn't necessary. 
I decided I wasn't needed there and didn't want to be part of the problem, so I went back to my car. By this time I am soaking wet, and my cell phone battery is almost dead. I plug my phone up to my cigarette lighter, and sit.
Eventhough, I have never met most of you, you are all my friends! 
Enjoy your familes and friends because in the course of 5 minutes, your life can change. God doesn't promise us tomorrow, and we need to appreciate every moment, no matter how good or bad, that he gives us.
I also had another kid braid her hair with mud today at recess, but that's another story.
