But I'm not. Disney is just 12 days away and that's still GREAT news for the kids, but my dh and I are worried sick....literally. I can't eat and can barely sleep.
Yesterday I took my baby boys to the doctor for their yearly check up. Khyri is one month late for his yearly ( bday 6/28) and Kendyl is one month early for his ( bday 8/24) but one month will not make or break anything, so no one is complaining but me.
The kids all went to a pedi that I've had for a while, but for reasons I don't want to speak about ( only because it may seem I'm being a bit mean and gossipy) I decided to switch their doctor to the same doctor dh and I see. She's a family practice doctor and we just adore her! This was their first visit to her.
So they took the boys vitals, weigh, the usual. Khyri who is 3 weighs 35 pounds and is 38 inches. Kendyl, who will be 5, is 37 pounds and 41 inches......he is so small for his age that he isn't even on the charts. I always knew he was small....my mom affectionately calls him "Tiny Tim" but I thought othing of it because dh is 5' 7 and not big ( I won't say his weigh...I don't have permission

) and I am 5' 4 1/2 and afetr having 5 kids I am 145... which still isn't big, so I just kinda strugged it to him coming from smaller parents.
Well my doctor left out the room after checking Kendyl's heart beat and came in with another doctor, who shook her head as if to agree with my doctor. My doctor then tells us we need to take Kendyl in for a Echocardiogram and EKG ASAP. He has a prominent heart murmur and an arrythmia ( I am a cardiac tech, so I know that some arrythmias are nothing, but most are bad

) She even called a specialty childrens hospital down the street from the hospital we go for care and tried to get him in, but the soonest they could get him in, even though my doctor told them it'sof high importance, is NEXT Thursday. I'm so worried about my baby.
He was born with a murmur in which the old pedi said was closed at 2 months. Well obviously these two other doctors hear it very well. I'm just sick with fear. The pedi that I speak of...yeah...I'm rather TICKED at her to say the least. This isn't the only major thing she has disappointed me with. Last year Kendyl swallowed a screw from his toy truck ( yes you read that right

) and told me it's no big deal and I later take him to the ER because it wasn't sitting well with me....well.....I took him and when they did a Xray, they were getting ready to prep him for surgery

I was scared and then demanded him to get transferred to a childrens hospital if he was going to go under the knife. By the time we got to the new hospital, the screw had traveled to his intestines with NO problem ( the were going in for surgery because they said if it traveled outside the stomach, it would rip his insides up) and the doctor said in his exact words " Someone's watching over this little guy from above" Well I told you all that to say I am less than pleased with the old pedi, especially if something is wrong with my little man's heart.
I don't know the religius background of any of you, but if you pray, PLEASE keep my little man in your prayers