The snow is deep and beautiful. The sun is shining and the wind is blowing. I still want to move to Florida, but from where I sit in a cozy warm house, I can deal with the snow!
Today I don't have high expectations for myself. We're going to bake some brownies and I plan to have one and to enjoy it. I'm not going to binge eat, but I am going to be more relaxed with everything. . .it's a day off from exercise according to the training schedule, and it's a day off from point counting. I AM going to keep track of what I eat, though. I want to have it as a point of reference for the rest of the week. I'll do water, vitamins, devotions, etc., but whenever I get around to it. I know that I like my healthy living routine and I'm striving to live by it consistently, but I don't want to be compulsive. I want my DD to see some balance instead of huge extremes. As it is now, I'm sure she'll always remember the mother from her childhood/teen years as one who dieted dramatically and binged back up the scale. I'm not proud of that, but this yo-yoing is something that she's unfortunately witnessed. I often wonder how it'll impact on her as she becomes and adult. I don't feel good about that.
At the same time, I know that none of us are perfect persons, and I hope that she'll be able to sort through the compulsiveness and see me as a woman who tried. . .tried to get a handle on all of this.
My house isn't perfectly clean, but it's decent enough that I can relax and be content. I'm going to do a load or two of wash, write some of those thank yous I'm still doing, and maybe do some crocheting. Maybe I'll try out the fitness DVD that came in the NBC packet. . .we'll see.
to anyone visiting here today.
Erin
Today I don't have high expectations for myself. We're going to bake some brownies and I plan to have one and to enjoy it. I'm not going to binge eat, but I am going to be more relaxed with everything. . .it's a day off from exercise according to the training schedule, and it's a day off from point counting. I AM going to keep track of what I eat, though. I want to have it as a point of reference for the rest of the week. I'll do water, vitamins, devotions, etc., but whenever I get around to it. I know that I like my healthy living routine and I'm striving to live by it consistently, but I don't want to be compulsive. I want my DD to see some balance instead of huge extremes. As it is now, I'm sure she'll always remember the mother from her childhood/teen years as one who dieted dramatically and binged back up the scale. I'm not proud of that, but this yo-yoing is something that she's unfortunately witnessed. I often wonder how it'll impact on her as she becomes and adult. I don't feel good about that.

My house isn't perfectly clean, but it's decent enough that I can relax and be content. I'm going to do a load or two of wash, write some of those thank yous I'm still doing, and maybe do some crocheting. Maybe I'll try out the fitness DVD that came in the NBC packet. . .we'll see.

Erin