Thanks for all the suggestions. I want to do more, I jsut never have gas/money to really get out. I drive a Passat, and that boat drinks gas like water. And it doesn't help I have to drive 20 miles both ways to work. If I even do one side trip to do anything else, it wrecks my gas and I have to spend more the next paycheck to compensate.
The real clincher, which probably explains a lot, is that I really dread doing anything in the gay communty, cause I've pretty much nothing but bad experiences. I barely ever spend time with one of my good friends simply because if he does anything for fun, it has to be gay oriented (I mentioned wanting to go to San Antonio and go to Sea World, his response "They don't really have a good gay scene down there". Um.....since when did Shamu have anything to do with the gay scene? Or is that the newest fetish?). Part of it really stems from all the vanity, and narcissim that I see within the community. Heck, most of the people I met when I used to go to a youth group wouldn't even talk to you if you weren't cute or wearing the right clothes. And I'm not like that. And I've had soo many people tell me that I'd be cute if I lost weight (even my mom
), but I don't want to lose weight to get someone only to have them leave when I balloon back up. (Sorry if that sorta came out of left field, I have an odd stream of concious most of the time). So.....yeah. [/vent]
Good friends!
