Lisa's Weightloss Journal (comments welcomed!)

[DoeWDW]

Dear Lisa, know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.

I don't know what to say, exactly. I want you to know that I am so impressed with the way you are handling this! You are being such a wonderful example for your boys and they will be better men because of you.

Try to enjoy your vacation and make good memories. Then come home and start planning for your future. You are strong, Lisa, and you can handle this. When the road ahead looks hard, know that we'll be here to support you, to listen, to cheer you up and cheer you on.

,
Doreen

 

[Strings]

Lisa,

I'm just dropping by to say hello. I'm thinking about you.
Beth

 

[ZerasPride]

Lisa sweetie, it's been a while since I've been able to catch up with you and I am just speechless. First, you are so courageous to share what is going on in your life on such a personal level with us all! I applaud you for doing that.

After I send you this public message, I'm going to pm you so please look for it later. You are a strong woman. That is obvious. I look up to you in so many ways and this arena is no different. It can be such a tough decision to leave a bad situation, especially when there are children involved. Between my mom and dad they have had 5 divorces so I can relate to the devestation that results from breaking up a family but sometimes the family is already broken in all the important places and there is only a fascade or shell left.

I am going to pray for you and your boys and for your husband too. He has caused the break up of a wonderful and I'm sure loving family. I am so happy to know you have your mother who has spiritual values in your corner to help you out emotionally.

Please know that you have all of our support and if you ever want to "talk", just pm me anytime!

I am also very very proud of you not eating out of frustration or anger over this situation. When has food ever made a bad situation better? Never! You realize that and are not sabatoging your efforts. Again, what an example you are setting for the rest of us.

{{{hugs}}} to you my sister!

 

[Castillo Mom]

Beth, Doe and Lisa, many thanks to all of you for your support, I have to admit that I really need it right now. In my public life, I go around with a smile on my face all of the time. My job requires it, I must do it for my children, and I don't want to burden my family with all of this. This is a place where I can put down my thoughts and feelings, and afterward, I feel much better and can go on. Don't get me wrong, I'm optimistic towards my future but it's hard dealing with all of this with the trip coming up and all of the stress that goes along with that.

Lisa, I PM'd you.

 

[septbride2002]

Lisa,
I am so sorry that you are going through all of this. It sounds like in the end it will all be for the better.

God Loves you and he loves your children. He wants you to be happy and not miserable. He wants you to be at peace and not in turmoil. He loves you for who you are including your mistakes and your achievements. He loves you no matter what. I hope that for your chance of happiness in the future with the right man that you will decide to divorce your husband. I believe that God will be happy for you.

Just my 2 cents - we are here for you!

~Amanda

 

[ZerasPride]

Hi Lisa,

I got your pm and send you one right back!!! It's so nice to have "found" each other!!!!!

 

[LAinSEA]

Lisa:

I've just caught up on your journal and I want to say that you are one of the bravest women I've been acquainted with. That you recognized your need to become independent and then following through is an amazing accomplishment. You should be very proud of yourself and your boys should be too.

I know from experience that your decision was not made lightly or in haste. It will be difficult for your family and friends not to jump to that conclusion. This will be very difficult for you to go through.

Whatever happens through the next few months, don't just walk away from what is yours. Your home, your material possessions. While it may be easier to take the boys and leave, you have a right to what you have worked so hard for. Find an attorney to serve as your mediator and use them to find a fair and equitable way to meet your deadlines and needs.

Your husband needs to come to grips with a number of issues. He has to take responsibility for his position in your marriage. Divorce is a lot like coming to grips with a terminal illness or death. Those same stages of denial and anger etc. will be played out.

Be strong, Lisa. I'm here for you.

-Laurie

 

[Castillo Mom]

Laurie and Amanda, thanks very much for your advice and thoughts, they're much appreciated. I feel good today and I know that things will work out in time. I've learned a lot about myself these last 3 years and know that with prayer and perserverence, everything will be ok. I'm looking forward to starting anew.

 

[Castillo Mom]

I was a bad girl yesterday and had a whole Krispy Creme donut. I only meant to eat half, but ate the entire thing. I was definitely out of control, but I acknowledge it for what it was and will try to be more aware of these patterns in the future.

This morning I didn't have time to make myself breakfast, I just flew out of the house. After all that sugar yesterday I was starved and no time to run upstairs to grab a bite. All we had here in the office are some bagels and cream cheese. I cut one in half and had that with a cup of coffee. Not exactly OP, but better than eating a whole one and better than not eating at all. Lunch will be a no brainer, I have some tuna in the fridge and will have that on lc bread. Dinner, however, may be a challenge. Oh wait, I still have some leftover steak so I can have that. Problem solved.

I realize that if I'm going to be able to stay on this journey, I need to journal more often. It keeps me on my toes because I know you're all watching!

Another positive is that I'm finally going clothes shopping this weekend. I'm doing it in segments. Two weeks after that I'll do the rest of my shopping and then I'll be done with my vacation wardrobe. I've been buying clothes for everyone else first, now it's my turn! I'm going to call my cousin (more like a sister) to see if we can arrange a girls only day on Sunday.

Break time is over, back to work....

 

[ZerasPride]

Hi Lisa!

I think it's a good idea for you to journal more often. I know I always think twice about eating something I'm not supposed to when I know I'll have to admit to it in my journal.

I hope today is a less stressful day for you! Your shopping trip sounds fun! After all the weight you have lost you deserve some nice vacation clothes!

Just wanted you to know I was thinking about you!

{{{hugs}}}
Your sis - Lisa

 

[Castillo Mom]

I was good today, I was good! At least so far, but it's not even noon yet. I went upstairs and grabbed breakfast. Two scrambled eggs and 1 hot link, cup of coffee. Delish! I'm not going to comment on my weight. Ok, I'll confess. I gained a pound due to not staying OP and I know that Krispy Creme donut didn't help. But I'm on track today. Lunch will be easy, I'll go upstairs again and get something induction-approved. I fell off the induction wagon and never got back on but I'm going to give it another shot. But this time, I'll only take it a day at a time. I'm not going to look 2 weeks down the line because it just seems like forever and it doesn't help for me to dwell on the fact that I'm limited to only 25 carbs for that length of time. Nope, one day at a time.

 

[DoeWDW]

You sound so proud of you!! A morning on induction is something to celebrate, Lisa!!

I THINK I CAN, I THINK I CAN!!

You can do it, Lisa! Hang on through lunch!!

 

[Castillo Mom]

Thanks Doreen, I needed the bounces today!

Well, I made it just fine through lunch. Had swiss steak and broccoli. Now I did have a large portion of the steak, but that's because I'm still with that hungry feeling from all the sugar I ate. But on induction, it's perfectly legal to have a larger portion of protein as long as it's within reason.

I'm not sure what I'll be having for dinner but since I'm already 2/3 done with my meals for the day, I promise not to mess up.

More later if time allows, if not, will post tomorrow. Have a great weekend all!

 

[ZerasPride]

Lisa,

It sounds like you did so well today! I'm proud of you sticking with Induction levels today! Here are some bounces to go with the ones Doe sent you:

I think it would be difficult for me to back to Phase 1 of South Beach so I admire you for making it through one day of Induction! You can do it and one day at a time is the best way to go. I am only about half way to my goal weight and I think I might give up if I looked at it from the standpoint that I have another nine months or possibly a year or longer to get to my goal. It's so much more manageable to get through today and possibly think and plan for the next day but that's it no further.

Don't worry about that stupid pound. Drink plenty of water, stay on program and I know it will be gone and take one or two more pounds with it!

You can do this Lisa and we are all behind you!

 

[Castillo Mom]

I did pretty good yesterday. Went to a salad/soup bar last night and had, what else? Soup and salad. I strayed slightly and had a piece of cantelope and honeydew, but other than that I stayed OP. I weighed in this morning and I lost that nasty pound! I'm back on track, so I'd better watch myself if I want to lose those 5 pounds I was talking about.

I'm at work right now, got here a little late because Robinsons May is having a big sale right now, so I stopped there first. Got myself a bathing suit that I've had my eye on. The regular price is $84. No way would I ever pay that much. I'm glad I waited because I ended up paying $35 for it. Woohoo! I got a few more shirts for my youngest son as well.

Lisa, I have to be honest, it is hard to go back on induction! I've gotten so used to having my milk, bread and fruit. But this is only temporary and I have to keep reminding myself of that. I've done this before, so I can do it again if I stay focused. If you ever had to go back on Phase 1, it would definitely be a challenge but trust me, you could do it. I actually don't have a problem staying on Ongoing Weight Loss and losing at a slower rate, but I'm getting close to leaving and I want to squeeze a few more pounds out if I can. That and the fact that I really got off plan for a few days.

Well, back to work. Will try to post menus tonight if not too tired. If not, then will shoot for tomorrow. Have a great weekend everyone!

 

[Strings]

Hi Lisa,

I just wanted to check in with yo. I've been thinking about you. You are doing a phenomenal job at sttaying OP. WTG! I will definately have to do reinduction when my dr. says it is ok for me to do so, probably a couple of weeks. Keep up the great work. One day at a time is a great way to look at it.

Congrats on the swimsuit. $35 is a great deal.
Have a good weekend.
Beth

 

[Castillo Mom]

Well, I surved another weekend. I weight in this morning and I'm at 163.5, so I lost half a pound. I got plenty of exercise with all of the shopping I did, so I know that helped.

I got off induction a little this morning. They stop serving breakfast upstairs at 10:30. When I looked at the clock it was 10:27, so by the time I got up there the grill was closed. The only thing left was pastries (big no-no), cream of wheat and oatmeal. So I chose the oatmeal. Oatmeal is fine on Atkins but you're not supposed to have it while on induction. But it was either that or no breakfast. I need to get some Morning Start bars because I ran out.

I shopped till I dropped yesterday. Found a lot of great deals, although I did overspend a little. I still need to get a couple of dresses and some shorts.

Gotta get back to work!

 

[ZerasPride]

Lisa,

It sounds like you had fun shopping. I'll have to check out Old Navy. We do have one near us but I always thought of it as a "skinny" person shop. I just wonder if I can fit anything in there now. I'm gonna find out!

I sent you a pm and hope you are having a good afternoon. Now in addition to shopping 'til you drop for clothes, you should have done some grocery shopping so you'd have some Induction type food to eat. I hope you have a chance to pick up some breakfast bars today so you've got something to eat in a pinch.

I didn't even know you could have oatmeal on Atkins. I learn something new everyday around here!

Most important congratulations on that half pound loss!!! Woohoo for you!!!

 

[DoeWDW]

Lisa, every time I come to your journal, you've been shopping!! Are you a shopaholic???? I figure walking through stores counts just as much as walking around the block or on a treadmill, so at least you're getting lots of exercise!

All that exercise is paying off - you've lost another half pound!! Good for you!! Your countdown timer just keeps ticking away and soon you'll be doing lots of walking in Florida and lookin' good in those new clothes! Strut your stuff, Lisa!!

I hope you have a wonderful day!!

 

[Purrrrfecta]

HI Lisa,

Hope everything is going ok. I am doing quite well (to be expected) Isn't shopping the way to go?
Been watching what I eat, and I have lost another pound!
I think I am going to start a wish journal soon.

Old Navy carries sizes up to 20, I just have difficulty with the tops since I am top heavy.