Lindas Journal - 2-29-2008.. BEWARE EDIETS!!

[lindalinda]

I am avoiding the internet a bit. Reading Harry Potter without spoilers! I'm halfway thru or so, its good.


Oh, and we couldnt find a good movie so we watched "The Good Year" with Russel Crowe. It was good.


Later, I will check in again when I finish the book!

 

[kmp1191]

Are ya done with the book yet?
I've packed a house and unpacked quicker than you've read that darn book!!! (i'm joking!!!)
Don't tell us what happens....I may end up reading this one!

marie

 

[lindalinda]

Ok OK i finished it! Actually I finished it on wednesday at work. It was awesome! Its gonna be a great movie, lots of action.

Kev has been gone to football camp, just got back today, then had to immediately go out with his friends tonite. He said it was fun. I bet he sleeps all day tomorrow tho.

I have been cleaning my disgusting house. Well, trying to. I did the vacuuming upstairs with the Dyson Animal vac. It has a really good attachment that gets the dog hair out. Worked pretty well, but its timeconsuming. Takes longer than regular vacuuming. Then I tried to use the bissel power steamer. It had a leak and I found the replacement gasket on the internet and fixed it (I thought). Anyway it doesnt leak. It doesnt work either. I thought it was working so I kept doing it, but no water and cleaner was coming out. I was squeezing the trigger, and it was sucking up nothing since no water was coming out. I dont know if I have forgotten how to use it I cant seem to figure it out. think I'll google it.


Made jammin jerk shrimp w/vermicelli for dinner. Yummy stuff! Its jimmy buffet frozen shrimp. I was impressed.


I also just tried to put in for some time off next summer. One of the guys on my team put in for EVERY saturday next year already! Screwed everyone out of ever getting a week off, or even a saturday! What a jerk.

Anyway, remember my sisters issue with her sons? Well, I guess my niece isnt going to be able to come this summer, nothing has been resoved yet. And basically I give up. On giving her advice I mean. After everything that has happened, she got both her sons special services at school. IEPs. Now dont get me wrong, I am sure they have legitimate problems, no doubt. But in the conversation she told me that they "couldnt be expected to be organized like other kids" thet they were "creative" and didnt fit in with "normal" kids (normal was spoken very condescendingly). Somehow, she has made her boys problems seem like its because they are superior to other kids! I'm not done yet. She then continued to say that even tho they dont do well in school (both are failing) they have skills and talents that will enable them to be successful in life. (really.....???? they have NO social skills, and one of them is under social services investigation for something perverted). Then....I kid you not... she said.....its hard for kids that are BRILLIANT like her son to do well in school.

I didnt respond. dead silence. She is in a freaking dream world. I am at a complete loss.


Anyway, sorry to bore you all with that.

Gonna have a fudgesicle.

 

[lindalinda]

I may have had mine today. I hope so. I saw a friend of mine tonite that I havent seen for about 6 months. I called to her, and she walked over and said "Linda, I didnt recognize you!" HUH? Well it isnt cuz I look good. I have to look really bad for her to say that. And dont get me wrong, she wasnt being snarky, just honest.

I'll start with yesterday. One of the guys at work is retiring this week. He has been a controller for 32 years plus 5 military. He would stay, but he finally realized, why? Magement treats you like poo, and you dont have to be here. I think he is 56. He is one of the "good guys" and I will miss him. We have been teasing him for years about being "cheap". He always brings a big brown paper bag full of generic or cheapie stuff for lunch. So I decided to have a "lunch" for him today at work. We really dont have lunch, but we have a briefing day for 30 mins once a week, so we all brought in generic type stuff to eat. I told everyone I would get a cake after work. I got off at 9pm and had to be at work at 7.

On the way home I stop at Kroger for the cake. Of course its too late for the bakery to write stuff on the cake, so I buy this icing bag thingy. I take the cake home and try to write on it. The bag of icing basically explode and squirts out all over. Not on the cake, but the icing wont work. OK, Ok, I drive back up to kroger (20 mins away) to get a differnt icing thing. They only had orange, but I bought it anyway. Go back home try to ice it again. Started out ok, then a huge blob of orange gunk all over the cake! I started to cry. It 10:45 by now and I know I cant take this cake in. I actually laid down on the floor and cried. Then I pulled myself together (kev helped) and drove to walmart. Bought another cake and more icing stuff (at least they had white icing). Got home aorund 11:15 and made the right decision....someone else can write on it, I will just take it in.

So we had the lunch and he thought it was great. A woman at work iced it ...wrote 1/2 price day old...on it, and congrats of course. He thought it was great. I ate too much. Surprise Surprise. 2 hot dogs, some generic chips and a piece of cake.

It made me feel bad. And strangely enough. I ate nothing else today except a slimfast tonite. Not hungry. And miserable too. Hot dogs? Could they be the diet secret?

Anyway, I decide to go up about a hour early and watch kevin march in the band practice. I see one neighbor there and chat for a bit. She looks fantabulous!!! She was there to pick up her son after football, and was walking aroung the track. She doesnt just look good, she looks strong. I felt very jealous, and embarrassed about how I look. I could have walked with her, but I wasnt dressed for it.


Thats when I saw my other friend. The one that didnt recognize me. It was like a slap in the face. No , maybe a bucket of ice water instead. Wake up Woman!

So I came home a did the stairmachine. Just 15 minutes but its a start. I am done kidding around here, its now or never, and it aint never, so I guess its now.

nite yall, I have a 4am wake up.

 

[lindalinda]

Now this is getting absurd. I had an early shift this morning, didnt get much sleep but I was fine. As I was driving to work I noticed my mouth get tingly numb on the right side. Felt like when you go to the dentist. Just weird. I couldnt figure it out, kept moving my neck around thinking I had pinched a nerve or something.

When I got to work I looked in the mirror and it looked normal, so I went in to work. Told a couple of people, joking, I hope I'm not having a stroke or something. So they asked me a few questions, and we decided I wasnt. I am not a hypochondriac, but I was freaked out. I went to work radar. Not a problem but I had trouble talking after a while. Not like a stroke, I dont mean that. (not brain stuff ,physical) My lips didnt want to move quite fast enough to talk air traffic controller style. Because they were numb. So I called the supe over and told him my mouth was numb and I was having trouble talking so I wanted to take sick leave (I didnt feel sick, but I didnt think I could do my job well ). I probably should have phrased that a little better cuz it freaked him out. Had someone relieve me in like 30 seconds and asked if I needed someone to drive me to the DR. or drive me home and was I gonna be ok to drive myself . I assured him I was fine , just numb, no problem.

So I came home, no problems, when I got home the supe called to check and make sure I got here. Kind of embarrassing. Anyway I went to sleep (so it would go away ). I slept for 3 hours and when I woke up....big ole lips! One side all swelled up. Yuck. Let the freaking out resume! So I got online to check what might be wrong with me. (It never mentioned stroke anywhere so I feel lots better) Most everything says allergy to something , probably food, maybe sulfites? So I took some claritin and the swellling went down some , but not all the way. I dont have benadryl, I think that works better. I may have a dental issue I guess but I have no pain, no reason to think so. I guess I could have been bitten by something , too, but I dont want to think about that. My neck hurts now, but I think that might be from moving and twisting it around to try and unpinch the nerve!

Now if its an allergy (food) I am not sure what it could be, since I didnt eat anything this morning before work (I got up at 4 so cut me some slack on this, I was back home by 8!) that might take us back to yesterday and generic food celebration! I did eat food that i dont usually eat. there were some kind of strange generic cheetos that seemed really salty. One of the guys even said "Linda you should have seen the look on your face when you bit into that!" And then there were hotdogs. I think these have sulfites, havent I heard that before? Of course I eat hotdogs at home, but they are smoked turkey so they might not have the same stuff.

Anyway, I feel okay, except for sore neck and goofy smile right now. I think i will just not smile today. I am off tomorrow so hopefully it willl get better. If not I will go to the Dr. tomorrow.

So anyway, I havent been very hungry. I had a slimfast this morning when I got home, and I just had a chicken breast and green beans. I am gonna get on the stairmachine in a few minutes. I still feel good about getting healthy ridiculous as that seems!

Will check in later!

 

[Foxfiregrrl]

Hey, Linda. You better keep us posted on this whole lips swelling thing! Just seems weird, ya know.

I haven't been online much lately cause I'm still trying to get through the other HP books before reading book 7 and I'm SO scared I'm gonna end up w/ a spoiler

I have not yet had my "breaking point" yet, but I need it to come SOON! I've been half heartly working at this for way too long.

It is funny that you are out sick today... I called in this morning myself I had gotten really shorted on sleep Sunday night and got all out of whack, then started to feel like I might be getting a head cold (sore throat etc) so I took the day off. I have plenty of leave and nothing was on the calander for today, so why not! I have really enjoyed my relaxing day!

Good luck on staying on track!! I have been considering the slimfast thing or something like that. I found the last time I tried slimfast (several years ago) that it just didn't satisfy me for very long. Do you have any problem w/ that?

K, get better!!! See ya soon.

 

[lindalinda]

Update on the big lips thing. It did it again this morning, right after I brushed my teeth. So I guess I can narrow it down to toothpaste or mouth rinse. The toothpaste I have only been using for about a week, and the listerine I have been using (this type) for about a year. So I got new toothpast to try and hopefully that is what it is.

I didnt get much done today but I didnt eat much so i guess I'm ok. They changed the food diary at nutrisystem.com and it doesnt let me enter stuff like I used to. So I have to do it the old-fashioned way! I have had 784 calories so far today. And I did 15 mins on the stairmachine. (I did yesterday also, and yesterday I dont know how many cals. I had, but it had to be teeny, I dont remember eating cuz I was worried about my big ole lips.

See ya later

 

[lindalinda]

Good luck on staying on track!! I have been considering the slimfast thing or something like that. I found the last time I tried slimfast (several years ago) that it just didn't satisfy me for very long. Do you have any problem w/ that?

K, get better!!! See ya soon.

I can only do slimfast for breakfast or for a snack. It doesnt fill me up at all for lunch!

 

[kmp1191]

Dang Linda....what''s up with the allergy? That's scarey!! Glad it wasn't a stroke...my g-mom & mom both have had them. Go back to the old toothpaste and stop freaking people out!!

Sorry to hear about the neighbor/friend not reconginzing you. That sucks! Great job getting in gear right away!! I know you will stay on track....you've reached your breaking point and now you're ready to kick butt!!!

Give 'em hell girl....I'm right here with ya!!
Oh...and the "on the floor crying" thing...been there!! Hang in there!!

marie

 

[lindalinda]

I really should have known it was an allergy. I have really weird allergies. Allergic to any metal that touches my skin (cant wear jewelry), this also effects makeup and lotion, etc, that have small amounts of various things in them. I am also allergic to the antibiotic eye drops they give you for eye infections (sulfur) and now potassium nitrate I guess.

Oh well, didnt get much done today but its okay. Vacuumed and am doing the laundry now. Kev had a band show and picnic for the end of bandcamp so I ate more bad stuff. Not that bad tho , I just added up my calories for the day and right now its exactly 1000. So I am sure I will have a fudgesicle so thats 1040.

I am gonna do the stairmachine for 15 or 20 again. I have been doing that every day. I know its not much, but I am REALLY out of shape so even that is hard!

Baby steps, thats what I am doing.

 

[kmp1191]

How do you eat an elephant???


One bite at a time!!

Hope you're having a great weekend...even if ya are working!

marie

 

[lindalinda]

Thanks marie.

BTW I did get a "resisted" yesterday. One of the women at work brought in frosties for everyone and I declined.

I had 1115 cals yesterday but no exercise, I got busy and forgot before work and didnt get home til midnite. But I got up and did my 15 mins this morning. Maybe I can get 15 more in tonite and make up for it?

later

 

[lindalinda]

1045 cals today, once I have my fudgsicle. I am getting ready to get on the stairmachine for 15 more minutes.

Oh, and I got a "resisted" today too. One of the supes was passing out 3muskateers. I said no, then I got heckled by the guys eating them.

Anyway, another day with no major messups.

nite

 

[kmp1191]

Great job on the resisted's!! I don't know that I could have resisted the 3 muskateers!! That's impressive!!

Keep up the good work!!

marie

 

[lindalinda]

890 cals today. 15 mins stairmachine.


nite

 

[lindalinda]

Wow, yesterday I got in too late to do anything but post my calories. Didnt get home from Kevs football practice until 11:15! He went to band practice from 5-7:10 and then to footbal practice. Its 100 degrees! And the thing we didnt figure out was....when is he supposed to eat? He ate right before band but for heavens sake, he was shaky by the time he got home. I told him he had to take some energy bars or something.

Today they are doing the blitz, which is the football team going door-to-door sellling discount cards for a fund raiser, then going to band practice after that, but skipping the football practice. (unless he calls and tells me different.)

I am gonna log my food for the day (some of which I havent had yet, but is planned)

B- cottage cheese w/hard boiled egg this is actually quite good 155

S-high protein drink 110

L- chicken w/pesto and green beans 200

S- V8 45

S-sugar free pudding 60

D- 2 smoked turkey hot dogs 80

S- air popped pop corn 93

S- fudgesicle 40

okay thats only 783, did I forget something?

I think I will have something else, not sure what.


oh wait, I had a cookie (small) 49

so thats 832

I think I will have a peice of bologna (lite) with fat free swiss.

Thats 85 more, so 917


And 15 minutes on the stairmachine later ( I will, I promise)


I cant add my hippie chick on edit. That sux!

Oh yes I can....edit the edit

 

[kmp1191]

Edit the edit....i like that!!

Good job on the food today...wish I could say the same thing.

Did ya do the 15 minutes yet?
marie

 

[lindalinda]

I did do the 15 minutes. I am gonna try and up it to 20 tonite.

So far today

B- cottage cheese and egg 165
S- protein drink 110
L- 2 smoked turkey hot dogs and fat free cheese-105
S- pudding-60
S- air popped corn 124

609 so far

I am trying to figure out what to have for dinner. I need some protein but I dont have anything good. Maybe a frozen dinner.

I'll check back in later.

 

[lindalinda]

$%&%$%&&*^%$$##%^%%$$!!!!!!!!

I just went out to take kev to practice and decided to drive the crv. It has been sitting in the driveway for 2 weeks, because I am getting rid of it and dont want anything to go wrong with it before I do. So it makes a horrible grinding noise (brakes I guess) . It has never nade a sound before and I never have to get brakes (my mitsu has 130,000 miles and I just got my first set of brakes, and the guy said I really didnt need them yet) cuz I have a stick shift and do ALL highway driving. Anyway I decide to drive anyway and get about 200 feet but something is THUMPING. Sounds like the back tire is flat. So I turn around, but its not flat. I am so not happy with this. I did post on the community board and a couple of people pmed me that the brakes get rust on them if they sit for awhile and to go out and use the brakes and it will come off. So I will try that tomorrow. But seriously, I want this car GONE!

So I had cocoa puffs for dinner. yeah thats right cocoa puffs. A big ole bowl of them too. Probably 300 cals maybe? I didnt even look.

And I am in no mood to exercise. getting up at 4 and I walk a fine line of coherence, one little thing can put me over the edge, and now I'm exhausted by it.

Oh and work. We lost one of our new trainees today. Heres what the wonderful FAA is doing to our new guys. I told you all about the cut wages the new guys are getting. They are not good. Anyway we have 4 military hires here. that means they have some level of air traffic experience, even if its not really close to commercial, they have a clue. Well, the FAA figured out that most of the military guys werent accepting the FAA jobs, they could make more, doing much less, in Department of Defense contractor jobs. So why would they do it? So instead of changing the wage levels back , so that they could get more hires again (HELLO), they decided to negotiate with new hires. They are giving the new ones 20Gs hiring bonus plus negotiationg up to 20, 000 extra above pay grade. Well, that s good for them, but they refused to give this to the people who have jsut been hired. So our 4 guys ( and many many others across the country) get nothing NADA Zilch zero. CACA. How crappy is that? the people hired after them get a fat check and 20,000 more......this means salary per year. Say our guys could eventually top out at 60G, these would get 80. Hows that for morale? These people are so horrible at human relations is isnt funny at all. So we lost one today. He just quit. He wants to go back to college and needs to enroll a week from monday. And travel all the way to arizona to do it. And heres the final slap in the face to him. He has 60 hours of leave accrued and he wanted to leave later this week and just use that leave. NOPE. He has to stay the full 2 weeks. LIKE ITS GONNA MATTER TO US. We lost him. Hes gone. And this is happening everywhere. We are trying to collect some money for him to get him back to arizona but on such short notice I'm not sure if we can get much.


End of rant. I suggest taking a bus if you need to travel.


deep breath.

nite

 

[Foxfiregrrl]

Linda,
Sorry to hear about the continuing cr@p at work!! So, I guess it is good that we decided to drive to Disney instead of fly, huh?

You are doing really good on your food and getting in some exercise!! Keep up the good work!