Lindas Journal - 2-29-2008.. BEWARE EDIETS!!

Breath in.....breath out.....
I understand that completely right now!

m:hippie:
 
How's it going LInda?
Hanin' in there I hope!

ree :hippie:
 
Sorry I havent posted in a few days. School started on wednesday. Also band practice, football practice and a scrimmage game last night for Kev.

Kev has been working hard to do both football and band. Remember he coordinated with the coach and band director to do both. Of course this causes him to miss some of both. Well after literally working his behind off, it looks like they arent gonna let him actually play football. I mean, he is there, practicing and dressing for the games, but in the first scrimmage he only got in for a couple of minutes in the very end, and last night they didnt put him in at all. Of course, it was a scrimmage, and they do partly varsity, freshmen, and JV. He is on JV, who played last. Since they were losing pretty bad, they kept the starters in the entire time.

Dont get me wrong , I understand the whole...if you sre at practice, you play thing. But he has just about been killing himself to try to do this. So I feel bad for him.

Anyway, I think the not playing at all thing got to him last night, even tho he wouldnt really talk about it. He did play the drums at the pep rally before , so thats good. Anyway, we got home aroung 11pm. He was going to a friends grandpas house this weekend so we packed his bag. He came in around midnite and said "I'm tired and going to bed, you get some sleep mom".

Fast forward to 2am. Phone rings. It doesnt say who it is, and I never answer the phone if I dont know who it is, but for some reason I did this time. Its Officer someone or other, and he has Kevin. What??? He explains that he found Kev on Hwy 22 with his bike. And what do I want him to do. I said bring him home. He said he cant with the bike, can I come meet them at a certain spot and get him. So I drive up there and meet them. They are hanging out like old buds. Talking about football. A very nice man. He says Kevin didnt do anything wrong, but of course he's a minor on a dark hwy at 2 am. Several times he says he didnt do anything wrong.

So I take him home, say its wrong to be out at 2 am, no matter what.

The hwy I am talking about is a curvy country road. Unlit. Horrible for bikes during the daytime. Kev has never been allowed to ride his bike there, you can get killed. I have no idea what he was thinking. He says he was just not sleepy and decided to take a walk, then ride his bike around. He stopped and talked to a neighbor who happened to be outside at around midnite. So he was out wandering for 2 hours? I dont get it. Was he just bummed about the game? I dont know, he wont say. He just says it was no big deal, nothign is wrong and he was just stupid to wander off. I know this kid, and he didnt seem guilty at all, nothing. Just completely ordinary. Like its no big deal that the cops call mom at 2am?????? I dont know what to do. Originally I grounded him for a month. But I dont know if thats right. Maybe he really just couldnt sleep because he was upset? There arent any other kids there he was visiting. No girls houses anywhere near (that was my first thought). No one to do any vandalism with ( I dont think that is something he would do anyway). No drug dealers, nothing. Just a dark hwy.

I am feeling sorry for myself about it. I think it may be one of Gods messages. I have been feeling really kind of sanctimonious about being such a good mom! And pretty much dissing my sis for screwing up her kids. Not very nice. So maybe a little smack from God? Humbler? Maybe.


Anyway, I still have to do SOMETHING, but I think maybe 1 week grounding. I will watch carefully tho. And now I guess I have to do a nightly check. I hate not trusting him. He has no idea how he has screwed that up.

I called in sick. I just am not focused enough for my job today.



Oh, and food has been wretched this week. Well, it started out ok, but the last couple of days , I have lost track. I will get back there tho, really I will.


:hippie:
 
Hang in there , Linda! We're here when you need to vent! I know how boys can be & it's NOT fun!!

Hope the weekend & next week get better!

I'll be praying.....
 

I'm hangin in there! Well sort of. Bad food day today. Pizza and oreos for dinner. :rolleyes1

Six day work weeks again. I only have 6 hours tomorrow tho, get off at 12. Not bad. I am behind on getting my stuff done tho and the house is a mess. Oh well!

I went and saw a friend I havent seen for a while a couple of days ago. We were really good friends and our schedules just didnt mesh for a few years, sadly. Her daughter is going away to college and I had to see her before she went. When I got there I gave her a hug and she burst into tears! I think she has worked too hard for too long and now her girl is leaving and she just suddenly couldnt stop herself from crying. It took awhile to calm her back down, but she is fine of course. She is one tough cookie. Single mom working 2 jobs, 7 days a week to send her daughter to an out of state college.

So I know when to quit whining! Really I do! I am gonna make sure we dont lose touch again. It turns out now we are both off on fridays (usually) so we are gonna have a lunch day or movie day or something. BTW she is my little sister in my sorority, so we have known each other for 27 years. OMG. That is freaky. My other BFF I have known for 33 years! OMG. I bet no one else can say that! Jeezuz I am freakin old!

nite

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You're a good friend to hang with her until she calmed down...that has to be tough!!

Oh, and my best friend...I've known for about 30 years!! We may not talk all the time, but I know she's there for me in a pinch!

Have a great weekend!!
ree :hippie:
 
I am worn out! These 6 day work weeks bite. I didnt get my house clean at all. Kevin had their first football game last night. It was varsity, so he didnt play, just dressed. This was his first chance to do the band show at halftime. I had to work til 11pm , but the game didnt start til 10 pm anyway, so I got there in time for halftime. He had to get 2 friends to pull off his pads and jersey for him, then run (in cleats) to the field to join the band. It was fun to watch, him marching in football pants and cleats. They did really well too. And the football team won as well. He said it was really fun. The game wasnt over til 1:15 am, and we didnt get home til 2am, and I had to work tonite, so I am pooped.

His JV game is tomorrow at 6pm and I get off work at 6 (8-6) so I will see most of it. Hopefully he will get to play some!

BTW, 5 different people came up to me and said they were so /impressed/proud/or how much they loved Kev last night at the game. Huge proud mom moment.

2 wild-life experiences this week, both GROSS. I saw a COYOTE in my neighborhood!:eek: It was skinny and ugly and baring its teeth! ( some people said it might be rabid if it was doing that. I have never seen one before and hope I never do again. Get me back to the city! The other was my declawed cat brought me a present. Dead RABBIT! How the heck does she do this without claws? Dead rabit stinking up the garage at 100 degree temps. How nice:sad2: :sad2:

Anyway, thats all for now, except I think I might have asthma. My son does, and they gave him this test meter thingy and I tried it and I have no breath. Like less than a third of were you are supposed to be. :confused3 Strange, I know, but when I was a kid they didnt test for this stuff.

Nite

:hippie:
 
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Better today. Just everything went wrong yesterday.

I have to take Kev to the hand surgeon tomorrow. Hopefully they wont have to do much, maybe pull and push it back into place.

Food wasnt too bad today. Not great, but not horrible.

I will get back on track, but I have been on 10 our shifts and 6 day weeks. Soon I will be better tho. And geez, let it cool off a little., I dont feel like doing anything at all!


Later

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Better today. Just everything went wrong yesterday.

I have to take Kev to the hand surgeon tomorrow. Hopefully they wont have to do much, maybe pull and push it back into place.

Food wasnt too bad today. Not great, but not horrible.

I will get back on track, but I have been on 10 our shifts and 6 day weeks. Soon I will be better tho. And geez, let it cool off a little., I dont feel like doing anything at all!


Later

:hippie:


What happened to Kevin's hand???
Hang in there girl....we're here for ya!!

ree
 
Linda~~~~~~~
Where are ya girl? :confused3
Gettin' worried over here.......



:hippie: ree
 
Linda, I'm a tad worried now too!

I came to check in on ya, I know I've been gone a lot lately, but I still try to keep up when I can.

Hope everything is ok! You were having some pretty rough days there and then stopped posting :scared:

Hoping it is just the 6 day work weeks.

pixiedust: pixiedust: pixiedust: that those end soon and that everything else is ok!

Touch base and let us know what you've been up to, ok?
 
Sorry, its just 6 day work weeks and 10 hour days. I look in every once in a while, and I even think I'm gonna post ab out this or that but I am so tired I just kinda blow it off!

I have had no time to exercise. I know thats lame, and its an excuse, but I havent been able to make myself do it. Food, is neither good nor bad. I couldnt even tell you what I've had!:lmao:

Kev has been trying to do both football and band, and it looks like he is gonna quit football fairly soon. I normally tell him he cant quit what he starts, but he has been working himself to death and they barely ever let him play in the games. So I told him I am behind his decision, whatever it is. I have a little bit of grief for the coaches telling him he could do both, then not letting him play because he misses practices. They knew he would have to share time with band! Anyway, it will take some pressure off, but he is very dissapointed.

We went to his first band competition for the year on saturday. Nothing like sitting on aluminum stadium seats for 12 hours! It was blazing hot and I was feeling really bad. My feet swelled up huge and I was really worried about it (blood pressure maybe?). Anyway, I got sunburned and I think that is what caused it, maybe a little heat stroke? I'm fine now, but my scalp is still bright red!:rotfl2: Kevs band won their division, and were in the finals top 5. In the preliminaries it was windy, really windy. If you have seen band competitions lately they have all these big props. Kevs show this year id the Tell-Tale Heart (Poe poem). Anyway they have this big wooden heart prop. Well the wind caught it and it took off at high speed across the field and nearly took out a 70 lb flag girl! They recovered well tho, so it was ok.:banana:

I will try to check in more often, I feel bad. Gonna start exercising again too.

nite

:hippie:
 
Nice to see ya again girl!
I understand about the time issue....COMPLETELY!!!
Hang in there and don't worry about it!

I hate it that he is going to have to quit one or the other, but I don't blame him...it's tough trying to be in 2 places at once! (personally, I'd go with the band too....less likely to break a bone!! yep, i'm a typical mom!!)

Sorry about the long days and weeks linda....hang in there....retirement is "right around the corner!" :hourglass

ree:flower3:
 
hey, I know I have written in here! Where did my posts go?

Kev hasnt quit football yet, maybe he wont, who knows?

I am still not back on track, but at least i"m pretty much over my sickness now. Horrible day at work, partly my fault. I gave one of the supes some grief over stuff they were doing, and I was pretty rude about it. I was right of course, but that is irrelevant, at least where I work.


One of the new girls where I work is looking at getting a part time job at a car dealership so she can afford to live.:lmao: That 14$ an hour just doesnt go as far as it used to! Yes, the new hires make less than I did in 1986. But they did have an overage in the BS budget at the end of the year, so we are all happy now. We have new leather furniture, a flat screen LCD TV in the break room, a new 28,000$ phone system that accidentally called 911 by itself today. But the new hires are eligible for government cheese.


nite yall

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I just googled my best friends name. Have you ever done that?

She died when we were 21. Fell asleep in her car with the ac on. they think:confused3 Anyway I got a hit.

They have a scholarship in her name at her college. Art scholarship. I never knew that. Seems like i should have. It was nice to see her name again.
 
I just looked at my last post. 217am. I seriously need to get more sleep!

I just got home from a band competition on kevs. I was really PO'd because I asked his dad to come and see him. He told me he was coming and didnt show. We joked about it a little but I wanted to cry. I think when I joke about it it keeps Kev from being as upset. Maybe. Anyway, what a freakin loser. How in the world did I ever sleep with that man????EEEWWWWW


However the band is GREAT. Such a cool show. I am hoping that the guy who records it for the school will put it on youtube so I can link it and make you guys watch it!!:lmao: I will too.


Work still sucks. I am tired of saying that tho. So we will consider it a given. Kev is in geometry this year. Remember proofs? Once you have proven it , you can just show it as a given fact. So I have proven my job sucks. I didnt get the 10-6s. The got rid of them. Then the guy who had them took my current schedule. So I have a weird convoluted trade situation. Not thrilled. But I have thunder and derby off. 3 years 5 months.


I really need to focus a little on myself. Not just diet, a little more self-reflection I think. I have been "marking time" for quite awhile and I need to live a little more every day.


Its really late, so I will try to check in again tomorrow with something brilliant.

:hippie:


ps. if you dont watch Meerkat Manor check it out. Its really good. Trust me.

pps. I was severely traumatized by the "Santos isnt dead.....oh wait Santos is dead" story on Ugly Betty.
 
Hi, Linda!

Sorry to hear about Kev's dad. Men can be jerks sometimes. At least Kevin has one parent who loves him and is there for him!

I would love to see his band's show! Definitely let us know if it gets put online. I was on the flag team in my hs band and loved it! Has Kevin ever considered doing DCI during the summer? It is a lot of time and hard work, but I always thought it sounded like it would be really awesome to be a part of. He may have to be 16, but I'm not sure the details. Here is the website... www.dci.org There is one called SouthWinds in Lexington, Ky

I get what you mean about needing to focus more on the present. I have felt like I was just waiting for one thing or the other for a few years now. It takes a toll after awhile. I think that focusing inward is something we all need to do more often. Take care of yourself and the rest just kind of falls into place.

I am planning to refocus on my diet and exercise starting this week!! Maybe for once I can be inspiring to you and help motivate you to get back on track too!

I don't watch Meerkat Manor regularly, but I have seen a few episodes and it is pretty neat.
Sorry, but I can't help w/ the Ugly Betty thing, that's one that I didn't ever get started on.

Have a Great weekend!! See ya soon! BTW, when is derby again? I might try to put that on my calendar for next year.
 
Hi Amber!

Yep Kev is looking into DCI. One of the kids on his drumline is in Spirit (thats in alabama). Kev wants to try out for Capitol Regiment (ohio) and southwind (lexington). I am hoping for Southwind because its closest. I really have no idea if he will make it or not, but he is really good, so maybe. If he does it tho, he will be gone all summer long. So he will miss band camp. :confused3 I would guess that he wouldnt be center snare anymore if he misses band camp, but who knows. Right now I am trying to get him to do his homework.


We had a near midair at work today. (It wasnt me). Wow, freakin scary. a little VFR guy flying around not talking to us got an up close look at a southwest 737. Really important people making lots of phone calls about this one. Glad I wasnt working them.

Other than that, it was a pretty good day.


nite

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