Lesli's Live Long and Strong WISH Journal

[Lesli54]

Didn't mean to make you cry, Mike. I know existing all to well and did the same, slept or ate. Of course there was the child rearing as well, but I did take some long naps in the afternoon. Now that I don't nap and have energy, I am finding that I just conquer the boredom by getting distracted with some other activities that are not always productive. Ok to a degree, but I think that to continue that way will just eventually lead back to the over eating and before I know it I will be back at square one. So now the focus is to conquer things head on and deal with them. Once they are dealt with, I will actually have more time to do the leisurely things that I want to do. It's funny, I know in the beginning that I said I was making a lifestyle change for myself, not just going on a diet, but at the time, I didn't really understand that my journey really was going to change so many other aspects in my life in order for me to be successful in the end. Anyone can go on a diet of sorts and lose tons, but if you don't replace the bad habits with good ones and you don't figure out the reasons (including emotional) that got you to your heaviest (and made you a person you didn't care for) then how can you be sure that you will stay at your goal when you get there?

In the beginning, I told myself that I gained weight with my pregnancies, which is very true, but then why did I keep it on after the 3rd? And why did I gain a little more? There are reasons and I am just now really starting to look at those. When I know more, I will share more.

Yesterday was alright, but part of the day, I wasn't feeling up to par, so many things didn't get accomplished. Oh well. I did however, practice puting things away when I was finished with them and am trying to get everyone else to do the same (that will take time). It felt good and I am already beginning to see a difference. Not a big one yet, since there are places in the house that have a long way to go, but maybe by the end of next week it will be much better. If I don't make things worse and keep tackling the piles and stacks then it should go quickly.

The AM snack was cheese followed by a little pasta. I wasn't feeling well so lunch was a little late. I did get my tuna wrap though and love the Helman's Light. 1/2 the cal and fat and tastes great! Skipped the PM snack due to late lunch. Supper was on my own. DH left with the little ones to run errands, DD15 was off to cheerleading practice and DD18, who knows, she was in a strange mood. So I finished off the taco dip/salad. Ate a little too much.

Then I was off to my meeting which went a little better than imagined and I learned alot about libraries and taxations. I am sure there is much more to learn. Back home, I got some things ready for my meeting tonight. Still need to work on that a bit, but the bulk is ready for the car (didn't wait til the last minute to put it together ). Also packed up the clothes I am sending my best friend while I watched the second season of Amazing Race. Much better and more productive than just sitting and eating.

Breakfast: 1 egg omelet w/cheese & onion, 1/2 slice 7 grain toast w/jelly
AM snack: cheese
Lunch: Tuna on salad
PM snack: something that involves fruit
Supper: Maybe leftovers

Goals for today:
1. Finish preparing for tonight's meeting, 1 hr maybe
2. Bills
3. 1 hr on GS to get my troops ready for the new year
4. 2 hrs on bkwk
5. 10 min to clear that copier

I think I need to take DD7 to her swimming lessons, but I am not sure. Anyway, I am going to be productive today. I really can't wait until the kids go back to school, then I can have my tv back. In the afternoon, I usually turn it up so that I can hear the soaps in my office while I work. Don't have to see them, just like to listen to the story lines. Ok off to tackle the rest of the day.

Before I forget, I got my DAR certificate in the mail yesterday! Complete with my national number, my name and my patriot's name (4th gr grandpa)! I am so happy to have accomplished that goal. Now to get a couple more of my gr gr gr gr gr grandfather's proved and added to my name. I just love genealogy!

Everyone have a great day and keep on movin' and losin'!

 

[Cruise04]

Hope you have a good day too Lesli!!!! Keep up the good work!

Keep on
Chris

 

[calena]

I found your comments really interesting about the house and the order and also working on the whole life issues thing instead of being on a diet. I AGREE! I think laziness and procrastination are two of my key problems. Now I am tackling this weight stuff and the house is better too, but it all takes discipline and work. The areas of our life do overlap so much too.
My grandmother and aunt were faithful DAR members. Congrats!

 

[Mykelogan]

Hi Lesli!

Don't feel bad about my tears! Sometimes a good catharsis is needed and that's what it was. What you wrote made so much sense I got overwhelmed for a minute, all is good now!
Your productivity inspires me! And very cool about getting your DAR recognition.

Hope that you continue to have a happy & healthy day!
Mike

 

[Cruise04]

Congrats on the DAR information - that is awesome. I was a DAR Award recipient my senior year in high school voted on based on an essay I did (that I can't remember what it was but I still have it tucked away in a box with my pin) and the votes from my peers. It was quite an honor!!!

 

[pearlieq]

Good morning!

You make a really good point about not realizing how much is going to change when we start to improve our lifestyle. I still fail more often than I succeed but my life is hugely different than it once was.

Sounds like you're learn a lot these days. I think that's great!

I hope you had a wonderful day and are enjoying this beautiful morning! Looks like we get a bit of a break from the heat!

 

[Lesli54]

New clippie, new clippie! Down to 195! I am almost 1/2 way there, I just can't believe it. It is so unreal to think that I might actually be in the 180's when I take DD18 to school. WOW!

And that was after eating really late last night and pasta at that and going to bed late and not great on water. What will happen when I get things back on track better?

Yesterday was pretty good, very busy. I forgot to grab a snack and water when I took DD7 for swimming lessons. But I did take Dr. Phil's book. I am at the part of realizing some of the underlying feelings and resentments you may have towards people and how that effects your weight. As much as it may sound like a bunch of pyscho babble on the surface, when you really stop to think about it, there is some truth in it. For example, do you eat and over eat when you are around certain people? Why is that? I do, not many, but I can think of at least one, my dad. He wasn't around much when we were growing up and although I have attempted to build a relationship with him, it just fizzles. Anymore, when we have Christmas at my Gran's, I find myself along with my sister (who harbors more grudges against him than I) in the kitchen. Mainly it's to get away from the tension and of course there is tons of food out on the table and we eat. I never really thought about it much but it is true. Anyways, those are some of the things that I am reading about now and I just have to take steps to change that now that I am aware of it. The book is really good and I would reccomend it to anyone who wants to lose weight. It just makes you think of so many things and makes you realize that you have kept the weight on for a reason, not just because you over ate, that is secondary to the reason of WHY you over ate.

Lunch was as planned, but I added a few wheatables. I love these crackers, they are so tasty and you can have a few for just a few calories. Missed the PM snack as it took longer with interruptions to get things done for the meeting. I did grab a small handful of Fritos that DD18 brought home and when I grabbed the next one, I actually stopped, looked, and threw them back, thinking "Yuck!". I was out the door before supper so it was very late. I ended up eating about 9:30pm after the meeting. When I came home there was about 1 c. popcorn on the table and I ate that, then decided I better get something substantial before I snack on things I shouldn't. The easiest thing was to reheat some leftover spaghetti. Didn't have any LC's that appealed to me. So it was a little bit of spaghetti and some Panera French Bread. I usually heat the bread in the microwave a little to soften it if it starts to get hard and it works well. Last night I nuked it too long and it was soft for 1/2 a second before it became like little crustinies. Still good.

Didn't take water to the meeting so for the day, I was down. The meeting went well and we accomplished alot.

Up late this morning. I haven't gotten to bed early the last few nights and I need to change that. I really don't like getting up late.

Breakfast: 1 egg omelet w/cheese & onion, 1/2 slice 7 grain toast w/ jelly, and 6 oz gr tea w/jasmine
AM snack: veggies
Lunch: salad w/ham
PM snack: fruit and milk
Supper: Haven't thought about it

Goals for today:
1. Bills, I didn't get to
2. Bkwk, I didn't get to - 3hrs
3. GS - 1 hr to set up some things
4. Clear the copier - 10 min
5. Dejunk the kiddies room - assign to someone else
6. Dance for 15 min before AM snack and PM snack
7. Finish up my WDW trip report - tonight

Well, I better get going. Lots to do and I am behind. Everyone have a great day!

 

[Mykelogan]

Hi Lesli!!

Just wanted to pop in and say congrats on the new clippie! Looks great on ya!! Your mention of your trip report reminds me I need to get a few more days of mine done! yikes! hehe

Have a happy & healthy day!
Mike

 

[Zela]

Lesli, Great ideas about keeping the clutter under control. I get into a bad cycle. It normally starts with my purse and the mail. My purse seems to produce papers of various shapes, colors and sizes. One day I look down and there is not enough room for me to shove my wallet in, I'm in a hurry so I take a bag and I empty my purse out except for my wallet, chapstick and sunglasses. The bag goes of papers goes on my desk. Mail accumulates on my desk. Before I know it there is a stack of papery junk on my desk a foot high. Thank goodness I have an L shaped desk or I woudn't even be able to get to the keyboard . I think I will clean off my desk today and try to break this vicious cycle.

Keep up the good work with your food and exercise. We'll be in the 150's before you know it.

 

[Cruise04]

Awesome job on the new clippie - it is very becoming of you - BRAVO!!!!! You have inspired me to take some time tomorrow and declutter the basement pantry. There is empty boxes in there from food from like Sam's and food in there that I bought a while ago that I need to get rid of or I will eat it. And tomorrow night is garbage night so I'm doing it - no one will be home to stop me!!!!! And I'll put it in black garbage bags so I am not looking at it and thinking of all the money I'm throwing away!!!!! THANK YOU - I do appreciate your inspiration!

Keep on
Chris

 

[kardiebelle]

Great job on the new clippie. You are working so hard. You are so right about changing everything in your life and not just the eating. 35 pounds is a great achievment and you are taking the right steps in succeding in a much healthly life. Your insites on everything inspire me to keep going and not give up. Great job not only are you helping yourself but you are helping me (and many disWISHers out there) Keep up the great work. Kardiebelle

 

[lillygator]

Congrats on the new clippie!! What an accomplishment!! Keep it up!

 

[Lesli54]

I am trying to figure out where yesterday went. Busy, busy and I did pretty well on most things.

I did dance around for 15 min before my AM snack of carrots. It felt so good and relaxing. Any stress that I might have had was whisked away and of course, I got exercise. Lunch was late, as I was helping with part of the dejunking process of the kiddies room. Thank God they don't have an over abundance of toys. We didn't have anything to make salad, so I just reheated a small portion of spaghetti and Panera bread.

DH was out taking advantage of the cooler day and cleaned up some of the gardens and cleaned out the garage. WOW! I felt a little guilty staying inside to do some of my work, not that it didn't need to be done, but guilty still the same, so I went out to help him a little. We got all the strollers and extra carseats out of the garage to get cleaned up so that we can give them to the local thrift shop. It feels so good to get rid of most of the baby things. Except for carseats, the last few items that we don't keep for future grandchildren will probably go by the end of the year! I was amazed at how well organized the garage looks. Maybe, I am rubbing off on DH?

Oh well, the PM snack was a little late since I was eating supper late, but I had a banana smoothie. So good. Next time, I am adding a touch of vanilla. I went to a Pampered Chef show with a friend so didn't know what to expect for supper, but was prepared. I had one small piece of a club ring (crescent rolls, chicken, bacon, etc), and a sm piece of the enchilada ring (crescent rolls, chicken, cheese, spices, etc.), lots of veggies (tomatoes, celery, cucumber, gr peppers) and a very small piece of chocolate cake. Now the cake could have been eaten in about 2-3 bites, but I savored it and made the bites smaller, therefore thinking that there was more there than there actually was. The down side of this show was that here I was thinking that I had just about everything that I needed and was going to start having shows to collect for DD18. Then they introduced a lot of new items that I would love to have or have been waiting for them to come out with. Like covers for the stone baking dishes, an insulated carrier that will fit most of the stones (for when you are transporting dishes), small prep bowls w/ lids (I have always wanted something like this), etc. I guess DD18's collection will have to wait!

Water was great! I did tackle quite a few of the things that I was supposed to get done. The house is really shaping up and I am feeling great. Of course, the demonstrator last night looked at me and asked if I had lost a lot of weight because she could tell and she told me that I look great!

Breakfast: 1 egg omelet w/cheese, 2 slices ham, 1/2 slice 7 grain toast w/jelly
AM snack: veggies
Lunch: salad or LC
PM snack: fruit and milk
Supper: ? I actually think we may all be home tonight

Goals for day:
1. Exercise or dance 15 min before snacks
2. Finish w/ dejunking the kiddies room - 1 hr
3. Wash up some carseats to get rid of - 1/2 hr
4. Bkwk - 2 hrs to move out last yrs files (allowing time); 1 hr to rearrange this yrs files; 1-2 hrs actual wk
5. At least one day on my WDW trip report
6. Begin dejunking the basement - delegate this one

I am really starting to feel things pull together. Now after all this is done, we can finish painting & decorating, finish building the bathroom downstairs, finish mudding the basement, and............

Well, I better get going. Thank you for stopping by my journal. I really do appreciate all the support that everyone is giving and am glad to know that I have helped you as well while I am helping myself. It really makes the journey more pleasureable. As things slow down a little, I will get to the journals of those I haven't gotten to in a while or have yet to get to.

Have a great and losing day!

 

[pearlieq]

Congrats on the new clippie!!! You worked so hard for it and it looks so great on you!!!

I am so amazed at all you get accomplished during the day! It's great that you're channeling your energies into positive things. You are such an inspirtaion!

Glad to hear you got some dancing in yesterday. What a mood lifter!

I hope today is wonderful for you!

 

[Mykelogan]

Hey Lesli!!

Wow! You are certainly accomplishing a lot and have a great plan to complete a whole lot more. Today I feel winded just reading about it all!! hehe! It does sound like you are rubbing off on the DH. That's cool! hehe!
And I can see from your great food choices that you are definitely keeping your body healthy and well fueled. Good job on everything!!!

Hope you have a great night!
Mike

 

[pearlieq]

Good morning!

I hope you had an awesome day yesterday and enjoyed clearing out the clutter. It bet it feels kind of nice to get rid of the baby stuff (if a bit bittersweet!) I'm sure someone who needs it will get good use out of the supplies.

Have a wonderful day, enjoy this beautiful weather, and I'll stop by later to see how you're doing!

 

[Lesli54]

What a beautiful morning! It almost feels like we are going into fall already and the summer isn't even over.

Yesterday was hectic and I was thinking that I didn't get much done, but I did. Probably would have been better if I had felt better. I just had that pit in my stomach. You know the one that really isn't hungry, no matter what you eat, it is still there, but it's not really nausea either? DH had no clue what I was talking about. I am wondering if it is because I have fallen into such a rut with my eating and am eating almost the same thing every few days or every day. I need to take time to plan and prepare better meals. Plan and simple. Oh well, I am still learning to live.

The kiddies room is almost done. I didn't get to it until last night and then didn't have much energy so we will definitely have to finish it up today. DH has been doing great with getting things to the thrift store right away and getting the garbage out, so things are really shaping up. Side tracked by a few things yesterday. Finally I did get to my office and well..........it has literally thrown up on itself. OR so it appears. A work in progress fortunately and hopefully today I will be done or mostly done.

No exercise before my snacks, just felt weird. AM snack was cheese and a few thin slices of turkey. Lunch was spaghetti and Panera bread. Then since all the bland stuff wasn't working for my tummy, I ate a couple of chips and 2 Reese's PB cups. No good reason. Didn't have a desire for supper. Nothing appealed to me, but I knew I should eat, so eventually I finished off the rest of the spaghetti. Not a great day of food, not a lot of food, it was alright, it was very very boring.

DH and I did go for a bike ride in the evening. That was fun. Hopefully we can do it again. He did tell me that he wanted to stop eating his three late night snacks and that he needed help. Most of the time, he has supper then at 8:30 he grabs something, then it is ice cream, then it is a sandwich. Not small items here either and all before bed at 10:30. He figures that he will lose weight if he can cut it out and I agree. However, I did tell him that he can't get mad at me and give up in a few days because he doesn't think it is working. He has to give it some time. He did eat some fruit before the bike ride, but I said as long as it is fruit, he would be ok. He has to get past the pschylogical part of thinking he needs the food and he knows it. I am praying he succeeds.

Now this will sound weird, but here goes. A few things that I am excited about. I can take off my wedding ring almost everyday now with very little problems. Another 10 lbs and it should slip right off with ease. I had begun to think that my ring would grow right into my body. Some days, I figured that it would fall off after my finger fell off from lack of circulation. So this is great news. The other great thing. DH mentioned that I hardly snore any more. He said it must be the lost weight. I agree. I never used to until I got heavier. So I asked him if he would consider losing a few pounds so that he can decrease his snoring. But best of all. He has been telling people that I am almost the person he married (in terms of weight that is). It feels so good.

Breakfast: oatmeal, 2 slices ham, 1 yogurt
AM snack: milk and strawberries
Lunch: Seared Tuna salad & a pear (unless I have company during that time. If so, I will have a simple salad so I am not cooking in front of company)
PM snack: veggies
Supper: Rotisserie chicken, asparagus w/ warm vinaigrette (if we have fresh, if not, green beans), side salad

Goals for day:
1. Finish what I started in my office
2. Make adjustments to a costume that an older GS is wearing to an event tomorrow
3. Finish the kids room

If time allows, I will work on a few other things, but today may be full of interruptions.

Oh another cool thing. I tried on all of my winter coats. They are too big, except one that I haven't worn in a few years. The sad part is that by the time I get to winter, everything will be too big. I know that is good, but it takes me a long time to find a nice dress coat that I like. Not to mention that I love the two I have. Long, wool, buttons all the way up the torso (not just one button in the center of the coat, is that supposed to keep you warm in the midwest?), very nice coats. So I guess I will wait until I get down in size and then hire a professional to alter them. The really would be worth the money.

Time to get going. I have a lot to do. Everyone have a great day!

 

[Mykelogan]

Hi Lesli!!!
Sounds like there are still lots of great things happening in your neck of the woods. I love your list of things you're excited about. I am sure all of those things feel great!!
Very cool that your husband approached you for support in making his changes. I WISH him the best of luck!! Of course with you to look up to he will not need luck!
Excellent to read about your coats too!!

I hope that you have a happy & healthy night!
Mike

 

[honeymo78]

Lesli - you are just a cleaing queen - wanna come help me get organized lol. You really are doing a great job staying committed to your plan. That is great news about your wedding ring. Those little signs that you are losing weight are wonderful. I would definitely get those nice winter coats tailored once you get closer to goal if I was you. Good dress winter coats are so hard to find. Keep up the great work =)

 

[Cruise04]

You are doing a totally awesome job Lesli!!!!! I know a great lady that does alterations. She lives just a bit south of me but would well worth your trip. If you want her info, just PM me. I am 4'10" so everything has to be hemmed and she accommodates me very well. I know that will be around the horizon for me too since I'll be keeping this up. I was thinking about that this morning - all of my clothes that I have now will not be able to fit me next spring summer - I LOVE that idea!!!!! I doubt if it'll fit me in December, which I'm a tab bit worried about but I'll just have what I got altered and then pitch it after our trip because it's harder to find shorts in November!!!!!

Keep up the good work - you are rockin'!
Keep on
Chris