So I've realized that this is turning into a pointless PTR. So im going to make it into a Life Journal. And pardon me while I rant and rave about things that are going on in my life, but its nice to post something thats going on and maybe have someone I dont know comment on it. Im so excited about disney world, its going to be such a change for a week that im going crazy. Now to explain a little bit about my situtation I live with my mother who I adore. But plain and simple she drinks.....alot. And lately we have had trouble with my grandfather (who always drank but I never knew) who's been in and out of the hospital. Now I am 19 years old and don't drink often because I find its a waste of money. But its tearing my family apart. I've often become the "mom" of the family worrying about how the bills are going to be paid. Its starting to affect my attitude at work. I've gotten to the point that if I dont get out of their its going to drive me nuts. We live 8 hours away from my grandparents and my mom's the only one i've got. Its hard, I read all of these TR's and how mother's are so sad to have their children go away. And it's just the opposite with me. Im afraid of what will happen when I do leave and she's by herself. There have been many days I wondered if she was going to make it home,or if I was going to get the dreaded state trooper showing up at my door to tell me something happened. I'm planning on moving out this november because its time, I'm almost 20 years old and Im making great money. I know this sounds Clich'e but I wish I was back to the old me. The happy one who loved to give gifts just to make someone's day better, the person who went to work and stayed from 9 till 9 just becuse they needed help and didnt think twice about it. I've got great friends but they dont understand whats going on. They all have both their parents and mine are non-existant. I hate to rely on other people,but some words of wisdom from my dis'ers would be much appreciated. And I will try and post some Disney news..but for now there's nothing other than we got most of our paperwork. FUN FUN!!
O btw: Michael Buble is coming to my town, the best thing sense I paid off my Disney Trip...now to find free tickets. I almost died when I heard the news.