Situations that I cannot always control continue to be thrust upon me which cause me to be very afraid. Being a classic control freak, this is really hard for me. Knowing that if I God forbid get this virus it could very well lead to death, I become very upset at the drop of a hat.
I am a woman of faith, and I am feeling very challenged right now. The mantra, "One day at a time," is something I continue to reinforce in myself and others. Our daily dinner blessing now has the added line, "Keep us safe and healthy" with the emphasis on "healthy." I'm trying so hard to be brave for my daughter. I find myself bursting into tears which helps me feel better afterward, but me not being strong and in control all of the time is taking a toll on her. I will say to her, "Mommy can't always be strong. But Mommy has faith and you should too."
I watch very little news...only if DH has it on. Sometimes I read a little online, but my focus is on good news. My cousin posts a "Reasons for Optimism" every day on Facebook. Today he posted, "Researchers at Oxford University in England are preparing a coronavirus vaccine test involving more than 6,000 people by the end of May. If the vaccine proves effective scientists said the first doses could be available by September." Who knows if that will happen, but it is something to hold onto. We all need to hold onto hope. His "Reasons for Optimism" posts are helping me out a lot. Also, there's a "Funny Memes" thread on Disboards. It has me laughing out loud on a daily basis.
So, I am working on my mental health by trying to have faith, hope, and humor. My physical health needs some work. I'm going to venture out for a walk soon even though the promised temperature of 60 degrees is actually only 52 degrees, and at the beach it will be even colder. So, I will be wearing my winter coat yet again, but I must get outside. It's been a few days of rain.