Jen's Journal.....Baby Steps to a new me

[Blueeyes101817]

Hi everyone-
I wanted to thank you all for your support lately..its been a rough couple days, but its gotta get better!
Today was an okay day--just school and work..Its my moms birthday so were just hanging around the house tonight.
My best friend just asked if i would babysit my niece on saturday for a few hours--of course i said yes! i havent seen her since Christmas eve-im very excited..so i hope i feel better, if not my mom will be watching Madison.
Next week, alot of my classes have been cancelled so my goal is to get my butt in gear and exercise...with everything going on, i have been getting lazy...
Even without exercising, im still around 146-147, not too bad i guess...
well i guess thats it for now...

 

[kimwim8]

Hey there!

I'm sure you're weight is stable because even though you're not eating what you were when you were 100% trying...you still aren't eating what you would when you're not trying. Does that make sense?

I think you know what I mean.

Take care, and have a GREAT day!!

OH - and to your mom!!

 

[Blueeyes101817]

that actually does make sense!!!!! good job kim!
Im actually feeling sicker so im planning on early bed..i cannot be sick tomorrow--i wanna see this baby...its going to kill me that shes in my house and i cant hold her...but i think thats whats going to happen...
I promise ill be better about checking in soon!

 

[Blueeyes101817]

well happy weekend my friends!!
i feel a bit better this morning, b ut i usually feel okay during the day and then get sick at night..but brad said its okay if i hold her since im on antibiotics..im a happy aunt!!
i have to "share" her with my mom though..but i am having the best time--there is nothing like holding a baby--shes still so tiny!
tonight i am babysitting for a couple of kids from my day care center--busy day, so hopefully ill be able to sleep in tomorrow and then watch the super bowl! (go pittsburgh!!!)
hope you guys have a great weekend--ill get to journals tomorrow probably

 

[Blueeyes101817]

Hello my friends! i just went through and caught up on all of your journals.
i am feeling alot better today, not so much phsycially, but i just have a better outlook on things today.
First of all, i weighed myself on friday and i was 149. (my brothers girlfriend and i were trying to figure out who weighed more hahaha) I must have had a big WHOOOOSH after TOM because this morning i was 143.5! I dont know HOW i did that, i even stepped on the scale 2 times to make sure that was right. If i remember right, i was at 142 before the cruise,so this is not bad at all. Tomorrow is my day that i want to start working out again. I thought that this week would be a good week to start because most of my classes are cancelled and i wont be rushing to get everything in. Then im hoping that by next week, im going to WANT to exercise again and be able to fit it all in. SO i may need an extra kick in the butt tomorrow to make sure i start again!

now onto my weekend:
I posted yesterday that my niece was here...We had a blast!! She was born Dec 16 so she is still less than 2 months old. I just did not want to put her down because I dont get to see her all that often. So whe nshe fell asleep, i went to put her in her seat and she woke up, so i just decided to hold her. I put her on my chest while i was leaning back in a chair and we both fell asleep..my mom took the cutest picture. ill have to see if i can get it on here-its adorable!

I forgot to post about Friday night. It was my moms birthday dinner so a bunch of us went out. I wasnt feeling too great so i just had an appetizer but we had so much fun. it was my mom, dad, "uncle" greg, "uncle" john (two firemen uncles), my brother, his girlfriend, and my 3 extra brothers (steve and aldo are the military guys and chris is my brothers friend since 6th grade)...we had so much fun..

Today i may go with my parents to see a movie..i think were going to see "annapolis"..my brother saw it and said it was really good..so well see what happens..
and of course , superbowl time tonight! im really hoping for the steelers to win!!
have a great day girls and ill talk to u soon!

 

[kimwim8]

Hey Jen!! I'm so glad you're doing better. Babies can be a BIG help in lifting someone's mood!

Congrats on the HUGE loss!! You're doing great (even when you think you're not trying!).

Get your butt up & go running in the am!! haha - want me to call you, say around 6-ish?

 

[Blueeyes101817]

Hey Jen!! I'm so glad you're doing better. Babies can be a BIG help in lifting someone's mood!

Congrats on the HUGE loss!! You're doing great (even when you think you're not trying!).

Get your butt up & go running in the am!! haha - want me to call you, say around 6-ish?

6ish,,a bit too much since my classes are a no-go tomorrow...haha
how about when you see me sign online you yell at me

 

[Blueeyes101817]

well........i did it!!!!!!
I did about a 30 minute workout..i stopped the cardio a bit early because i am still sick and my throat felt like it was on fire...but im still proud i got out of my rut ! Im about to lay down for a little bit...i need to get this cold over with--im dizzy and just blah....
but the exercise is overwith for today...now onto tomorrow!!!
The rest of the day....im going to take it easy until my c lass tonight..i have a 7-10pm class that i must go to...
then ill be home and asleep after that i hope..i stayed up late last night with the superbowl and greys anatomy...

Just found out my family and i are going to atlantic city on thursday to go to the price is right show again--hopefully i can win again !

Have a great day all

 

[kimwim8]

GO JEN, GO JEN!

Great job!! Extra points all around for working out when you're sick!!!

Have a great day!

 

[kimwim8]

Hey Jen!!!

Wanted to say a quick hi, and I hope everything is going well. Hope you're feeling better!!

Talk to you soon!

 

[Blueeyes101817]

well..still sick--story of my life! haha
Im on meds and doing LIGHT exercise--im afraid to do too much bcause im feeling so sick....doctor told me no work til Friday, so here i am...
still at the same weight, so thats good for me right now.

Friday is my "big" doctors appointment--ill fill u all in about it.
i promise ill get to journals tomorrow!

 

[Blueeyes101817]

well i know i just posted ,but i have been having the biggest urge to go eat junk and i thought by coming here and posting that it will help me resist this---i hate emotional eating..im having a bad time tonight...dunno whats wrong with me, just having a really blah time again...im still working out even though im sick and i know im doing whatever i can do ...but i dunnoanymore...too much keeps going wrong for me...
well thanks for letting me vent--hopefully i resist the emotional eating thing!

 

[kimwim8]

aw, Jen. I'm sorry I wasn't online last night. Not a great night in our household either (if that makes you feel any better ).

Take care, and FEEL BETTER!!!

 

[kimwim8]

Hey Jen! I know you weren't feeling well yesterday, but hopefully you had fun in AC!!

Talk to you soon!

 

[Blueeyes101817]

hello my friends!
Well apparently im sicker than i thought--i woke up in the middle of the night crying because of the pain (apparnetly whatever i had is now a sinus infection--the whole right side of my face is swollen and very painful!)
So i was up all night and called the dr as soon as it opened---i have a 3:00 appointment...

This morning, i saw my endocrinologist--Im not really happy with him, but theres nothing else that can be done...My neck is going to be like this my entire life and he said theres really nothing i can do about it..its from all the surgeries..
so i guess i go see him again in may to see if its changed..
i will get to journals tomorrow--right now im laying down and waiting for my appointment...have a great weekend guys!

 

[gradtchr]

It's been way to long since I've stopped in to check on you. I am so sorry you're sick and hope that you are 100% soon. Let us know what the doc has to say.

 

[Blueeyes101817]

Well the doctor said that i have an "involved sinus infection" They gave me some meds to help with the congestion and also tylenol with codeine.
I am still not having a great couple of days. I took codeine last night at 10 and was up at least once an hour--it was a very restless night..I took it again at 4 and the same thing was going on..i guess alittle sleep is better than none...
Were supposed to be getting a huge snow storm, so i will be stuck home, which is a good thing! I have about an hour of homework to do, so i am going to try to get that done now, so i can just climb back into bed and relax..I hate being such a bum, but when i try to walk around, i get real dizzy and sick to my stomach...I have never had a sinus infection this bad! My mom said my face is not as swollen , so thats a good sign.
So much for my exercising like crazy week--but im still at 143 i think so that will have to do for now..i actually have no appetite still and managed to eat 4 crackers this morning
Im glad i got to journals today so i hope you all have a great weekend

 

[kimwim8]

Hey Jen. Sorry for the rough night. Hopefully tonight will be better. 24 hours on those meds should work wonders.

Take care, rest, be a bum....that's what you need to do to get healthy!!!

 

[Blueeyes101817]

Well hello my friends--this is my "sick" update! haha

I am, unfortunately, not getting any better. I think I may be going to the doctor tomorrow, and Im afraid she may send me to the ER for "stronger antibiotics" so im hoping i miraculously feel better and it doesnt come to that. I dont know what is going on that i am not feeling b etter ,but i havent been able to keep food down for 3 days (sorry if TMI!) At least i was able to sleep last night...I already emailed 2 of my profs tomorrow and an advisor i was supposed to meet with and told them i cant come in tomorrow...I have a night class, but i am going to wait and see how things go.

The only bright side in all of this is that i am losing weight because im not eating hahahha...im down to 142 so thats the most exciting thing going on
Im hoping i get better because i cant afford to miss more work so any good vibes or prayers that you guys have that i get better quick would be greatly appreciated! thanks for listening to my whining and i will try to get to journals later or tomorrow

 

[Blueeyes101817]

well im back--and still sick...went to the dr this morning and she told me no work or school all week--this is driving me crazy! im afraid to call work and tell them, but ill cal llater when it isnt their busy time...
If im STILL sick next monday, i have to go back and then it may be hospital time...this is ridiculous! so im about to go lay down again, but just wanted to update you all !