Jen's Journal.....Baby Steps to a new me

[keenercam]

Jen -- I just said a prayer for that girl and her family. I have a DD17 and cannot imagine what that family is going through. I am glad you all got to meet her and her family and that you are continuing the relationship. That is wonderful.

 

[kimwim8]

Thanks tracy and kim--well my classes are over and it doesnt seem like its going to be TOO bad so far..but that was only 2 classes!! But im not going to worry about it now--i cant change it..
but i did end up dropping one class (public speaking) so now im only taking 5--it was overwhelming taking 6 and working last semester.

I wanted to share a story with you guys--while on the cruise, we met a little girl who turned 16 while on board..she has cancer for the 3rd time and they are thinking she has about 6 months left to live--this girl was amazing and was on a make a wish trip with her parents and a nurse...My family got to really know her throughotu the trip, especially my brother and his friend...She couldnt do too much and they made it special for her by giving her "medals" they won and asking her to dance...We just found out today that she and her nurse are going to come visit us next weekend! Were all really looking forward to this and then my family will be going to see her for her sweet 16 party..if you all could, can you say some prayers for her--shes going into the dr this week to find out if the cancer has spread and how much time they believe she has left...thanks!

OMG, Jen...your brother & his friend are AWESOME!! What an amazing thing they did for that little girl. And you getting to see her again, that's so great. She's definitely in my prayers! Let me know if there's anything else I can do!!

I'm glad school went well today, and that you dropped that class. I think you made a good choice.

Take care & I'll talk to you later!

 

[Blueeyes101817]

Thanks guys--she is an amazing little girl! cant wait til she comes to visit us again!!

Tonight has been very blah...just kinda sat around watching tv..

Tomorrow i have the house to myself and i WILL work out...i MUST work out

 

[Blueeyes101817]

Well guys--i gotta say--my eating has been a TON better today! i didnt eat any junk and i made some sugar free jello from wehn i get a craving later!
i didnt do exercise, but ended up staying in bed all day .. i did clean a bit

As for the rest of the day--i just showered and put on clean pjs so im going to stay around here all day--tomorrow i start work again so ill be able to get myself more into a routine...i think that is going to help me..
Also, i think i am going to start writing down everything that i put into my mouth--and then post it--i think that ill realize how horrible im eating and then change so i dont embarrass myself..i cant do that until i get to the store and buy some yogurts and stuff like that...
my goal is to get back to my "pre cruise" weight of 142.5 by the end of january!

 

[keenercam]

142.5! That was my birth weight! Italian babies run big, you know!

Glad the day is going better for you, Jen! Have fun shopping! Be sure to buy some lite english muffins, fat free cheese, lean turkey, apples, . . . . Oh, sorry, that's MY shopping list. Can you tell I have those mid-afternoon hunger pangs?

You're almost through day one! SF jello! YEAH!!!!

 

[kimwim8]

Hey Jen...good job on day one and for planning ahead with the SF jello!! Can you deliver some to me?? haha

Take care!!

 

[Blueeyes101817]

cam and kim---thanks!!!

Mom actually just called me on her way to the food store and asked what i wanted--im getting yogurt, apples, grapes, trying the english muffins and string cheese..haha
I am going to start writing down everything that i put into my mouth tomorrow--itll be embarrassing for the first couple days so bear with me!

Kim-your close enough, you want jello--ill meet ya half way! haha..20 minutes later, youll get jello!

 

[kimwim8]

Kim-your close enough, you want jello--ill meet ya half way! haha..20 minutes later, youll get jello!

You're so sweet!! I'm too lazy to make my own...I'm gonna buy some pre-made in the little cups!! And they're stackable in the fridge that way too.

And as far as being embarrassed.....DON'T WORRY ABOUT IT!!! We're all here b/c we need to lose weight too!! No one here is going to judge or pick on anyone else. We're only here to give & get support!!!

Post your food, we're here for ya!!

Have a GREAT day!

 

[Blueeyes101817]

thanks kim--
ill post what i had so far today..

Breakfast-3 strawberries and some grapes...1 bottle of water
Drive home from school-1 bottle water
Lunch-1 piece of bread with peanut butter, string cheese, glass of milk

thats it so far--im working til 6 tonight and then will probably have soup for dinner tonight...i did a lot better knowing that i had to post this up here.

have a great day-ill check in later

 

[kimwim8]

Wow, Jen! Sounds great so far!

Have some fruit with that soup tonight too!! And you can probably have another piece of bread too. Otherwise, you're gonna wake up STARVING tomorrow!!

Keep up the great work!!

 

[Blueeyes101817]

Well, my evening didnt go exactly as planned...the parents made me go out to dinner with them and it wasnt very healthy...On the bright side, at work , they were offering pizza and i didnt have any--even though they asked about 5 times and it smelled really good...i also drank 2 bottles of water at work..heres my final list for the day..not as good as i wanted, but tomorrow is another day...

Breakfast-3 strawberries and some grapes...1 bottle of water
Drive home from school-1 bottle water
Lunch-1 piece of bread with peanut butter, string cheese, glass of milk
Work-2 bottles of water
Dinner-2 mozzerella sticks, handful of fries, 2 glasses of water

 

[kimwim8]

Hey Jen, I think you did really good yesterday! Don't be hard on yourself. You were conscious (sp?) of what you were eating, and you drank a LOT of water!!

Keep up the good work!!

 

[Blueeyes101817]

well thank you ms kim

Today wasnt as good with water but not too bad either..

Breakfast-an apple and yogurt-glass of water
Lunch-peanut butter on bread and string cheese--glass of water
snack-strawberries/grapes
dinner-KFC chicken meal-glass of water

 

[Blueeyes101817]

well today has been my last bum weekend--next weekend, i will have homework to do--i hate that thought! so far i got in a comfy work out oufit i got from victorias secret and have lounged around ..i watched a cinderella story (my little cousin let me watch it haha) and since then, ive done nothing..

of course, it makes me sit here and think and get "blah"...i need to get out of feeling like this--i think part of it may be my synthroid levels are low-but i dont go to my endo til feb 10.....guess im just feeling kind of down on myself again so dont mind me today!
enjoy your weekend

 

[kimwim8]

awwww, Jen!! I'm here for you!!

Take care, and we'll all help you out of the BLAHs!!!

 

[gradtchr]

How are you doing today?

 

[Blueeyes101817]

Hi Beth-
Thanks for checking in on me today..
Im still feeling the "blahs" but i know ill get over that eventually.
I always find that January is one of the worst months for me-this month we have had a lot of deaths and illnesses going on, waiting on test results for mom, and hoping i get to go to the dr on the 10th...i feel like my levels are so off, but i have been following all the drs orders, so i gotta see whats going on..
Plus, i started a new semester and i tend to get a bit stressed when that happens-even though i feel alot better knowing i dropped one of my classes.

okay, enough whining--
on the good side, the little girl i told you about , that had cancer, sent my brother a text message....SHES IN REMISSION!! i cant wait to see them this weekend..
im also going to see george strait on friday, for any country fans..it was part of my christmas present..

other than that--no exercise today..i had classes from 8-3 and then 7-10..im exhausted and headed to bed now...
thanks for checking on me and have a great night

 

[gradtchr]

Hugs to you! If you need to talk let me know-the blah feelings are the worst.

YEAH for the girl you met!!!!!! That is great news!!!!

 

[kimwim8]

Hey girlie!!!

That goes for me too....anytime you need to talk or vent or whatever....I'm here!!! I don't like to ask too many questions and pry....so if you want to talk...feel free to open up!! That's what I'm here for!!

Take care of YOU first and foremost. You are doing great and I'm VERY proud of you!!

I can't remember your schedule, but have a GREAT day!! And I'll probably talk to you later in the day!

 

[Blueeyes101817]

Kim and Beth-thanks so much..
i know ive been whining alot lately--i always get like this in january-so i am hoping that i get over these blahs soon...i appreciate you guys being there for me.

Tomorrows schedule is more relaxed--no school or work so ill do some homework and then going to the travel agent with dad to book the trip for November -woohoo

Kim-im sure ill be online, ill be IMing you--and dont worry about asking too many questions--you dont pry--i like talking (as you may have noticed!)

have a great night ladies