Jack's Lil' Wench gets ready for swimsuit season!!!

[JacksLilWench]

Hi, my name is Kaiti and I'm an emotional eater...(I feel like I'm at a (fill in the blank) Anonymous meeting, haha!) I have been most of my life, and have only recently had the desire to better myself. My family has always had health problems--heart disease, stroke, Alzheimer's, and I come from a family that eats a high-fat diet consistently, and didn't really seem to know better. When my mom was diagnosed with breast cancer before she was 50, I knew something had to be done. I've tried all kinds of diets, and just can't seem to stick with them without support. And I love my family, but they're not very good at that part of the weight loss. So hopefully being accountable to complete Internet Strangers will make this different!

So since everyone else is in full disclosure mode, I'll keep that up. At my highest, I was 215. I lost about 35 pounds when I was a member of Curves, but after they closed I gained about twenty lbs back that I had lost. Right now I hover around 200 lbs, and want to desperately change that by the time I go to Disney World this September. My goal weight is 150. I know this might not entirely happen by September, but I know I can be very close with the right motivation.

Hopefully I'll find some awesome motivation from some of you guys reading this...and I definitely welcome any and all comments!!

Thanks so much!!!!

 

[JacksLilWench]

So I wanted today to be my last hurrah--the last time (for a WHILE) I would have any junk food. My last Coke (not that I drink much of it), my last fast food stop, my last order of chicken tenders and french fries with seasoning salt from the cafeteria at work. And at the same time....I started CNA school this morning and found out I have an INSANE amount of homework for the next five weeks. And not only that, the school is in the same parking lot as a KFC, Taco Bell, Wendy's, and Captain D's. So I'm gonna have to dig a little deeper for that one, haha. I do think I'm gonna LOVE school, in spite of the the homework I'll make a lot more money, that I'd then turn around and give straight to Disney!!

I'm really excited about this journal, too. I think it'll definitely keep me in line...even if no one is reading it!

 

[JacksLilWench]

I'm done with Week One of this journal, but I don't feel like I accomplished very much. Which is a really bumming feeling However, all I can do is make NEXT week that much better. I worked out more than I thought I would, and I ate less fried junk and fast food than I thought I would, so that's a win in my book! Especially since there are four fast food places in the same parking lot as the school, but I've been so good about not going there. It wasn't always easy, though. I'm just gonna have to get with it this next week. I went to Target today to pick up a prescription, and decided to stroll through the dollar spot...and what did I find but Disney Princess ziplock bags!! I had to get them, so I picked them up and turned around and saw the cutest little tote bag that said "This tiara is giving me a headache". So now I have snack bags AND a little lunch tote, so I have no excuses. It's gonna be on next week.

My goal next week is two pounds lighter, NO fast food at ALL, NO soda, NO unhealthy junk, and four workouts. I know I can do it--I just have to go DO it!!!

 

[JacksLilWench]

For some reason, this is harder than I thought. I was all optimistic last week, and then I stopped for some reason. I wish I had an explanation.

It's very hard to change the habits you've had since you were a kid. My parents always wanted the best for me, I know that. But they didn't really stop me from reaching for the candy bar instead of the apple or the carrot sticks. So after that behavior for 24 years, it's just hard to reverse it. Especially under the stress of school right now. We're halfway through the program and reality is setting in that my life is about to go through a DRASTIC change. There's so much going on right now that it's hard to keep up with everything, let alone go to bed at midnight and wonder what you're going to do tomorrow morning when the alarm clock goes off and you have to figure out what to eat tomorrow on break from class.

But I don't want to keep making excuses for myself. Excuses aren't going to get me where I want to be, and they don't hurt anyone but myself. Something has to change, and it has to start with me. Now, if only I could remember that at 6am when my alarm goes off for me to go to the gym...

 

[MAKHayes-DisneyDiva]

Keep journaling! It really helps.
And don't let a set back derail your efforts.
You can do it!

 

[JacksLilWench]

Thanks Michele! That definitely means a lot to me Good luck on your first marathon!!!

 

[JacksLilWench]

It has been FAR too long since I have been on here and I have no excuse for myself. I know, it's pretty depressing. On the bright side, I think I've finally figured out what to do with my life, and all the pieces are slowly falling into place.

AND!!! I've lost almost five pounds! Half a pound more, and I'll get a stickie! It might sound bad, but I think most of my loss has been because I'm part time at work now and I don't have the money to go out and eat like I used to a couple months ago. Plus it's been so hot down here, I've been drinking enough water to satisfy a fish.

I know I'll be able to keep this up. I have so much riding on the next six months between school and work and looking for better work that all I need to do is apply myself and push myself and quit making excuses. Gahd, I can't wait to hit that size 8!!!!

 

[JacksLilWench]

I finally made it back into the gym today!! It felt so awesome!! I forgot how amazing I feel after a good workout. It truly does wonders for me. I found this awesome workout online from Fitnessmag.com called the bikini body workout, and it's great. AND!! I got another job to help pay for my Disney trip!! So between working two jobs, and going to the gym everyday almost (at least that's the plan!) I should be able to afford my trip and look smokin' hot on my trip.

 

[serendipity]

Awesome on getting back to the gym! It really does feel great after a work out, doesn't it?

Keep the junk out of the house - it helps!