Papa Deuce
<font color="red">BBQ loving, fantasy football pla
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Some of you may know, as I have mentioned before, that I am not a "kid" person. I just don't really enjoy children for the most part.
And, as my kids turned 5 just about a week ago, I sit here and feel truly blessed. I never wanted kids at all. I hoped that my wife never became pregant before I turned 40, as I told her before I was married that if we didn't have kids by the time I was 40, I was getting snipped.
Then, at age 37 I found out my wife was pregnant. I was not happy about it for myself, but was "OK" with it because it made my wife very happy. Then she had a miscarriage, and I was incredibly relieved. At age 38, I found myself again, going to be a father, and again, I was not at all happy for myself. But I was "resigned" to the fact that I was going to be a father. So, imagine my surprise, when 3 weeks after the first ultrasound, the doctor found another baby --- I was going to be a father of TWINS!
I really wasn't happy now! But, since I had told my wife that we could try UNTIL I was 40, I kept my mouth shut.
Then the babies were born, and still, I wasn't all that happy. There was a small part of me that was, but overall.... NOPE, not happy.
Years 1 and 2 went by, and I still wasn't all that excited. Sleepless nights, loss of free time, constant crying and minor illnesses in my children, and it wasn't getting any better for me.
Then came year 3. Slowly but surely I was getting a little bit happier. I was getting "some" sleep. My kids were able to verbalize things instead of just crying all the time. And, I started to enjoy them. And as year 3 went on, it only got better. I am NOT a patient man. And those first few years taught me to learn "some" patience, or else I would have literally exploded, I felt like.
And then came year 4. It was in this year that my love for my kids really grew by leaps and bounds. They weren't babies anymore. I was bonding with them now! And I could "feel" their love for me! That was so special! I hadn't expected it. And I couldn't believe how wonderful it felt! And I couldn't believe how much love I was feeeling towards them, too! It was just the greatest feeling ever.
So, now they are 5. And they are literally busting at the seams to help me celebrate Father''s Day! Breakfast in bed, presents, and a trip to the park is on the agenda for later today.
These last 2 years have been AWESOME! I feel so BLESSED most of the time. Sure, we still have bad moments, but by and large my children are my biggest joy, and the best thing I have ever done in my life. I feel LUCKY to be able to guide them in their lives. I feel PRIVILEGED to have kids who love me so much.
I can't wait to wake up later today!
Happy Father's Day Dads!
And, as my kids turned 5 just about a week ago, I sit here and feel truly blessed. I never wanted kids at all. I hoped that my wife never became pregant before I turned 40, as I told her before I was married that if we didn't have kids by the time I was 40, I was getting snipped.
Then, at age 37 I found out my wife was pregnant. I was not happy about it for myself, but was "OK" with it because it made my wife very happy. Then she had a miscarriage, and I was incredibly relieved. At age 38, I found myself again, going to be a father, and again, I was not at all happy for myself. But I was "resigned" to the fact that I was going to be a father. So, imagine my surprise, when 3 weeks after the first ultrasound, the doctor found another baby --- I was going to be a father of TWINS!
I really wasn't happy now! But, since I had told my wife that we could try UNTIL I was 40, I kept my mouth shut.
Then the babies were born, and still, I wasn't all that happy. There was a small part of me that was, but overall.... NOPE, not happy.
Years 1 and 2 went by, and I still wasn't all that excited. Sleepless nights, loss of free time, constant crying and minor illnesses in my children, and it wasn't getting any better for me.
Then came year 3. Slowly but surely I was getting a little bit happier. I was getting "some" sleep. My kids were able to verbalize things instead of just crying all the time. And, I started to enjoy them. And as year 3 went on, it only got better. I am NOT a patient man. And those first few years taught me to learn "some" patience, or else I would have literally exploded, I felt like.
And then came year 4. It was in this year that my love for my kids really grew by leaps and bounds. They weren't babies anymore. I was bonding with them now! And I could "feel" their love for me! That was so special! I hadn't expected it. And I couldn't believe how wonderful it felt! And I couldn't believe how much love I was feeeling towards them, too! It was just the greatest feeling ever.
So, now they are 5. And they are literally busting at the seams to help me celebrate Father''s Day! Breakfast in bed, presents, and a trip to the park is on the agenda for later today.
These last 2 years have been AWESOME! I feel so BLESSED most of the time. Sure, we still have bad moments, but by and large my children are my biggest joy, and the best thing I have ever done in my life. I feel LUCKY to be able to guide them in their lives. I feel PRIVILEGED to have kids who love me so much.
I can't wait to wake up later today!
Happy Father's Day Dads!
husband, who is a great father to our son and a loving soulmate to me.
Happy Fathers Day!
