Thank you all so much.
I've been having a very stressful few days and it's effecting my weight loss journey. Long story short, my Sunday plans got changed unexpectedly and I missed my workout. Monday when I started up again...well, this week feels like I started from the beginning again. I haven't walked both ways to work any day, having a hard time getting up in the morning, and the workouts have been so hard. It's weird cause I know it's my own willpower that's changed - I was pushing myself better, y'know? I was in a more positive, more motivated state of mind.
Being stressed out about money and my future and all these other things, I'm letting it all drag me down. Still going wiht my workouts but I need to get back to my butt-kicking place!
I am absolutely making htis change for my whole life, yes. I actually have started thinking I probably won't fit on this ride, but I'm not giving up. It'd be so easy for me to get all upset, and truth be told, I'm sure I will if I'm on that ride withmyf riends and have to get off, but I've already decided that I'm going ot keep going and once I get below 200 pounds, my celebration is heading back down to Orlando to ride this ride. I'm sure I'll be a crying crying mess once I finally reach my first goal in this weight loss journey and can ride Forbidden Journey, but I"m also trying to lose weight and just be healthier so I can play sports with my lil sister (she's 12 and a total athlete) and just keep up with her, so that I can get up in front of my students (I choreograph every spring for a local high school) and keep up with them, show them that anything's possible if you set your mind to it, be the dancer I once was nad want ot be again, to not feel like "the fat one" when I'm out with all my gorgeous, thin, fun freiends; to feel like myself again and not find that I'm retreating within myself becaue I'm so embarassed by the way I look.
I'm going ot keep going with this (and thank you Mama Jessie for your PM - I just don't have enough posts to reply yet, but I will once I get to 10!!) and make it a lifelong thing. This ride jsut motivated a change I've wanted to make for...well, 14 years now. Wow.
Thank you all so much again
And Bubba's Mom, I almost bought one of Jillian's books but had to put it down cause I just can't afford it right now. However, I live near an amazing giant farmer's market where I go once a week and load up on veggies and fruits (those are mostly my snacks), I'm not eating anything other than Jello that is not some healthier, lighter version, I'm doing egg whites eachmorning, usually yogort with lunch, and I do Jello occasionally for dessert, or I'll do oen 100 calorie pack (hostess, or keebler cookies). Close to the "no mother or growing out of the ground" rule? How does that apply to dairy out of curiousity?