Just found this today - heard about this issue in early July and have been working on losing weight. Problem is that I didn't buy a scale until 2 days ago, at which point I discovered that I am 25 pounds heavier than I've been thinking all this time. I really haven't been as strict with all of this as I should have been. Now, with 65 days until we leave (we leave Cleveland October 15 for Orlando), I'm kicking it up.
Personally, seeing that I weigh 250 pounds (I think it might actually be 255, I have a hard time reading the scale) left me in tears all day yesterday - even at my desk at work. I'm very determined to do this, and it didn't leave me hopeless, I just felt defeated and it was my day of 'this is where I'm at because of the life I've lived up to this point' and having to take that in was overwhelming and just very hard. I'm very ashamed of myself.
I am 31 years old, 5'4", wear a 42DD, and wear 18/20 clothes, although I really probably shouldn't be still wearing that size. Just one of those cases of being too poor to buy a new wardrobe so I'm still squeezing into what I always have. I really do kind of carry my weight everywhere - have always had a larger butt ever since I was younger, same started about my senior year in high school in my chest, but my belly, thighs, arms, and neck aren't exactly small either.
I'm still trying to get togehter with a friend of mine who works at Weight Watchers, but for at least a month now I've been counting my calories and walking to and from work each day (about 4-5 miles a day). Like I said, I've dropped the ball and driven some days cause I overslept etc. and more days than not, I go over on my calories cause I don't know how much something I'm eating is. Last night was the first day that I made sure I knew eveyrthing I put in my body and stayed under my calories (which I'm sure was in line with me realizing how much I currently weigh).
I also bought 2 dvds in addition to some a friend lent me that I've been oing here and there - I got Jillian Michaels 30 day shred, and Bob Harper's strengh work out. Did both of those last night (Jillian's is seriously hard core, omg - I spent a good half an hour after doing them thinking I was going ot puke at any moment) and after reading all of these posts, as well as the other thread that got closed in June that I just found on my lunch ehre at work, I am more determined than ever.
I'm terrified that I'm going ot end up doing all of this for nothing though to be honest - that the weight won't come off. I've FELT overweight all my life. Looking back, I never really was until college, but enough people, for one reason or another, call you fat and you start ot believe it. I look at those pictures now and I look so normal - sure, I wasn't a stick, but I don't look fat at all. Crazy how that happens.
Anyways, for the first time in my life, at 31 years old, I'm trying to lose weight. And I'm so terrified it won't work. CAues there's no guarantee, right? I mean, do I really have the power to change something that has been haunting me for so long? Honestly though, sad as it is, it's all because I'm going to Orlando for the first time in over 20 years to go to the HP park (and Disney while we're there) and I want to fit on this ride. I've always wanted to lost weight - between romantically wanting to look better, between working in theatre and roles I want needing to look different for, and mostly just for wanting to feel better about myself - but this crazy ride is what is actually gotten me to do something about it for the first time. It's crazy to me. But Harry Potter has always been about this great joy for me in so many ways - I don't want to tarnish any part of it by associating it with being too fat to ride something at the park, y'know? I don't want to go to Orlando worrying about fitting on rides throughout Universal or at Disney.
Like I said, still terrified that it won't happen - not sure if proportionally I'll fit even if I can get down to 230 in the next 65 days. I'm a big girl. It's so sad to say that, I've never really said it out loud or thought it, but truly I am. We'll see though.
I just wanted to share my (sob - sorry!) story with you all and to thank those of you who have been sharing your stories of if you made it on or not and how your own weight loss is going. It means so much to me and is bringing me such inspiration and comfort today.
Hopefully I can get down to at least 230 and we'll see how it goes...anyone who's on this journey that has any advice (or recipes - dinner is the hardest right now!) please feel free to PM me - it would mean so much.
Congrats to those that got on - hopefully I'll be joining your ranks in the next few months!
