I once spent the better part of a Disney vacation making Stephen find people in the crowd whose body looked like mine. So, yes, I *get* your brand of crazy.
And I understand the addicted to weight loss. When I lost my weight and was at my all-time lowest (which is 15 lbs less than I am now
) I literally feared food. Not *all* food - but I basically ate the same thing day after day and was afraid to vary. While my body was thin and healthy my head was not. Sadly, at the moment neither my head nor my body is in that healthy place that I so desire.
Ah, Nancy, I love you.

New magnet for the fridge: "Chance made us thread-mates, crazy made us friends".
I have to be thankful for my healthy body. Seriously thankful. You know, I see people every single working day in pain. All day long, for six hours, that's what I see. And I never stop to think, WOW Liz, you got off lucky girl. Sure, I have weight to lose. But I have no major health problems at all. Nothing.
So I'm going to shut up and be thankful about that today. Remind me, okay? Nancy, Lisa, E, EE, Amy, Kat, Paula, Karen, Ronda, Kelly, Jo, Megan, Rob wherever you are...all of you...
Am I missing anyone? That's our roll call, right? So sorry if I am!!!
Okay, onto a question. So I've got this job here, which I love.

Like I love Nancy! But here is what it means.
Mr. 36 leaves at 5:30am every day, gets home at 7pm. I get kid to school, work 8-2, no breaks (and I mean I pee once a day at 1pm, and that's it!), then pick up kid. After school activities, ranging from 3-5 depending on the day. Homework. Bath, laundry, chores. Dinner at 7pm so we all eat together. Bedtime for child 8pm. I collapse at about that time every night. TV, book, zone out.
Don't get me wrong, I think that's a fantastic life. I do the bulk of childcare, cooking, cleaning, and errand running, but I am happy with that. And Mr 36 is totally willing to do any and all of that, schedule permitting. And sometimes I slack off and you know, READ instead of clean the stove while homework is being done.
Problems: Eating at work and exercise.
Work is 8-2 which means it's breakfast and lunch there. Now the thing is, I don't get breaks. At all. I am the woman behind the desk at reception who answers the phones and makes your appts and takes your money. BUT I am also the one who brings you back and cleans your room. So front and back girl. Thus everything I do is on display (what I eat, drink, etc) and there's no big sit down. It's up and down. I'm Catholic, so it's like Catholic Mass.
Also, nothing can smell or be too foody because, eww gross for clients.
I usually manage breakfast okay. Almonds, fruit. Water or coffee. Bad but I try to pour it into a non coffee looking mug. (Wellness and all!) Lunch SUCKS. It's impossible to sit and actually eat. Anything I eat has to be consumed quickly, so I:
1. Order in soup or a sandwich.
Pros: tends not to stink, I get to eat, always delicious.
Cons: costs money, need to eat quickly, I don't always make the best choices.
2. Bring something:
Pros: I get to eat, Cheaper.
Cons: hard to heat up or make food because of timing, clients, and smells. Not always filling. Takes planning.
3. Wait until 2:30pm when I get home
Pros: um, none. Easy?
Cons: I'm starving and I eat whatever comes the quickest at home.
So basically I spend my day having to pee and with a slight headache from not eating. Now, if I could just chow Snickers bars and that was good for me, I'd be okay.

But as it is, I feel caught. I do order in and I do bring food and I do skip, depending on how harried my day is, and unless I hit it just right, it's hard. Skipping flat out sucks. Eating a granola bar to tide me over sucks. But less than not eating. Ordering in is great if I am focused and only order the right thing. But that's hard and I hate spending the money.
I'm not sure what the perfect thing to bring would be. Frozen entrees take cooking and I find they don't feel like real food to me. Salads take work at home, but they are good - if I spend the time to really make them and get the protein in and all. Hard to eat at my desk, though. Sandwiches I rarely make at home, but I could. I love bringing homemade pasta salad and quinoa and beans, but you can't bring that every day without dying of boredom. If I made homemade soup, that would be great. Soup is easy to eat here. But yeah, then that would be my fulltime job! And I can't really heat it up here.
What do you all do for lunch? Any suggestions? I really need help.
Part two, exercise issues, to come!