In Search of My Body - Not the One I Ate, VOL 8...It's Never Too Late To Start Again!

[HockeyKat]

Kat, I totally get the private printer thing.

Geek

 

[cathie1327]

Ummmm.... hi ladies.....

So I think it goes without saying that I've not been around for well, a long time.

All I have to say is sorry I've disappeared. The whole story is a lot, but what it comes down is that I turned my back on the one place that is nothing but support because I just couldn't find it in myself to accept the accountability found here and convinced myself it was something else and that I didn't belong here.

Can you all take me back?

 

[SeptemberGirl]

Welcome back, Cathie. Remember - never too late!

Ronda - love that bling!

Kat - thank you.

 

[poppinspal]

Happy Monday all! Just wanted to say a quick hello, I'm heading off to hockey shortly. (Picked up an extra night this week, yay!) It was such a nice day today but it might be a little bit before my town is no longer flooded.

E- love the report! Keep it coming!

Oh have I mentioned I have a date Friday? I'll have to share more later.

 

[adsrtw]

Hello and congrats to all the losers!

I had a graceful moment at work this afternoon and let me just say my ankle hurts from it. Steps + talking + my gracefulness = OUCH! Bought some biofreeze for it. Working out some drama at work too. It's going to be a rough week.

Off to read and remember our trip!

 

[adsrtw]

OMG E! I almost forgot about our initial meeting. I was separated from the group by a small mob and everybody was saying their hellos what have you when I finally made my way through the people. Loved that day.

Oh just had to add that it was team player Tuesday at work and I wore my race shirt.

 

[adsrtw]

Happy Monday all! Just wanted to say a quick hello, I'm heading off to hockey shortly. (Picked up an extra night this week, yay!) It was such a nice day today but it might be a little bit before my town is no longer flooded.

E- love the report! Keep it coming!

Oh have I mentioned I have a date Friday? I'll have to share more later.

Um, no!!! We need details! Happy for you!

Welcome back Cathie!

Kat - personal printers rock.

Jo - great pace!

Ronda - love the St. Louis bling. Oh who am I kidding! I love St. Louis.

Back for more later!

 

[3DisneyKids]

Liz--WORD. You ARE young and pretty. And yes, this should make up for the hot pink a$$. But even so, you ROCKED the hot pink sweats, right?

Meg--oh, maybe we haven't told you, but telling dating stories is totally required here!

Cathie--never too late! Of course come back. And if you need to unload and vent, go right ahead.

Nancy--come up for air when you can!

So I did my first post-race run today. I've been working out, just not running. Thought I would give the quad a nice, long rest and see if that does the trick. Nope. Pain. It is shredded. Back to PT!

 

[goofyfan-12]

E - sorry about the quad. Please do as they say and take care of it.

Cathie - welcome back. What has been going on?

EE - take care of that ankle. You have a tri to get ready for.

Meg - yeah on the date!!!! Glad I am not the only one on the hunt at the moment. We so need details...

Liz - that pic of you and em is so cute

Nancy - thinking of you. Say the word and I'll be there with wine.

Hope everyone else is doing well. I am still riding the high from the race...

 

[cathie1327]

Thanks for the warm welcome back ladies Makes me feel like I never left

It's a long story. A REALLY. REALLY. REALLY long. Lots of things with family that just finally hit the fan, things with the beyonce just hit the make it or break it stage (thankfully they made it), almost lost my job at work, was HORRIBLY sick (7 weeks straight, still not 100% yet), and my immune system just completely shut down. I got illness after illness. And I'm now back in therapy hardcore on their outpatient treatment program. Things just caved in and so did I. I became my worst enemy and basically went into a state of self-destruct. I pushed away anyone and anything positive, because it was easier to just fall into a state of dispair and not have anything to care about. It got bad.

BUT!

I am in a state of repair now, and am working really closely with my therapist several times a week to identify things I need to change, things that I need to avoid, and make more of a priority. Myself being one of them. How I feel about myself is directly related to how I handle situations in my life, and unfortunately, my weight is a huge driver for how I feel about myself. But I've realized it's not just about size, numbers, but an overall and general feeling of wellness that I have been missing. To feel HEALTHY and that I'm worth taking care of. Like I said, therapist and I have been working

I feel so out of the loop! How has everyone been...anything major to share???

Beyonce moved into the apartment...it's beautiful. I'll be moving in in May. My new semester at school started in January and I'm taking an art class that I LOVE!!!! It's really therapuetic for me too, because for 6 hours every Saturday, I get to do something that is totally mental for me....just my thoughts going to the paper. Fabulous.

The only good part I can identify out of the whole thing.....(and not even that necissarily good) I lost a good chunk of weight....I'm back down to a size 20 and I'm DETERMINED I'll never ever buy or wear a bigger size again. Especially being sick. So not a healthy way to lose weight. But maybe a good push in the right direction.

 

[AKASnowWhite]

ex.hausted.

But I'm not stressed or cranky. Yet. So much to do. So, so much. And the list of "fittings and fixes" was l-o-n-g. I plowed thru a whole lot tonight, but tomorrow is another full day of sewing.

I've been reading and wish I could comment on everything. Erika, your TR energized me.

Welcome back Cathie.

Meg. Date?

Paula - the wine. Oh the wine. I'd be totally out right now with just one glass!

Missing you all! Only a few more days and all this will be behind me!

 

[3DisneyKids]

Cathie--thanks for sharing and I am glad to hear that you have a therapist that is working with and for you. So many people just "go to therapy" without realizing that it has to be the right therapist for them. Sounds like you have a good match. Good to hear that you are back to working on YOU. And that will come in a variety of forms...whether that is exercise or an art class or surfing the DIS. Really.

The big news that you missed here is that a bunch of us just got back from running the Princess Half Marathon at WDW! Yup. 8 of us stayed together, played together, ran together...all of it. Total, total blast. We are in the midst of posting pics and trip reports now, so you will be able to catch up.

Nancy--wow. SuperMom returns! Can't wait to hear all about the show! How the hell do you do it?!?! Seth? Any stories? Getting to spend any time with him and Steff?

 

[HockeyKat]

Thanks for the warm welcome back ladies Makes me feel like I never left

...

I am in a state of repair now, and am working really closely with my therapist several times a week to identify things I need to change, things that I need to avoid, and make more of a priority. Myself being one of them. How I feel about myself is directly related to how I handle situations in my life, and unfortunately, my weight is a huge driver for how I feel about myself. But I've realized it's not just about size, numbers, but an overall and general feeling of wellness that I have been missing. To feel HEALTHY and that I'm worth taking care of. Like I said, therapist and I have been working

I feel so out of the loop! How has everyone been...anything major to share???

Sorry that it's been a crappy few months,but glad that you have found help and things are better!


Only thing major here is the trip that goofy (Paula), AkaSnowWhite (Nancy), SeptemberGirl (Liz), 3Disney (Erika), adsrtw (EE/Amiee), amykab (Amy), and I took to WDW almost 2 weeks ago to FINISH a half marathon!!

Like E said, total blast! Couldn't have gone better, and it was so much fun hanging out with (as well as meeting, in some cases) everyone!

 

[adsrtw]

I'm so excited about finishing, that I'm planning another half in October. Its sponsored by a local bank.

I just had to add that I am infatuated with The Tudors. Downloaded it on Netflix. Love it!

 

[poppinspal]

I just had to add that I am infatuated with The Tudors. Downloaded it on Netflix. Love it!

Have I mentioned I love to read and learn about The Tudors? I don't have Showtime so I've bought them on DVD. I really, really enjoy the show.

I'll give date details tomorrow. I'm just getting settled after hockey and I have an early morning.

 

[3DisneyKids]

Day 2 – Saturday

Surprisingly, we all woke up by 7 and started getting ready to head to DHS. Our plan was to get there for EMH by 8am. And you know, we were off to a great start and totally would have made it EXCEPT that we sort of forgot that we were only at the Swan for one night. So we had to not only get ready for park touring, but also had to pack up our suitcases (and beer and food and cooler of cold beer) and leave it ALL with Bell Services before we could head out for the day. OMG, the number of bags we left with them! HORRIFYING. I swear, I have never tipped so much in my life as I did on this trip. I was tipping all the time!

Ok, eventually the 5 of us made it out the door. Liz texted us that she and Em were already there. Totally hard core. Up and out and to the park by 8am. And Paula and Donna were planning on meeting us there as well.

So as we were walking through the lobby of the Swan, we see a bunch of women in running clothes walking toward us. It’s the 5k’ers! (There was a 5k the morning before the Half.) And we all cheered for them saying, “Yay! 5k!” And really, they were so not appreciative of our support! And that’s when Nancy pipes up and was like, “Oh my God. Why didn’t we just do the 5k?!?! We are SO stupid! We wouldn’t have had to kill ourselves, and we would be totally done by now and we could just drink for the next 3 days!” I am totally agreeing with her and mentally head-slapping myself. Then Amy (who is pretty quiet, by the way, but when she does speak up it is ALWAYS worthwhile…then again, maybe she isn’t quiet and just found it impossible to get a word in when around me and Nancy and Liz. Which is totally likely. Ok, done with tangent). Anyway, Amy says “Did you see the bling? Totally sub-standard. It is like made out of rubber or something. I won’t run for sub-standard bling.” And it was just the way she said it that had us rolling! And seriously, it was “the” quote of the trip.

Holding our sides from laughing so hard, we hopped on the boat and were off to DHS. Nancy had never been on TSM before, so we immediately headed straight back, met Liz and Paula, and got FPs. With time to kill before TSM time, we split up a bit. Since Liz had her kiddo, we couldn’t all do RnR and ToT. So Liz, Em, and Kat went off to see the Muppets while the rest of us went over to hit some thrill rides.

ToT was up first as it was a walk-on.

I backed out to do some shopping (and because that ride makes me scream like a little girl! Truly, though, if there is one ride that can affect my stomach it is that one. And with the race the next morning, I bagged it). So I got some shopping in while they rode. The plan was to then go right to RnR since it had a 10 minute wait posted. PER FECT. Except. Once the crew was done with ToT, RnR was down. Suckfest. So we decided to head across the park to Star Tours. As soon as we got half-way there, though, we saw that they had just re-posted the wait time for RnR. WT F?! Is it down or not? Nancy was like, “screw this. I want to do RnR!" So she went up to the CM who confirmed that it WAS open. About face.

This is where Nancy announces, “By the way, I sing the entire time on this ride. Loudly and off key.” WOO HOO! We all do the exact. same. thing. Again, perfect. We rode RnR TWICE. OMG, love, love, love that ride. We were supposed to be single riders, but the second time, we all rode together anyway. It was awesome! (This is Nancy and Amy in the back row, and Donna and Paula up front. Didn't get the pic of my car, which was me, Kat, EE and some random single rider.)

This time we really did cross the park to Star Tours. Posted wait time was 20 minutes, but it looked longer. I happened to check my wait times App (awesome iPhone app, by the way) and it said that the standby line for TSM was also only 20 minutes! OMG, if the choice is between Star Tours and TSM, TSM wins hands down. So we booked it over there since we were scheduled to meet Kat and Liz in half an hour.

I announced that I wanted to ride with Nancy since it was her first time. And here’s the thing. I was just being NICE. I actually wanted to experience her first time on the ride with her. So we go through the queue, Nancy is awed by everything, we are having fun, etc.

Time to get on the ride and I am sort of talking Nancy through it, letting her know that there is a practice round first, etc. Again, being NICE. The ride starts and we are off! Laughing like hell! And Nancy is SO tense. Serious as sh*t I tell ya. By the time we are done, we are both holding our shoulders from working so hard. And it was a victory for me, which I totally didn’t throw in her face. Why? Because I am NICE!

The second we were done, we found Liz and Kat and our TSM FPs were up, so we immediately went to ride it again. And this time Nancy looks at me and says, “Oh yeah, we’re going together again. And this time you are totally going down, little girl!” Seriously, she completely threw down with me! It was HI LAR IOUS! So off we go, and yes, she does indeed beat the crap out of me! But again, we are laughing SO HARD and holding our shoulders from being so tense and firing so much. Paula made a quick stop to get her awesome must-have t-shirt (“Don’t MAKE me get my ANGRY eyes!”) and we were on our way.

Our ADR for Brown Derby wasn’t for like another 45 minutes, but we were hungry so we decided to see if we could get seated. No problem. In we went and had a lovely meal. LOVE the Brown Derby. Most had the famous Cobb salad. I had the side salad (which is super yummy with candied walnuts) and the seared scallop appetizer (yes! Just salad and app!) which was out of this world good. And I would be remiss if I didn’t mention the utter FIASCO that it was trying to get our checks. OMG. Our poor server. First, he brought just one check. And we said we needed separate checks. So he comes back with I don’t know how many checks. A bunch. And then we tell him that we have Tables in Wonderland (20% off), so he has to re-do the checks YET AGAIN so we can get the discount. He was hating us. But we tipped him huge.

It was hard, but we left DHS after lunch. We seriously considered staying and doing one last thing, like the Great Movie Ride, since we were right there. But we were disciplined. We knew we had to get to the Expo and we wanted down time to rest before the big day. Headed out the gates and had awesome boat karma—it was right there and as soon as we got on, it took off. Time to get to the Expo and check in for the race and then check in over at BWV!

~To Be Continued. Because the Expo has to be its own segment. Thanks to Nancy! Ha!~

 

[cathie1327]

Cathie--thanks for sharing and I am glad to hear that you have a therapist that is working with and for you. So many people just "go to therapy" without realizing that it has to be the right therapist for them. Sounds like you have a good match. Good to hear that you are back to working on YOU. And that will come in a variety of forms...whether that is exercise or an art class or surfing the DIS. Really.

Having an amazing therapist has been key for me. I started out with the therapist I was seeing before, but had to change my therapy schedule when I started school, so I started seeing her partner, and man, the change couldn't have gone better. She is just so much better for me. Not that my old therapist wasn't good at her job or anything, but this lady is much better suited for me. It's hard to explain, but I think you get it I think a lot of people don't realize that going to therapy is HARD too. They expect to go and "get fixed" but it's mentally taxing!!! I'm emotionally exhausted from all the over stimulation that therapy has involved, but again, I'm in the intensive outpatient program, so it's supposed to be a little more hard core I guess.

The big news that you missed here is that a bunch of us just got back from running the Princess Half Marathon at WDW! Yup. 8 of us stayed together, played together, ran together...all of it. Total, total blast. We are in the midst of posting pics and trip reports now, so you will be able to catch up.

Sorry that it's been a crappy few months,but glad that you have found help and things are better!


Only thing major here is the trip that goofy (Paula), AkaSnowWhite (Nancy), SeptemberGirl (Liz), 3Disney (Erika), adsrtw (EE/Amiee), amykab (Amy), and I took to WDW almost 2 weeks ago to FINISH a half marathon!!

Like E said, total blast! Couldn't have gone better, and it was so much fun hanging out with (as well as meeting, in some cases) everyone!

Thanks for the comfort guys, really it's so appreciated. A lot of people looka t you like you have 5 heads or a contagious disease when you talk about going to therapy, or instantly get that sugar dripping sickening sweet voice and say Oh wow what's wrong??? So aggrivating, so it's comforting to just have some really solid support

Wow it sounds (and looks) like you all had an amazing time! I'm having major WDW withdrawls lately, so the pictures are awesome to look at from the trip report!!!! Are you all planning on doing this again next year?

I have to say, congrats to you all so VERY much!!!! It takes so much courage and determination just to ENROLL in something like this, let alone actually do it!!!!

AWESOME, YOU ALL ARE!!!!!

 

[adsrtw]

Good morning! Eating breakfast in my car because I really don't want to go into work.

 

[3DisneyKids]

Good Morning!

Got my green-clad, Irish children off to school and now I am headed to the gym for a two-hour beating.

I have exciting news today! Ok, so it is likely only exciting to me. But I am opening the tennis courts today! Earliest ever! As team captain, I get the perk of playing the first game of the season. So, Dan (aka my tennis coach aka summer husband) called me the other day and said "the nets are up!" So we scheduled court time for today! So excited! (Kat and Meg--imagine that you haven't played hockey in 8 months and then you get start playing again.)

 

[AKASnowWhite]

quick fly by here...

Meg - I have no idea who/what the Tudors are. Educate me please.

So as we were walking through the lobby of the Swan, we see a bunch of women in running clothes walking toward us. It’s the 5k’ers! (There was a 5k the morning before the Half.) And we all cheered for them saying, “Yay! 5k!” And really, they were so not appreciative of our support!

They really weren't were they. We were truly cheering for them and they looked at us like we were crazy. Or annoying. hmpf.

Anyway, Amy says “Did you see the bling? Totally sub-standard. It is like made out of rubber or something. I won’t run for sub-standard bling.” And it was just the way she said it that had us rolling! And seriously, it was “the” quote of the trip.

that was the best. ever.

Holding our sides from laughing so hard, we hopped on the boat and were off to DHS.

YES! And by sheer luck, Paula and Donna were ON THE BOAT! That was the day that the bag check security guy at DHS made the baby MOVE in the stroller so that he could see under it.


This is where Nancy announces, “By the way, I sing the entire time on this ride. Loudly and off key.” WOO HOO! We all do the exact. same. thing.

yes. But did you also sing loud and off key at Carousel of Progress? Or Pirates? Or Tiki Room? or Splash? OR (the best yet...) SPACE MOUNTAIN which has no music

I totally entertain myself.

awesome picture!

Time to get on the ride and I am sort of talking Nancy through it, letting her know that there is a practice round first, etc. Again, being NICE. The ride starts and we are off! Laughing like hell! And Nancy is SO tense. Serious as sh*t I tell ya. By the time we are done, we are both holding our shoulders from working so hard. And it was a victory for me, which I totally didn’t throw in her face. Why? Because I am NICE!

OMG - I was exhausted after that ride! So stressful

The second we were done, we found Liz and Kat and our TSM FPs were up, so we immediately went to ride it again. And this time Nancy looks at me and says, “Oh yeah, we’re going together again. And this time you are totally going down, little girl!” Seriously, she completely threw down with me! It was HI LAR IOUS!

Clearly I'm way too competitive for my own good!

And I would be remiss if I didn’t mention the utter FIASCO that it was trying to get our checks. OMG. Our poor server.

that was horrific. We were all so caught up in our conversation that no one thought to warn him in advance, and he never asked. It just went from bad to worse.

To Be Continued. Because the Expo has to be its own segment. Thanks to Nancy! Ha!~

<blush> what? I didn't do anything


EE - what kind of car did you rent? It was this huge SUV that was about the size of a school bus