In Search of My Body - Not the One I Ate, VOL 8...It's Never Too Late To Start Again!

[AKASnowWhite]

No! How long were they in London for? Did they love it? Did they just visit London or other places?

They were in London for just a few days. Mostly their trip was to Scotland. And they did indeed love the entire trip!

I am one who carries all my fatt in my tummy, and it just not going away!

me too!

I've been doing fairly well today - minor glitch. I just made some home-made granola bars. OMG are they delish. I just cut them and ate the "edge" trimmings. So, while it could have been worse, they really weren't in the plan for me today. <sigh>

 

[lisaviolet]

Nancy - I weighed in early - I'm UP. And that's about as much as I can muster to type I am so POed. Period is here but really. Onward. I will continue on my journey and I know 100% I WILL GET THERE.

See Paula - see what your strength and vulnerability bring to others. You allow yourself to be vulnerable and it allows me to make baby steps. HUGE. SO HUGE. It is my hope that you get some gifts in return because you have gven me so many Paula.

Drama alert. God, I don't know how to do this without drama. I didn't want to just disappear but I know that would be less drama. I've made the decision to stay off the disboards/this thread for a time. It's a long story. But do know everything health wise is status quo - no worries. I am just in severe - no drama it's really hard - emotional pain and that has led me to this decision. Sucks because this thread gives me so much and I know that I give it a lot too. Time will tell.

But know I want to stay VERY connected and if I can be so bold and vulnerable I do need your support. So don't cross me off. FB and email and time will tell here. (And I miss IM - I'm lisaviolettwo now if you see me pop up)

to all.

 

[lisaviolet]

And Nancy - I didn't just fire you as weightkeeper - I'll PM you to figure out things.

 

[3DisneyKids]

Nancy - I weighed in early - I'm UP. And that's about as much as I can muster to type I am so POed. Period is here but really. Onward. I will continue on my journey and I know 100% I WILL GET THERE.

See Paula - see what your strength and vulnerability bring to others. You allow yourself to be vulnerable and it allows me to make baby steps. HUGE. SO HUGE. It is my hope that you get some gifts in return because you have gven me so many Paula.

Drama alert. God, I don't know how to do this without drama. I didn't want to just disappear but I know that would be less drama. I've made the decision to stay off the disboards/this thread for a time. It's a long story. But do know everything health wise is status quo - no worries. I am just in severe - no drama it's really hard - emotional pain and that has led me to this decision. Sucks because this thread gives me so much and I know that I give it a lot too. Time will tell.

But know I want to stay VERY connected and if I can be so bold and vulnerable I do need your support. So don't cross me off. FB and email and time will tell here. (And I miss IM - I'm lisaviolettwo now if you see me pop up)

to all.

Lisa. I'm heartbroken, for sure, but I also know that you know what is best for you. I have your e-mail and you have mine. Do what you need to do and come back to us when you can. You totally OWN this thread, you know.

 

[AKASnowWhite]

lisa. I'm heartbroken, for sure, but i also know that you know what is best for you. I have your e-mail and you have mine. Do what you need to do and come back to us when you can. You totally own this thread, you know.

word!

 

[goofyfan-12]

Lisa - I am missing you already!

I didn't even have a chance to fully respond to your post. So much I want to say yet so much to think about. You gave me a lot to consider and I am working through it all.

Please take care of yourself and do what you need to do. Just know that we are here to welcome you back when you are ready.

 

[goofyfan-12]

Hi everyone...

I am not hiding - just insanly busy at the moment. Also trying to process everything that is going on right now. My definition of normal needs to change to reflect the new me, the new job, the new direction my life has taken and I need to focus on making those adjustments if I am going to get through this. I know that now.

Thanks to everyone for all of the supportive words. They really do help. I am not over the hump yet, but I am getting there.

How is everyone doing here? Where is life taking you all at the moment?

 

[AKASnowWhite]

How is everyone doing here? Where is life taking you all at the moment?

Life is taking me to bed!

I've been in a wonky space lately too. Just...off. And abnormally tired. I do have a lot of things I'm trying to balance, but that's nothing new. I think I've fallen into that vicious cycle of not eating well, so my body doesn't feel well, so I crave crap and don't eat well, so I feel worse and on and on it goes. I'm working on it though. I've been eating a bit better - not perfect, but better. And avoiding alcohol. And paying more attention to my water. <sigh>

I'm so out of it, I forgot to ask you about family dinner night Paula!

 

[3DisneyKids]

Bed? What's that?

 

[DisneyGalUK]

LISA - I miss you already too! Whos going to care now that Im going to see Buble in one weeks time?

Take time for you Lisa, I will see you on FB (because I will make a point of seeing you!)

 

[cantwaitvaca09]

Lisa, I have not been on this thread with you very long, but I am sure going to miss you. I love reading your posts.

Please take care of yourself!! I hope everything works out for you the way you need it to.

 

[poppinspal]

Lisa- You need to do whats right for you but I want you to know I'll miss you around here. I will just have to stalk you on fb and im now.

 

[poppinspal]

Morning ladies! The past two days have been crazy. I worked my regular work day(where my kids have been off the wall!) then went straight to babysit from work. I've only been home to sleep. Its good money but boy am I glad it's Thursday and I have no more babysitting this week.

Needless to say exercise the past two days has been chasing kids around. I know two days off is nothing but I feel so lazy! Back on board today!


Have a fantastic Thursday all.


Oh and Nancy- if a two year old said you looked like a mermaid it'd be the biggest compliment in the world. Just saying.

 

[AKASnowWhite]

Bed? What's that?

I hope you were up by choice and not the insomnia again

Have you started playing tennis yet?

Oh and Nancy- if a two year old said you looked like a mermaid it'd be the biggest compliment in the world. Just saying.

yes. But when your 14 year old says it, trust me. Not meant as a compliment!


I had another great workout today. I am trying to capture the essence of how GREAT I feel at this very moment in the hopes that I can use that later today when my resolve has dwindled. <takes imaginary picture of herself>


off to work. Who knows what kind of delightful evilness I'll be making today. All I know is, *I* won't be the one eating it

 

[3DisneyKids]

Seems like we are all super busy these days. Me? I'm finally back to normal. Sleeping my regular 6 hours or so a night and caught up with work (not ahead mind you, but at least no longer in the weeds). My fridge is full, my errands have been run, and my house is sparkling clean--but only because my cleaning lady just left!

Nancy--the insomnia seems to be at bay! And I can usually count on that. Like, my normal pattern is to have a bout of it like that and then it is truly gone--usually for like 4-6 months. So I'm breathing pretty easy right now.

We are supposed to leave for Cali one week from tomorrow. And yesterday I got an e-mail from Jeff asking me to check into moving the dates around! Argh! OMG. What a pain in the a$$--and I don't even know if I can do it without it costing an arm and a leg. Fortunately, we fly SW, so I can change my flights without penalty--BUT if the new dates cost more than what I already paid, well, we have to pay the difference. And these flights were already hugely expensive. And I don't know if I can get Grand Californian Villas for other dates and so on and so on. So, I will spend the rest of this afternoon checking to see if I can change these plans. Why can't it ever just be easy? You know, once --just ONCE--I would love to have a vacation and just SHOW UP. Like, tell me the date, I will be there--and then just entertain me for the week with all of the plans YOU have made. Because this type of crap really takes the wind out of my sails, kwim?

Reading that back, I sound bitter. I'm not really. I'm annoyed, but not really pissed. I'm actually pretty relaxed right now. It's because my house is clean and quiet. Total serenity. I'll enjoy it for a couple of hours and then head out for a run before the bus gets here.

So that's me. Now you. ALL of you.

 

[cantwaitvaca09]

Seems like we are all super busy these days. Me? I'm finally back to normal. Sleeping my regular 6 hours or so a night and caught up with work (not ahead mind you, but at least no longer in the weeds). My fridge is full, my errands have been run, and my house is sparkling clean--but only because my cleaning lady just left!

Nancy--the insomnia seems to be at bay! And I can usually count on that. Like, my normal pattern is to have a bout of it like that and then it is truly gone--usually for like 4-6 months. So I'm breathing pretty easy right now.

We are supposed to leave for Cali one week from tomorrow. And yesterday I got an e-mail from Jeff asking me to check into moving the dates around! Argh! OMG. What a pain in the a$$--and I don't even know if I can do it without it costing an arm and a leg. Fortunately, we fly SW, so I can change my flights without penalty--BUT if the new dates cost more than what I already paid, well, we have to pay the difference. And these flights were already hugely expensive. And I don't know if I can get Grand Californian Villas for other dates and so on and so on. So, I will spend the rest of this afternoon checking to see if I can change these plans. Why can't it ever just be easy? You know, once --just ONCE--I would love to have a vacation and just SHOW UP. Like, tell me the date, I will be there--and then just entertain me for the week with all of the plans YOU have made. Because this type of crap really takes the wind out of my sails, kwim?

Reading that back, I sound bitter. I'm not really. I'm annoyed, but not really pissed. I'm actually pretty relaxed right now. It's because my house is clean and quiet. Total serenity. I'll enjoy it for a couple of hours and then head out for a run before the bus gets here.

So that's me. Now you. ALL of you.

E, sorry about changing the trip. I do understand, its annoying to make all the plans, be happy about it and now have to change.
I hope it works out for you! I really do!

Have a great run.

 

[AKASnowWhite]

I truly have felt like a crazy person more than once today. As I mentioned earlier I took an "imaginary picture" of myself this morning ...well...as I was warding off temptation today, I whipped out said "imaginary picture" and looked at it. So far, I've been on track. It's crazy, but whatever. If it works, I'll take it.

 

[3DisneyKids]

Life is taking me to bed!

I've been in a wonky space lately too. Just...off. And abnormally tired. I do have a lot of things I'm trying to balance, but that's nothing new. I think I've fallen into that vicious cycle of not eating well, so my body doesn't feel well, so I crave crap and don't eat well, so I feel worse and on and on it goes. I'm working on it though. I've been eating a bit better - not perfect, but better. And avoiding alcohol. And paying more attention to my water. <sigh>

I'm so out of it, I forgot to ask you about family dinner night Paula!

Nancy--same here! I am eating too much crap. Not real crap, mind you, but my version of it. Lots of processed white flour (pasta and bagels and breads, etc.) and that just makes me want MORE of that. Today was better. I have been SO low on protein though.

I hope you were up by choice and not the insomnia again

Have you started playing tennis yet?

TENNIS! I got a few early matches in a few weeks ago, but the actual season begins on Weds. next week. 6 days! I am so excited! Not sure yet if I will be captain this year--jury is still out on that.

OH--and anyone with girls--MAJOR score. I got tennis whites for my girls at Target of all places today. SO SO SO cheap! $5 for skirts and $5 for tops. Incredible! I bought 3 sets for each of my girls and spent what I would normally have to spend on just one set! OMG, thrilled! I only wish they had tennis whites for ME!






I had another great workout today. I am trying to capture the essence of how GREAT I feel at this very moment in the hopes that I can use that later today when my resolve has dwindled. <takes imaginary picture of herself>


off to work. Who knows what kind of delightful evilness I'll be making today. All I know is, *I* won't be the one eating it

I LOVE this idea of the imaginary picture. I am going to use that!

E, sorry about changing the trip. I do understand, its annoying to make all the plans, be happy about it and now have to change.
I hope it works out for you! I really do!

Have a great run.

So far, so good Jo. I do have some options that might be a better fit for Jeff's schedule and one of them even saves us some money, so that is a bonus. Now I am just waiting for him to get back to me and let me know if the new plan works for him. The 12-hour time difference makes it really hard to get things done quickly.

And YES, I had an amazing run today! One of the best ever!

 

[AKASnowWhite]

I LOVE this idea of the imaginary picture. I am going to use that!

make sure you make a little "finger frame" and clicking noise

white carbs are my nemisis right now too. Crackers. white rice. Couscous. <sigh>. Today has most definitely been an improvement.

So - did you know that May is National Runner's Month?

Ronda - you must be closing in on your mileage goal pretty quickly these days.

EE - miss you!

 

[3DisneyKids]

Hmmm...National Runners Month. Does this mean we get presents????