Thank you for coming over to my TR today. I got home late but didn't even want to visit - I was emotionally spent from yesterday. It's like I'm so effed. If I say too little I don't read as looking for a guy. @@@ And this will be coming off soon but there's someone over there that is very interesting@@@@ and now he probably thinks I've the strangest woman. I can't win. Yesterday I was praying that you would take care of a few issues. 
I was exhausted. 
I'm sorry - I should have asked but I was so WOWed by your post about PILs - no I didn't just call your MIL a pill. Trying to do parents. It just naturally came out. Just WOWed. Good for you. I brought it up because I just said two weeks ago there that I had no idea that LOVE didn't mean that those who love you don't always have your best interests above theirs. I thought LOVE meant that you were cleared to not have to "fight" for important issues when they might not be good for the other. (I know you didn't fight with JEff - I'm talking about me - and I have no problems fighting. I just shut down when my wants don't serve the other well. Like that's the end of it for me. ) I'm just learning that everyone has to put down STRONG STRONG boundaries. LOVE isn't a free hall pass. And you just said "ah ah" when the time comes for Jeff and bro to get to where they need to be. I thought letting it go BUT being clear what is not going to happen was so - sighing - so flippin' beautiful. Hard decisions for them but you showed your boundaries for you. My therapist is so not a statement maker and you almost made her jump for joy - for women. 
I haven't caught up here. And I loved your pictures. But can't wait to finish my TR so that I can sit down and enjoy yours and then Erika's. Thank you for making my days over there bright by popping over. 
I'm not going to say any more than I can literally feel your pain. Like it's jumping off the page. I'm so sorry. I know there are no words to lessen it right now when you are darn well sitting in the middle of stomach wrenching awful pain. 
Usually I want to whip a heavy object at her.
Yesterday I ate several fist fulls of Fritos. And brownies (omg the brownies. My recipe starts with a full pound of butter, so you know they can't be healthy). And WHITE PASTA 
How I ever managed to run out of whole grain pasta is beyond me.
But you know KNOW that everything I know about boundaries and love and life is from my mom, right? And on the PIL front--well, I have said what I can say and I am at peace with it. They are pretty much choosing not to listen to me and that's fine. I understand why--I mean, it is HARD to look at this and see it. So I feel like I have done all that I can do and I am moving on. I have enough other stuff to deal with!
And it is YOUR thread and I don't want to monopolize over there.
Good for you on the bold.
Jean's favourite thing to say over the years is "this too shall pass" - which I find highly annoying so I have no idea why I'm sharing this with you.
But Kat - this too shall pass.
Sorry to hear that Paula.
I too am not in my "happy place" either. Unlike Kat, I am OFF the wagon. Just haven't seemed to be able to get my sh!t together since we returned from the Princess. Workouts have been becoming more regular (yay!) but the FOOD
Time to pick my self up, dust myself off and hit the trail again. I can do this, right?
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Lisa - I am doing eh these days. Dealing with a lot of crap from all fronts (work, home, odyssey folks and the dating world) so in general I am simply overwhelmed right now. Trying to keep things in perspective but I am not in my normal happy place at all right now. It is getting better as things start to work themselves out so all is not lost. Thanks for asking...
I could feel it. Here's to a break from it all. Sorry to hear that Paula.
I too am not in my "happy place" either. Unlike Kat, I am OFF the wagon. Just haven't seemed to be able to get my sh!t together since we returned from the Princess. Workouts have been becoming more regular (yay!) but the FOOD
Time to pick my self up, dust myself off and hit the trail again. I can do this, right?
Good morning!
Sounds like a lot of us are in a funk! For me, it's just this freaking weather! OMG, I really get Seasonal Affective Disorder when I don't see the sun for days on end like this. Fortunately, tomorrow should be nice.
Lisa--thanks!
And as for your TR, dear Lisa, I AM over there! Didn't you see me post a few days back? I have been reading, jut haven't been commenting--because (in case you haven't noticed) I have a tendency to take over.
Paula and Kat--hang in there! Just remember that funks are temporary. Your lifestyle change is not. You'll get back in the groove.
Nancy--do we have to call Erin???
As for me--things are fine, just somewhat chaotic. Jeff leaves tomorrow, so he is home today packing and planning and getting ready to go. My sister is in town, so while that is wonderful, it also just throws one more person into the mix and adds to the chaos. I am trying to plan this California trip and failing miserably. And on top of all of that, I am going to the accountant to do our taxes tomorrow! Yes, I put it off this year. Those who are relatively new here don't realize what this means for me. Seriously, without exaggeration, taxes are the most stressful thing for me. We always owe. And usually we owe huge. We have tons of tax shelters and write-offs and all of that. And we have an accountant and a financial planner, both of whom manage a lot of stuff for us to minimize the impact. But still, it is always bad and always just makes me ill. Hopefully by tomorrow night it will all be over and done with and I can breathe. And have wine.
Can't she? So use that and take a short smile break.HAHAHA!! Whip a heavy object. I practically laughed out loud at my desk on that one!
I was OFF with you over the weekend. Tailgating Saturday into big blue cheeseburger and fries at lunch Sunday, then finishing up the tailgating food on Sunday night. Oh, and did I mention the beer??
We can do this. I was back down to 189 this morning, and I am vowing to make April a better month than March. I lost 4 or so lbs in March, at least I didn't gain, right? ( right??
I have done that before with the apple sauce... comes out really well. D and I used to do cupcakes with devils food mix made with applesauce, then put a dollop of no sugar added cherries in the middle of each cupcake before baking. That way you have a defined portion size (I think it was less than 100 cals per cupcake), and we would add some canned whipped light cream on top before eating.
Dreadmill. I haven't been able to run at all because my calf is still bothering me. I think I pulled a muscle on the inside of my left leg. I thought it was shin splints but it seems too localized in muscle for that. Been doing the elliptical instead, since that doesn't hurt.
Lastly, I found out my two new friends (well, they are my new friends, hope I am theirs!!) from the weekend, from the childfree DIS thread, are relocating here! He got the job through my recruiter contact, and they should both be here by summertime. I have such trouble finding local women who are around my age and in the tech market, and esp with no children, so I am really excited!
77 as a high today, and sunny!! Yay, spring is here!!
Cutie would be rollin' at this point - like what did she say AND she left it in!!!!
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. I did 5 miles this morning at the gym. I kept with the walk/run intervals much like I did during the marthon training. I'm still fighting the sinus congestion, which is annoying the crap outta me. Not enough to be *sick* (thankfully!) but enough to be *not quite right* (zip it, Erika )) So, he's playing whatever little game he's made up for himself, and over and over he gleefully declares red-DEE It was priceless!
I'll be praying for you!!!HAHAHA!! Whip a heavy object. I practically laughed out loud at my desk on that one!
Me too. Can't you just picture it?
Oh, and did I mention the beer??
*that* was a given
We can do this. I was back down to 189 this morning, and I am vowing to make April a better month than March. I lost 4 or so lbs in March, at least I didn't gain, right? ( right??
I can do this, right?
We can do this. I was back down to 189 this morning, and I am vowing to make April a better month than March. I lost 4 or so lbs in March, at least I didn't gain, right? ( right??
I know, she is amazing, for sure.Ok, first - your mother - can she just not just give seminars?
Taxes - I'm so sorry. Maybe when it gets really bad you can say "hey! This is because Jeff and I are SO FRIGGIN' SUCCESSFUl in life!!!!
Not trying to make light of it but I'm so sorry it brings so much stress for you.
And then by all means go back into how frustrated you are. Because it so doesn't work in a fair manner.
