I totally hear you on the being ready part....
The last few weeks I have been so fed up with myself for just giving up, and I said to myself I was going to make this my new year's resolution...then about a week before Christmas I thought "why wait until then?" So I made Christmas and the weekend my last hurrah, and this week am starting on strong. SLOW but strong.
See, I think part of where I messed up was I wasn't ready to make so many changes at once. I do see some changes that stuck, but most of them just got lost in the mix. So the last week, I did some research. Good veggies. Bad veggies. Good proteins, bad proteins, ETC. And I'm getting back to basics.
I thrive on structure, so I've made myself a chart, kind of a spreadsheet sort of thing, with a box for every pound I need to lose. Each time I lose a pound, I highlight in the box. So sort of a graph sort of thing. I set up a list of guidelines, if you will, of goals that are going to help me get through this spreadsheet. Some easy, some hard. Each week, I have to pick AT LEAST 2 of the goals, and one of them has to be based on exercise. I can use the goals more than once, but only up to a maximum, and after that I expect myself to keep on with them. Ex: one goal is drink 2 sports bottles of water a day, every day of the week. I let myself set this goal for five weeks. After that, it should just be a given. I set up rewards for myself at certain pounds lost (motivation), and even set up "rules" or a "system" of ways to hold myself accountable. My last reward is a right hand diamond ring....I thought it'd be a really great way to reward myself for getting rid of all the weight,and a great reminder daily about my journey, so I can keep myself going afterwards. To pay for it................I set up.....(this is so geeky I almost want to slap myself) an excuse jar! (because with so much to lose I know I'll probably have quite a few of them!) I set parameters up about when to put money in the excuse jar, but basically, when I don't complete a goal and it's something that was totally in my control, a certain amount of money goes in the jar. Each day I am supposed to exercise for the week but don't also gets a certain amount of money. It's a way to allow myself for slipups, but still remind myself I have to keep going and get up after them.
For exercise, I am starting off slow. Like I said. Basics. Teaching myself how to live this new lifestyle that honestly, is entirely foreign to me. For now, it's just one day a week. 30 minutes. After two weeks, then it's 2 times a week, and after so many weeks of that then it's 3 times a week....and so on. I've made it so I can pick each week (except for the first two) how many days I'll be doing for the week, so I can really commit to something I think I can accomplish. So if I know I have a super busy week coming up and won't be able to get it in, I can still commit to something and be able to accomplish it.....I really think this will give me the time to adjust to the IDEA that I have to work exercise into my lifestyle, and adding a day at a time doesn't seem nearly as daunting as suddenly doing it most days of the week.
I just know that lately, I've been SO ready for this me to GO! I want to change, and I am realizing that the only way that happens is when I take charge and make things work for ME, and if that means going slow until I can become accustomed to these new ideas, then so be it. It's better than sitting here feeling sorry for myself.
On that note (gosh that was long, I'm sorry

) I'd really love any input from anyone on anything else I can include into this. I'm sure there are ways I can make it better, so please let me know if you can see anything.....
Hope everyone had a great Christmas and is having a good Monday.