In Search of My Body - Not the One I Ate, VOL 7! Princesses? Nope, just us Goddesses!

[goofyfan-12]

Good Morning all...

I woke up this morning and could think of only one word = Empowerment.

Think of all the things that we talk about here - owning your actions / decisions, choosing to not let the actions of others control you, choosing to make more informed choices that will lead you to your goal and on and on. It is all about empowering ourselves to make the best possible choices given the circumstances we find ourselves in. In the end, isn't that the best we can really do?

Whether it is trying to find that lower number on the scale, the smaller size at the clothing store or just trying to get to the ever elusive happy state of mind, you need to feel empowered to go after it right? This board is all about that. It is up to each of us to find that in our lives and this is a place to help find it.

Loving the diaglogue going on here right now. It is really making me stop, think and grow.

Paula

 

[Ronda93]

Be PROUD!!! And yes, that baggage - oh, good God, if only we could get a group rate on dropping it off.

Luggage services had better watch out! Love it.

Paula, I know what you mean. People have started commenting as I've bought some new clothes. I say thank you and add "I feel great". And I do. Like Liz says, be PROUD!

Ronda

 

[DisneyGalUK]

Good Morning (afternoon!) Everyone!

Wow, you guys were chatty last night whilst I was sleeping! I love it! Some great comments and advice being given!

Cathie - You look great! The outfit was fantastic! I agree, no wonder you were getting checked out!

Paula - I do fear Im becoming a Gym Rat! Even though the time on the treadmill has been upped, I don't run on it. No sir, Im not allowed! Last night I tripped over the exercise ball on the way to the treadmill and the instructor said to DH 'Erm, I think we'll just stick to fast walking on the treadmill'. DH just laughed and said 'you haven't seen ANYTHING yet!' Its a good job im not easily offended!
So now even the instructor is aware of my lack of balance and co-ordination!

Erika - MK day? Can't wait to hear about it!

LisaV - Funny as always!

Liz/Lyz/Nancy/Ronda/Amy/Aimee/Everyone im forgetting -

Oh, I got weighed last night for the first time in what feels like donkeys years - Im down 2lbs so im very happy! This time though, im more focused on the exercise and getting myself healthy, eating right (or as right as I can!) and the weight loss will surely follow!

Have a great day everyone

 

[lisaviolet]

Lisa! I knew you'd come to edit. When I saw your post I literally quoted it right away and read it in the quote/submit new post screen .

Just so you know - this makes you a witch. But a cute one!

 

[lisaviolet]

Cathie - loved the pics. Agree with Lyz.

I forgot to add this in my emotional state - whose feet get very cold just before a big loss?

Mine do. I thought I was crazy. But I read a couple of years ago that when fat is burning your body temperature drops. And I rarely, if ever, feel cold besides this little sign. I feel like I'm back doing Science Fair. Is that - Science Fair - a North American activity in public school (that is what we call elementary school here). Every year you have to present a science project.

 

[lisaviolet]

Good Morning all...

I woke up this morning and could think of only one word = Empowerment.

Think of all the things that we talk about here - owning your actions / decisions, choosing to not let the actions of others control you, choosing to make more informed choices that will lead you to your goal and on and on. It is all about empowering ourselves to make the best possible choices given the circumstances we find ourselves in. In the end, isn't that the best we can really do?

Whether it is trying to find that lower number on the scale, the smaller size at the clothing store or just trying to get to the ever elusive happy state of mind, you need to feel empowered to go after it right? This board is all about that. It is up to each of us to find that in our lives and this is a place to help find it.

Loving the diaglogue going on here right now. It is really making me stop, think and grow.

Paula

Paula.

 

[cathie1327]

Wow! You look great. No wonder the fellows were checking you out.

Cathie - You look great! The outfit was fantastic! I agree, no wonder you were getting checked out!

Cathie - loved the pics. Agree with Lyz.

Awww thanks everyone!!! As I looked at the pictures it dawned on me that maybe I was getting checked out because, well, let's just all say it, the girls are playin peek a boo!!! But it has been a long time since I've even felt comfortable showing any amount of skin, worrying that I'd look like a fat chick trying to be hot. But I LOVED that costume and felt totally at home in it

 

[cathie1327]

Good Morning all...

I woke up this morning and could think of only one word = Empowerment.

Think of all the things that we talk about here - owning your actions / decisions, choosing to not let the actions of others control you, choosing to make more informed choices that will lead you to your goal and on and on. It is all about empowering ourselves to make the best possible choices given the circumstances we find ourselves in. In the end, isn't that the best we can really do?

Whether it is trying to find that lower number on the scale, the smaller size at the clothing store or just trying to get to the ever elusive happy state of mind, you need to feel empowered to go after it right? This board is all about that. It is up to each of us to find that in our lives and this is a place to help find it.

Loving the diaglogue going on here right now. It is really making me stop, think and grow.

Paula

I couldn't agree more. Thanks, Paula, for having the insight to realize this and point it out.

 

[Dizneydawn]

Morning everyone.

Loved everything that I read from last night and love Paula your loss and that word...Empowered.

I think that a lot of things are going on in my head right now and I am trying to sort them out.

Nancy - I am back at Sparkpeople because I did not notice a difference in WW and I know nothing will work unless I do. Their is nothing wrong with WW but I was maintaining and not loosing and the common denominator is me.

Silpada is going pretty good - I have a huge party with my sister tom and I am planning on booking a lot of parties.

I did take into condiseration a lot of our words yesterday and like Lyz - wonder WTH is my key issue. I will not get married at this weight, I love Dan more than I though possible to love someone so why the He!! will I not get my lazy @ss up and moving to have what I want. Maybe there is some fear inside bigger than I wanted to admit. Fear of loosing and not looking good still because what if I am actually ugly and I can use the fat suit as my mirror and what I define as my issue.

Like - "If I loose this weight I will be pretty." The reality though is what if I lose the weight and I still do not find myself pretty? Even at 100 pounds I always destroyed myself. I need to fix that and figure out why. I have an incling but not sure I am ready to talk about it.

I will say that this morning at 10 am I ate a breakfast of stirfry -1 cup of broccoli, 1 oz of feta cheese, 1 sweet Italian Johnsonville sausage and 1/2 tbsp butter with 16 oz water. Tracked, loaded into Sparkpeople and that is a step.

As far as Treyner goes - our weekend was really good. I will update with photos a bit later. I miss him and am in conflict with myself because I know he is ready to be gone and I want to let him go and at the same time it sucks. I have never felt such pain and yet I have no fear that he is hurt or not well. If you have ever lost your kid in a store and your gut drops and you panic - that is the feeling - a sense of a feared loss. I don't even know how to desribe it. I am trying not to be selfish and I am trying to not cry but the ache I have in my gut when I know he is not in his room is tangible.

When I picked him up at the airport I bawled. I literally cried and held him and told him how much I miss him and I hated myself for being so weak. I did not plan on it -planned on being funny but the second I saw him and he gave me a hug I lost it. I did not let myself cry when we left him in Colorado. I have known him/had him my entire adult life - he has been a constant. I do not want to have him 30 minutes away and home every weekend because I know that growing up and being an adult comes from counting on yourself. So it is very frusterating for me to know in my head that it is all great choices and I support him 100% and still miss him like I can't even explain.

He is in the position now of choosing to transfer and one school who is still offereing a full ride for him is in Nebraska - just north of Omaha and the other is in S.C. I am not pressuring him either way. I want him to be happy. Of course the NE school is close and that would mean seeing him monthly and so I would love that. Being selfless when it is your kid is the hardest thing I have ever had to do.

So since that is so hard- why can't I make the choice to start a new life for me with better choices because it can't be worse than that. Hence this morning starting again. Trying to be mindful of food and not perfect and loose the perfection flaw I see everywhere about myself. Start looking at any good steps versus beating myself up over imperfections.

Okay - sorry for the vomit. Just time to start getting truthful for myself and then take the next step which is action.

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

No sir, Im not allowed! Last night I tripped over the exercise ball on the way to the treadmill and the instructor said to DH 'Erm, I think we'll just stick to fast walking on the treadmill'. DH just laughed and said 'you haven't seen ANYTHING yet!' Its a good job im not easily offended!
So now even the instructor is aware of my lack of balance and co-ordination!

Great job on the loss!!

Lisa! I knew you'd come to edit. When I saw your post I literally quoted it right away and read it in the quote/submit new post screen .

Just so you know - this makes you a witch. But a cute one!

Hi Lar Ious!!!!

Dawn - I can't even imagine not having the kid around and running their life. Cause that's what we DO!!!! I'd cry too. Glad you had a good visit.

 

[Dizneydawn]

16 more oz water at lunch and 210 grams of baked potato w/ parkay spray and 2 tbsp sour cream. I have a bazillion carbs left for the day but not much fat so I need to choose dinner wisely - only at like 580 for calories for the day though so yeah for me.

Going to the Y at 4 for an hour and then getting hair done at 6 - it has not been done since May so it is well overdue and might actually help this funk!

 

[lisaviolet]

Someone! Anyone!!! Help.


If someone could tape Oprah today. Especially the first twenty minutes.

Such sycronicity after my NA rant. I LOVE when she goes around the world. Great show. Just love it.

If someone could tape it for me I would be so grateful.

 

[SeptemberGirl]

Someone! Anyone!!! Help.


If someone could tape Oprah today. Especially the first twenty minutes.

Such sycronicity after my NA rant. I LOVE when she goes around the world. Great show. Just love it.

If someone could tape it for me I would be so grateful.

Done!

But are you sure you want this one about infidelity? Really? Or is there more to it than the program description?

 

[lisaviolet]

Done!

But are you sure you want this one about infidelity? Really? Or is there more to it than the program description?

Oh crap. Liz! I just saw one where she goes around the world but it was an East Coast station. Crap. Was in yesterday's show.

 

[lisaviolet]

Oh crap. Liz! I just saw one where she goes around the world but it was an East Coast station. Crap. Was in yesterday's show.

Hmmm. Around the world is the one today. I'm confused.

Thanks so much Liz! Thanks so much!

 

[Ronda93]

A very special international infidelity program on today's Oprah!

 

[lisaviolet]

A very special international infidelity program on today's Oprah!

 

[AKASnowWhite]

Be PROUD!!! And yes, that baggage - oh, good God, if only we could get a group rate on dropping it off.

ha. Can't imagine the charge for my overweight baggage.

You do not have to give up your crap to lose weight. You do not!!!!!!!!!!!! If you want to - fine. Healthy is good. Better for your health. But we're not talking about health by itself. We are talking about loss. I'm so sick and tired of hearing you have to eat "healthy" to lose weight. I am right here!!!!!!!!!!! Living proof.

There are probably as many different weight loss methods here as there are people. There are two things that I have learned to be truths for me. 1) there is no way that I can give up all the things I love, so I must figure out how to work them into my daily food plan. 2) I definitely feel waaay better when I'm eating a "clean" diet. I know that those sound like they should be mutually exclusive, but I don't think that they need to be. Balance. That's what I need.


Paula - Empowerment. Such a great word. Such a great *thing* to work to achieve. Love it.

Lisa - do not think that I missed the fact that you lost 10+ pounds for BL. I noticed how you tried to just sneak that little factoid in on us. Congrats! That's something to celebrate!


Dawn - I'm right there with you. I tear up a lot. This is way harder than I ever expected it to be. waaaaay harder. AND. to make things worse, we are now starting the process all over again with Nate, who is a junior.

And now I have to ask the burning question. WHY? Why will you not get married at your current weight?


Cathie - WOWZA! Love the pic's. Yep - I can see why the guys were oggling you! As for the girls playing peek-a-boo? As one of the "have nots" I say if you have 'em, well, might as well flaunt 'em!

Kelly - WOO HOO! Nice job on the weight loss!

 

[lisaviolet]

Morning everyone.

Loved everything that I read from last night and love Paula your loss and that word...Empowered.

I think that a lot of things are going on in my head right now and I am trying to sort them out.

Nancy - I am back at Sparkpeople because I did not notice a difference in WW and I know nothing will work unless I do. Their is nothing wrong with WW but I was maintaining and not loosing and the common denominator is me.

Silpada is going pretty good - I have a huge party with my sister tom and I am planning on booking a lot of parties.

I did take into condiseration a lot of our words yesterday and like Lyz - wonder WTH is my key issue. I will not get married at this weight, I love Dan more than I though possible to love someone so why the He!! will I not get my lazy @ss up and moving to have what I want. Maybe there is some fear inside bigger than I wanted to admit. Fear of loosing and not looking good still because what if I am actually ugly and I can use the fat suit as my mirror and what I define as my issue.

Like - "If I loose this weight I will be pretty." The reality though is what if I lose the weight and I still do not find myself pretty? Even at 100 pounds I always destroyed myself. I need to fix that and figure out why. I have an incling but not sure I am ready to talk about it.

I will say that this morning at 10 am I ate a breakfast of stirfry -1 cup of broccoli, 1 oz of feta cheese, 1 sweet Italian Johnsonville sausage and 1/2 tbsp butter with 16 oz water. Tracked, loaded into Sparkpeople and that is a step.

As far as Treyner goes - our weekend was really good. I will update with photos a bit later. I miss him and am in conflict with myself because I know he is ready to be gone and I want to let him go and at the same time it sucks. I have never felt such pain and yet I have no fear that he is hurt or not well. If you have ever lost your kid in a store and your gut drops and you panic - that is the feeling - a sense of a feared loss. I don't even know how to desribe it. I am trying not to be selfish and I am trying to not cry but the ache I have in my gut when I know he is not in his room is tangible.

When I picked him up at the airport I bawled. I literally cried and held him and told him how much I miss him and I hated myself for being so weak. I did not plan on it -planned on being funny but the second I saw him and he gave me a hug I lost it. I did not let myself cry when we left him in Colorado. I have known him/had him my entire adult life - he has been a constant. I do not want to have him 30 minutes away and home every weekend because I know that growing up and being an adult comes from counting on yourself. So it is very frusterating for me to know in my head that it is all great choices and I support him 100% and still miss him like I can't even explain.

He is in the position now of choosing to transfer and one school who is still offereing a full ride for him is in Nebraska - just north of Omaha and the other is in S.C. I am not pressuring him either way. I want him to be happy. Of course the NE school is close and that would mean seeing him monthly and so I would love that. Being selfless when it is your kid is the hardest thing I have ever had to do.

So since that is so hard- why can't I make the choice to start a new life for me with better choices because it can't be worse than that. Hence this morning starting again. Trying to be mindful of food and not perfect and loose the perfection flaw I see everywhere about myself. Start looking at any good steps versus beating myself up over imperfections.

Okay - sorry for the vomit. Just time to start getting truthful for myself and then take the next step which is action.

Dawn.

Really - just think about it as something is knocking at your door. That's all. It's showing itself. That really is a positive if you think about it. I used to dream of denial - so jealous of those people in life. I couldn't understand for the life of me why I could no longer sit in it. I SO WANTED TO SIT IN IT. It seems so pretty there. But the fact is I'm blessed because yes I have lows - but because I have them - the other side is much more lovely. So vivid.

As for the weight - don't be ridiculous Dawn. He loves you. Don't make this about weight.

ha. Can't imagine the charge for my overweight baggage.



There are probably as many different weight loss methods here as there are people. There are two things that I have learned to be truths for me. 1) there is no way that I can give up all the things I love, so I must figure out how to work them into my daily food plan. 2) I definitely feel waaay better when I'm eating a "clean" diet. I know that those sound like they should be mutually exclusive, but I don't think that they need to be. Balance. That's what I need.

No I absolutely understood that - as I was eating my peanut butter M&Ms


Paula - Empowerment. Such a great word. Such a great *thing* to work to achieve. Love it.

Lisa - do not think that I missed the fact that you lost 10+ pounds for BL. I noticed how you tried to just sneak that little factoid in on us. Congrats! That's something to celebrate!

I didn't sneak nada. I posted every week. If math majors struggle with simple addition it ain't my fault!!!!


Dawn - I'm right there with you. I tear up a lot. This is way harder than I ever expected it to be. waaaaay harder. AND. to make things worse, we are now starting the process all over again with Nate, who is a junior.

Nancy.

And now I have to ask the burning question. WHY? Why will you not get married at your current weight?

Yes, I am waiting for that answer.


Cathie - WOWZA! Love the pic's. Yep - I can see why the guys were oggling you! As for the girls playing peek-a-boo? As one of the "have nots" I say if you have 'em, well, might as well flaunt 'em!

Kelly - WOO HOO! Nice job on the weight loss!

Kelly I missed it. Sorry. Congratulations.

 

[lisaviolet]

My dearest Erka,

I simply don't care if you're busy having the time of your life - loving your legal - as opposed to "summer" and " jogging path" - husband and having a ball with your angelic hysterically funny children - sipping yet another cocktail.


I am living off your TRs. Please feed the beast.