In search of my body...not the one I ate! Part Deux... We sit at the popular table!

[DisneyWorld Delight]

Ten years up, ten years down...a girl's gotta have standards, even if they are just for my fantasies!

 

[BrcsDisneyPrncs]

ACK! I know i know i'm terrible and it's uncalled for! I'm sorry for the disappearing act!

HOWEVER!

I would like to introduce you to my excuse, my birthday present from Bruce, She is just awesome, and her name is Lucy. I picked her up late Thursday night and since have been settling her in, introducing her to family and buying her everything she needs (my birthday shopping trip at the outlet mall turned into a 2 hr expedition at PetSmart, my bday present from my mom was a bunch of puppy stuff! lol)

She is just adorable, and i'm sure you'll love her, here she is!!

 

[SeptemberGirl]

That is a REALLY cute dog!

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

Awwww, Lucy is a cutiepie. She's gonna be so spoiled!

 

[SeptemberGirl]

Gang - Get your skinny little behinds on AIM. Come on, you know you want to.


Lyz - I am desperate to go to Dollywood. For real. I love her. I love cheesy. I want to do the Dixie Stampede!!!!! The trip sounds divine, and you sound happy. I love how your bubbly personality just shines through your story.

I don't have any good pics to post, but I want to see yours. Stat!

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

Gang - Get your skinny little behinds on AIM. Come on, you know you want to.


Lyz - I am desperate to go to Dollywood. For real. I love her. I love cheesy. I want to do the Dixie Stampede!!!!! The trip sounds divine, and you sound happy. I love how your bubbly personality just shines through your story.

I don't have any good pics to post, but I want to see yours. Stat!

Liz - that is crazy you described me like that. That is EXACTLY how my mama describes me!

Dolly - we like her too. Maddi can sing 9 to 5 like nobodys business. We saw her childhood home, 2 room cabin with 11 kids, and toured her old tour bus. $750,000.00. They took our picture in it, and we had the opportunity to purchase it for, $20! I was like ok thanks and handed it back.

Probably no time for AIM tonight. Hubby leaves for TX in the am, (for like 6 weeks) and we are busy packing enough stuff so his laundry is minimal. (Which means me, flying down to do it. )

I have lots of pics I want to post. Just can't seem to find the time. Maybe late tonight.

 

[3DisneyKids]

Hi! Back! Love and missed you all. Have TONS of work to catch up on, so I cannot, repeat cannot AIM tonight. It is gonna be hard knowing that you are all chatting away without me. Cause I have tons to share.

Highlights--

Camping trip was great. NO RAIN which is huge since we were expecting tons. Ran every day...uphill. No sh*t. We were on a mountain, so there was nothing but hills (frigging steep ones, at that) so I got incredible work outs in every day. Food--very good! But then, I drank a lot as well. But still, better than I hoped. Got 2 cardio workouts in each day. A run and a hike. The hiking was KILLER, but it was a good burn. Also got in one paddle. Wish I had more time for that. (Kayak, not canoe.)

Sorry, no pics. Camera is still MIA.

Riley--loved sleep-away camp. Had a great experience. Phew!

J--good! More about that in IM.

Karen/Greenie--NOT good. Just back from seeing her and she is a MESS. Poor thing. I don't know how to even begin helping her.

As for you guys--

LIZ--glad you had fun with your BFF. Miss you!

LYZ--welcome back! And I agree with LIZ...your fun personality totally came through it that post. And 6 weeks! In AIM.

DAWN--report back. Hope the trip was a success.

STACEY--cute pup! Chocolate lab? We used to have those! Super fun.

KAT--woo-Hoo on winding down! That must feel great. Are you back on the wagon?

PAULA--yikes! Hope the work thing sorts itself out. We are here for you!

NANCY--looking forward to your check-in tomorrow.

LISA--hope you had a great week-end and the weather held out for you as it did for us.

Have I told you guys recently how much I adore you and this thread??? I do! Thanks to you all...for so much!

This was our last big get-away of the summer. We will still go out on the boat a couple of more times, but basically we are winding down now.

 

[SeptemberGirl]

Aww, E. Welcome home.

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

Hi! Back! Love and missed you all. Have TONS of work to catch up on, so I cannot, repeat cannot AIM tonight. It is gonna be hard knowing that you are all chatting away without me. Cause I have tons to share.

We'll have to set up an AIM party.

Highlights--

Camping trip was great. NO RAIN which is huge since we were expecting tons. Ran every day...uphill. No sh*t. We were on a mountain, so there was nothing but hills (frigging steep ones, at that) so I got incredible work outs in every day. Food--very good! But then, I drank a lot as well. But still, better than I hoped. Got 2 cardio workouts in each day. A run and a hike. The hiking was KILLER, but it was a good burn. Also got in one paddle. Wish I had more time for that. (Kayak, not canoe.)

I'm tired just reading about your exercise. What do the other moms on the trip do?

Riley--loved sleep-away camp. Had a great experience. Phew!

Great!

Have I told you guys recently how much I adore you and this thread??? I do! Thanks to you all...for so much!

Same.

 

[SeptemberGirl]

Group hug!

 

[3DisneyKids]

OMG! It is after 9am people!

Off for a long bike ride. Busy most of the day catching up with my life. But AIM tonight...for sure!

 

[Dizneydawn]

Morning all - may wigh in at WW tonight not tom - I have a Tupp MTg tom night...

My scale says 248.6 so that would be great if it was close to that (no weighing neked at WW) That would be a total of almost a 10 pound loss....

I ate well in Orlando - no alcohol even though it was free and no fried foods - went to Margaretiville at City Walk and had steak, mashed tatoes and fresh vegies...

I also am throwing out food if I get full versus forcing myself to eat it all just because I bought it...

We had an famous author / gymnast Dan Millman speak to us - and he asaid - "Ya know - I never remember reading a wrapper that says once purchased - must eat all."

That was a huge moment for me. The whole weekend was great - very much about motivating and moving forward - no looking back and how adversity will build us...

Met Brooke Shields - will try and get pics posted - she is our Chain of Confidence spokeswomen - Tupperware has a long history with the Boys and Girls Club - and they have created a website uniting women in the workd to help give advice nd cheer each other on - sorta like us right here on the Dis..

She was beautiful and not super tiny like many stars -

Anyway - mailing out Fundraiser info for Liz Cancer Run today - please let me know if you want to help - pm me

I believe so far I have E and Liz

I will try and be on AIM if at all possible tonight...

 

[goofyfan-12]

Hi everyone...

Sounds like everyone survived the weekend and we have an adorable new puppy to add to the mix... She is soooooo cute.... Can't wait to hear the stories of her growing up...

This week has been a roller coaster and I am still not sure if it is over yet. I am coming to terms with the whole job thing. I really think losing a project deserves a grieving period of sorts. I am through the sadness and the anger stages and am now trying to pick up and determine what is next for me. The frustrating part is that I am not in complete control of my next project since we don't know where or when it will come (damn competitive bid enviornments...), but I do know that my company will protect me and does not want to lose me so that is a good thing. On the same day I got the news that the big project was dead, I was invited to a strategic planning session for my company so someone was trying to tell me that it is ok and my professional life will go on.

On the weight loss front, I am a bit of a mess at the moment. I am still carbo loading with the best of them.... yesterday's food intake was two small blueberry pancakes with a link of breakfast sausage, lunch was two pieces of toast with peanut butter and dinner was basically a bowl of cereal. Oh, and there was the 4 ounces of pretzel nuggets that I inhaled over the course of the afternoon while cleaning the house. I did eat a peach so that counts as a fruit, but that's about it... I am not sure what is going on in my head. I want to do this, I really do, but I am just not motivated at all to be serious about it. On the plus side, I am not eating what I used to eat when I put the weight on, but I am not happy with my choices and I am frustrated and can't quite seem to stop thinking that I am failing. I am fighting the whole self sabatoge thing right now and feel like I am starting to lose the battle for the first time since I started this back in October of last year... I am nervous because my best friend from college is coming into town tomorrow and staying for five days. He knows I am trying to lose weight and supports me in what I do, but I have a hard time telling anyone about what I am going through (other than you all of course) so I doubt he will notice my issues on his own (but he has been known to surprise me). I know I am not going to be eating JC food for the majority of his visit and with the way I am feeling right now, I see a horrendous, nonstop eating binge coming my way. I also won't have a chance to log on and chat with you all like I normally would so I'll be without one of my biggest support systems as well. I am officially scared so any words of wisdom would be appreciated....

Thanks - love you all...
Paula

 

[Dizneydawn]

Goof - you can do whatever you set your mind to do - how bout eating JC food for snackss and 2 meals - and not worry about 1 meal a day with him...that way you feel responsible and not bad...

I am sorry that life is giving you more lemons than lemonade right now - but you can change all that if you choose to - you can change how you proccess it and let me tell you - after this past weekend - I cried/obbed in front of strangers and then - got my game plan on - and thus..I am going to kick some tukkus - it may not be the life I choose...but it will be the life I choose to lead...and I am sick of my life leading me to weight and feeling helpless...so my friend...

Call me if you feel the urge coming on...befor you take a bite...think of new shoes with skinny feet...

Think of loving yourself instead of hating your choices...

I care about all of you imensley...

I need you all in my life and I never thought I would open up to all of you like I have and I am gratefull - as much as when you do the same...

BTW - love that Dog..maybe need one in a few months...

 

[HockeyKat]

Paula, it's scary how much I am with you right now. I can't seem to get control either. And although I am thrilled about leaving here, I am also a bit sad that things didn't work out here, at the same time I am both excited and scared about possibly jumping into the fire.

So, I don't really have any advice, just a .

And E/Lyz/Liz, definitely.

I may be on AIM tonight but not until after 9 or so. I am going to try to make it to an open hockey practice.

So, the weekend was a bust when it comes to dieting, but I did have fun at the beach with my family. The house they get is literally right on the beach, with three levels of balconies that have nothing but unspoiled beach views. Very relaxing. And yes, my pale a$$ is totally burned, although only in the spots where I missed with sunscreen.

I am going to try my hardest to get and stay on the wagon for the next two weeks before WDW, but I know that at least a few lunches will be a bust.

Lyz, your weekend sounds awesome. SO glad you had a good time. Someday even if you can't get out of Ohio, we may converge on you.

 

[3DisneyKids]

PAULA--we are here for you. Yes, the job situation is a blow. But just file it away under "S" for Sometimes life Sucks. And move on. Seriously, I think of things that way. Just like a file on my desk. Once it has been closed and filed away it is done and I move on to the next thing, right? So file it. Done.

Guy friend. Open up to him. Support is wonderful in all of its forms. He loves you...he has known you through all of this weight stuff and is still coming around, right? Let him in! Ok, so sometimes some men don't have the "get it" gene, but let him have a shot. You never know. And I still think there is something more on his mind anyway...

On eating. You KNOW that eating whatever you want and binging will make you feel like crap about yourself (and likely make you feel like crap physically as well). Don't go there! That was the old Paula. Not the new warrior GODDESS Paula! Look at those pics that you posted. The ones that made you run screaming to JC. And then look at your awesome progress pics!!! OMG!

You have such a huge amount of strength! You are there for all of us...you are there for your family, through illnesses and other issues that have come up. You have been there for your job when there have been crises, etc. Now it is time to be strong for YOU. You totally have the strength. You have shown that time and again. Now just turn it on yourself.

Let me know what I can do...whatever it is, let me know. We will get you through this!

 

[3DisneyKids]

Lyz, your weekend sounds awesome. SO glad you had a good time. Someday even if you can't get out of Ohio, we may converge on you.

ROAD TRIP!!!

I'm in!

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

Hi guys. Super busy today. It's MONDAY! And I didn't get up and walk this morning, but I will before the day is out. I am determined.

But AIM tonight...for sure!

It's a date! After 9.

My scale says 248.6 so that would be great if it was close to that (no weighing neked at WW) That would be a total of almost a 10 pound loss....

Dawn - that is AWESOME!!! Truly!!!

I ate well in Orlando - no alcohol even though it was free and no fried foods - went to Margaretiville at City Walk and had steak, mashed tatoes and fresh vegies...

Awesome also!!!

I also am throwing out food if I get full versus forcing myself to eat it all just because I bought it...

We had an famous author / gymnast Dan Millman speak to us - and he asaid - "Ya know - I never remember reading a wrapper that says once purchased - must eat all."

Very good point!

Anyway - mailing out Fundraiser info for Liz Cancer Run today - please let me know if you want to help - pm me

I believe so far I have E and Liz

Yes, I want to place an order. Just need to get on the ball.

I will try and be on AIM if at all possible tonight...

Dawn - you know, I'm glad you checked back into us here. For a couple months, you seemed to be floundering. Not here very often, and now your back. We are a chain, feeding emotional support off of each other. (and tons of fun too).

I really think losing a project deserves a grieving period of sorts.

TOTALLY!

On the weight loss front, I am a bit of a mess at the moment. I am still carbo loading with the best of them....

yesterday's food intake was two small blueberry pancakes with a link of breakfast sausage, lunch was two pieces of toast with peanut butter and dinner was basically a bowl of cereal. Oh, and there was the 4 ounces of pretzel nuggets that I inhaled over the course of the afternoon while cleaning the house. I did eat a peach so that counts as a fruit, but that's about it...

Ok, this doesn't sound to bad to me calorie wise. Carb wise, I suppose it's a total bust, but your body needs fuel. It's not like you had a 1300 calorie mexican salad for lunch, and a big ol' juicy hamburger and fries for dinner. I could personally put away everything you ate yesterday and much MUCH more.

I am not sure what is going on in my head. I want to do this, I really do, but I am just not motivated at all to be serious about it. On the plus side, I am not eating what I used to eat when I put the weight on, but I am not happy with my choices and I am frustrated and can't quite seem to stop thinking that I am failing. I am fighting the whole self sabatoge thing right now and feel like I am starting to lose the battle for the first time since I started this back in October of last year...

Paula - you have come too far to go back now. It's a head trip. I know it, but don't throw away almost a years worth of work. That'd be a shame. And think about how in control you feel when you are clicking.

You can eat out. And eat out healthy. You know how. Make the choices that will make you happier in the long run, not for the 20 minutes of happiness it takes to eat.

Thanks - love you all...
Paula

Paula, it's scary how much I am with you right now. I can't seem to get control either. And although I am thrilled about leaving here, I am also a bit sad that things didn't work out here, at the same time I am both excited and scared about possibly jumping into the fire.

Totally bittersweet. You are so doing the right thing.

So, the weekend was a bust when it comes to dieting, but I did have fun at the beach with my family. The house they get is literally right on the beach, with three levels of balconies that have nothing but unspoiled beach views. Very relaxing. And yes, my pale a$$ is totally burned, although only in the spots where I missed with sunscreen.

Kat - sounds awesome. I want to go to the beach. With glorius views and waking up to the sound of waves. Ahhhh.

Lyz, your weekend sounds awesome. SO glad you had a good time. Someday even if you can't get out of Ohio, we may converge on you.

Ok.

ROAD TRIP!!!

I'm in!

 

[Astro Orbiter]

Seems like we're all in need of some encouragement right now. I'm right there with the rest of you.

Me, I gave up on food tracking last week. Gained 2 lbs last week. Then lost it this weekend, thank goodness. But now I'm kicking myself - if I hadn't given in to real cokes, chocolate cake, and the cookie in the box lunch, and wrong serving sizes. By the time it's time to eat according to Tucson time I'm beyond starving, make bad choices, and eat too much. The time change really caught me this time. I got home and Saturday morning could barely do a 3 mile bike ride I was so tired. Sunday I didn't even try. And my loving DH made brownies yesterday. Which I love, and can't resist, and don't need. I'm off my goal - will not hit a 12 lb loss by the time we go to WDW Sept 4. I'l be lucky to get 5 by that time, since it's back to Tucson next week for 3 days.

This morning the alarm went off, and I wake the sound of rain pelting the windows. Followed by a flash of lightening and the boom of thunder. Hello, Tropical Storm Fay! Feeder band, anyways. No bike ride this morning! It had stopped raining by the time I left the house, but will be on and off all day. I wore crocs into work (and changed shoes here) because I'm quite confident that the parking lot will have turned into a moat by 5pm.

Oh, and they cancelled the first day of school. Go look at NOAA, I dare you. There's no wind right now, and Miami's clearly out of the probability cone. Tomorrow they may have to close for high winds, but not today! I hear they don't run school busses in >39 mph winds.

We had an famous author / gymnast Dan Millman speak to us - and he asaid - "Ya know - I never remember reading a wrapper that says once purchased - must eat all."

That was a huge moment for me. The whole weekend was great - very much about motivating and moving forward - no looking back and how adversity will build us...

I like both of those - especially the one about no looking back.

This week has been a roller coaster and I am still not sure if it is over yet. I am coming to terms with the whole job thing. I really think losing a project deserves a grieving period of sorts. I am through the sadness and the anger stages and am now trying to pick up and determine what is next for me. The frustrating part is that I am not in complete control of my next project since we don't know where or when it will come (damn competitive bid enviornments...),

On the weight loss front, I am a bit of a mess at the moment. I am still carbo loading with the best of them.... . I did eat a peach so that counts as a fruit, but that's about it... I am not sure what is going on in my head. I want to do this, I really do, but I am just not motivated at all to be serious about it. On the plus side, I am not eating what I used to eat when I put the weight on, but I am not happy with my choices and I am frustrated and can't quite seem to stop thinking that I am failing. I am fighting the whole self sabatoge thing right now and feel like I am starting to lose the battle for the first time since I started this back in October of last year... I am nervous because my best friend from college is coming into town tomorrow and staying for five days. He knows I am trying to lose weight and supports me in what I do, but I have a hard time telling anyone about what I am going through (other than you all of course) so I doubt he will notice my issues on his own (but he has been known to surprise me). I know I am not going to be eating JC food for the majority of his visit and with the way I am feeling right now, I see a horrendous, nonstop eating binge coming my way. I also won't have a chance to log on and chat with you all like I normally would so I'll be without one of my biggest support systems as well. I am officially scared so any words of wisdom would be appreciated....

Thanks - love you all...
Paula

Avoid the binge! Since you see it coming you should be able to do. Don't let your self set it up. And Erika's right about how you feel afterwards - I'm living proof...mentally and physically...

Yes, you're allowed to grieve. It's the lost might-have-beens. Is that from Madeline L'Engle? I think so. But grieve, and move on. See Dawn's post about not looking back!

I am sorry that life is giving you more lemons than lemonade right now - but you can change all that if you choose to - you can change how you proccess it and let me tell you - after this past weekend - I cried/obbed in front of strangers and then - got my game plan on - and thus..I am going to kick some tukkus - it may not be the life I choose...but it will be the life I choose to lead...and I am sick of my life leading me to weight and feeling helpless...so my friend...

Call me if you feel the urge coming on...befor you take a bite...think of new shoes with skinny feet...

Think of loving yourself instead of hating your choices...
QUOTE]

New shoes with skinny feet! I never realized - until I lost a few lbs - and fit into too-tight shoes again!

Somebody throw me a rope - I'm not catching that wagon on my own this time -

Deb

 

[goofyfan-12]

Seems like we're all in need of some encouragement right now. I'm right there with the rest of you.

Me, I gave up on food tracking last week. Gained 2 lbs last week. Then lost it this weekend, thank goodness. But now I'm kicking myself - if I hadn't given in to real cokes, chocolate cake, and the cookie in the box lunch, and wrong serving sizes. By the time it's time to eat according to Tucson time I'm beyond starving, make bad choices, and eat too much. The time change really caught me this time. I got home and Saturday morning could barely do a 3 mile bike ride I was so tired. Sunday I didn't even try. And my loving DH made brownies yesterday. Which I love, and can't resist, and don't need. I'm off my goal - will not hit a 12 lb loss by the time we go to WDW Sept 4. I'l be lucky to get 5 by that time, since it's back to Tucson next week for 3 days.

This morning the alarm went off, and I wake the sound of rain pelting the windows. Followed by a flash of lightening and the boom of thunder. Hello, Tropical Storm Fay! Feeder band, anyways. No bike ride this morning! It had stopped raining by the time I left the house, but will be on and off all day. I wore crocs into work (and changed shoes here) because I'm quite confident that the parking lot will have turned into a moat by 5pm.

um... hurricaine... yikes!!!!

Avoid the binge! Since you see it coming you should be able to do. Don't let your self set it up. And Erika's right about how you feel afterwards - I'm living proof...mentally and physically...

Yes, you're allowed to grieve. It's the lost might-have-beens. Is that from Madeline L'Engle? I think so. But grieve, and move on. See Dawn's post about not looking back!

Somebody throw me a rope - I'm not catching that wagon on my own this time -

Deb

I think there are a few of us looking for the rope right now...

PAULA--we are here for you. Yes, the job situation is a blow. But just file it away under "S" for Sometimes life Sucks. And move on. Seriously, I think of things that way. Just like a file on my desk. Once it has been closed and filed away it is done and I move on to the next thing, right? So file it. Done.

Guy friend. Open up to him. Support is wonderful in all of its forms. He loves you...he has known you through all of this weight stuff and is still coming around, right? Let him in! Ok, so sometimes some men don't have the "get it" gene, but let him have a shot. You never know. And I still think there is something more on his mind anyway...

Have you been talking to my mother??? She thinks there is more there, but I am just not feeling it from him if you catch my drift.... I'll see what happens, but you are asking me to break through a pretty thick wall that I built to protect myself. It may take more than just this trip to bust through it. My friend is a great guy and I doubt there is much I could say or do (other than the really bad stuff which is so out of character for me anyways) to drive him away at this point so the only thing holding me back is me.

On eating. You KNOW that eating whatever you want and binging will make you feel like crap about yourself (and likely make you feel like crap physically as well). Don't go there! That was the old Paula. Not the new warrior GODDESS Paula! Look at those pics that you posted. The ones that made you run screaming to JC. And then look at your awesome progress pics!!! OMG!

You have such a huge amount of strength! You are there for all of us...you are there for your family, through illnesses and other issues that have come up. You have been there for your job when there have been crises, etc. Now it is time to be strong for YOU. You totally have the strength. You have shown that time and again. Now just turn it on yourself.

Let me know what I can do...whatever it is, let me know. We will get you through this!

I will keep you posted... it is going to be a rough week for me food wise, but I'll find a way to get through it.

Paula, it's scary how much I am with you right now. I can't seem to get control either. And although I am thrilled about leaving here, I am also a bit sad that things didn't work out here, at the same time I am both excited and scared about possibly jumping into the fire.

So, I don't really have any advice, just a .

Kat - you did the right thing!!!!!! Change is scary, but it is worth it in the long run....Thanks for the hugs and kind words though...

Goof - you can do whatever you set your mind to do - how bout eating JC food for snackss and 2 meals - and not worry about 1 meal a day with him...that way you feel responsible and not bad...

I am sorry that life is giving you more lemons than lemonade right now - but you can change all that if you choose to - you can change how you proccess it and let me tell you - after this past weekend - I cried/obbed in front of strangers and then - got my game plan on - and thus..I am going to kick some tukkus - it may not be the life I choose...but it will be the life I choose to lead...and I am sick of my life leading me to weight and feeling helpless...so my friend...

I am working on the attitude change... really, I am...

Call me if you feel the urge coming on...befor you take a bite...think of new shoes with skinny feet...

I will sista'....

Think of loving yourself instead of hating your choices...

I care about all of you imensley...

I need you all in my life and I never thought I would open up to all of you like I have and I am gratefull - as much as when you do the same...

BTW - love that Dog..maybe need one in a few months...

Thanks for the kind words everyone... Things are starting to make a little more sense, but I admit, I have a ways to go yet.... but I'll keep you posted.

Love you all...
Paula