In Search of my Body...Not The One I ate...#3 "Crowning Goddesses As We Go"

[3DisneyKids]

Tracking for the day (and yes, I am giving Lyz the finger....)

Bfast = small bowl of Cheerios (140 cals.)
Lunch = Crystal Palace so hard to say, but I only ate the salads. No dessert.
no snacks
Dinner = 2 slices cheese pizza from Spoodles.
Halloween candy = 3 kisses. Yes, that is all.
Drinks = 4 rum and diet cokes.

Exercise =

1 mile run
Walking around the Magic Kingdom for 6 hours.

 

[3DisneyKids]

AGAIN! Can't believe that I have to wake up the thread even on vacation! Ok, off for a 4-miler.

 

[lisaviolet]

Not regularly. They all live in Orlando.

If there is something newsworthy they will. They are always looking for DISsers who want to call in a report on new things in DL. Pete went to the food and wine festival in the spring in DL and did a segment about that. He spent like 14 days at the GC.

Thanks Lyz for doing Podcast 101. Appreciate it.

My TOT 13K WDW trip report....(Part I)

Amy,

Loved the TR. Loved the pics. Your daughter is so cute - and so full of life. Thanks for that. Look forward to the next installment.

Erika. Your kids. Are so. Freaking Cute. And you know I don't say this to anyone. OMG, they are like an advertisement for cute!


sorry, will reply to all tomorrow. Just had to make note of the SUPER FREAKING CUTE kids.

I know. I know, eh?

Morning to all the goddesses today. Those rolling out of their own beds and those who are sleeping elsewhere.

Can I just say even though I completely understood the context - well regardless I loved this sentence.

Three pieces of candy per bag. I really think that I have enough candy to stuff each bag with 5 pieces.

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Aaah Steph. You generous girl you. My mom same thing this year. Bag full of goodies.

Kelly is such a little blonde you.

I know, eh?

And...confessional time....this morning, I was saying how I felt good, and was feeling more like the "me I wanted to be"...well the "me that I don't care for so much" basically bullied the "good me" and forced the "good me" to eat a stinkin' cinnamon bun at work today! WTH!?!?! I NEVER, EVER, EVER eat those things. They are like giving crack to a druggie, I tell you. Bad news....bad, bad, bad. But all day long those damn things were starin' me down, and finally the "bad me" decided she knew how to fix that stupid cinnamon bun. She was going to teach it a lesson for staring all day. Yep - she was gonna EAT it so that it couldn't ever stare at anyone ever again.

stupid, stupid, stupid <beating my head against the wall>. Yes, it'll be in my food report tonight....

. You need to take your show on the road missy. Too funny.

Lisa, for the 2 pound loss!!

I MAY post a link to my ASI race photos, they aren't the best, but do show me in action!

Cheers, Amy

Thanks Amy. Although this week should be interesting.

Please do post your race pics. I love seeing the race. Love it. Really have been enjoying the TR.

So my puppy had her spay surgery today. I went to bring her home, and had to pick her up and put her in the car - she weighed in at 42 lbs today. I picked her up, and heard a pop, and went down.

Now my back is killing me, and i can't move very well, and i think i'm going to crawl into bed and cry

Needless to say, no exercise today (but no dinner either, so i guess it all evens out).

Sorry to be Whiney McWhinester....ow...

Ah sorry Stacey.

I got a message about Baylor also. Poor fellow. A burn is the worst if you ask me. I don't know why or what the status is now. I replied to Dawns text asking.

Thinking about you Dawn.

This was the best Disney vacation day ever!

So nice to hear.

And the "scared" HM pic, hi lar ious!

I know, eh?

AGAIN! Can't believe that I have to wake up the thread even on vacation! Ok, off for a 4-miler.

Some of us actually LOVE sleep.

 

[lisaviolet]

Well this thread is a Godsend this morning. It was lovely time of turning off my brain and feelings. And smiling. Much needed.

I came home from Halloween last night with a message on my phone. Someone I loved has passed away. It was his time. And death is a part of life of course. But regardless.

So I'm off to Quebec this week.

And trying to make this no drama here. But I can hardly breathe. A couple of years ago I had five deaths in a year. And I barely made it out emotionally not just the pain but how we all mourn so differently. And his death is bringing it back. His grandaughter and wife died within six months of each other. I just keep sighing all morning. Probably sighing cause it just feels void. Death is a part of life. But young death and tragic death leaves us questioning everything. And feeling like life has changed forever. Cause it has.

I so miss people.

Okay, I'm thankful to have this spot just to speak outloud. I could care less if I overeat to stop feelings. Really could care less. But I'm really scared of smoking. I haven't smoked in ten/twelve years. And then when it all happened - all I wanted to do was smoke. I smoked a cigarette just to feel connected to someone. Just to feel there. And I smoked a pack when the next person died. And I so want to smoke right now. It's crazy how the urge is not there for years on end. And then it just comes. I'm fine. I just need to put that out. Anything to stop the feelings, eh? I know we all know that 100%. We all know it.

That's so lovely how I can write all this and be instantly understood. I know that. That everything has its meaning. Nothing is an accident. And how all of you, of us, are here together because we are connected by knowing. Because we understand.

Okay....

Lisa

 

[amykab]

Lisa, Lots of and PD for safe travels this coming week. And I understand the smoking thing. I was never a regular smoker, but did it socially in college, and then as a stress reliever occasionally. I haven't posted about it on here, but I have been so tempted in these last couple weeks since getting laid off to go pick up a pack, but I have resisted so far. I do understand.

 

[amykab]

Erika, Total cuteness overload with the pics of yor kids!! Looks like it was a good day. I had no idea they had that much halloween stuff at boardwalk. I will have to keep that in mind for next year. ( I will try to wake up the thread tomorrow before my 5K!!)

Exercise today: I got in a 5 miler this morning, about an hour. My garmin charger and ipod shuffle charger are MIA ( I fear DD may have put them in the garbage can at the room at CSR, totally my fault for not checking around more thoroughly), ,so I ran without my garmin and with my regular ipod. It felt all weird.

 

[lisaviolet]

Lisa, Lots of and PD for safe travels this coming week. And I understand the smoking thing. I was never a regular smoker, but did it socially in college, and then as a stress reliever occasionally. I haven't posted about it on here, but I have been so tempted in these last couple weeks since getting laid off to go pick up a pack, but I have resisted so far. I do understand.

Thanks Amy. It's incredible eh how you don't even think about it and then voila. I guess intense emotions are calling, eh? Hang in there Amy. Life has really thrown you a curveball. Really.

I'm feeling much better now. My friend just called me. I couldn't connect last night. And we has some tears but some great laughs about heaven and people meeting him. And buster bars of all things. Long story. I feel so sad for cutters in life. People who cut people out. Memories are everything in these times. Laughter.

I think most of my sighing and void is about what it brings up for me and my losses. It's like you think you've healed and then life says nope. But mostly to not being able to take other's deep deep pain away. That's life. But I just wish for some peace for them.

I do know that all of you understand and know all these feelings. And death of course. I just can't stop venting.

She and her other daughter - her whole family was - are the world to me. Saved me really. I was a lost girl going there in university. Lost. And they are my family sometimes more than my family - who I love too but there's a lot of **** that flows from everything. And we will never get over her daughter's death. Time will never heal that. Never. Time truly doesn't heal everything.

Oh, I could just write and write.

On a nice note I took them to DVC/WDW on the 1st anniversary of sister/daughter's death. Just said ummm we're going. And she said yes instantly which was a shock. Never had been. And of course it was mixed with everything. But once again - our place guys - worked some magic. Took her away from a smal town who loves her but can feel both healing and stifling around these times. She loved OKW. Just loved it. Her suite. And it gave some peace. That's all I want is some moments of peace. Just some peace.

Thanks everyone,

Lisa

 

[lisaviolet]

Ummm Lyz. I'm waiting on the Halloween pics. Entertain me please.

And Nancy - bring on the Nancy words - cause they so make me laugh.

 

[lisaviolet]

Oh and Amy - don't think you're getting off without those other race photos.

I love this thread.....

 

[amykab]

I can't post them in the post, but here is the link. It should work...

http://www.asiorders.com/view_user_event.asp?EVENTID=36401&BIB=2260&S=230&PWD=

 

[lisaviolet]

I can't post them in the post, but here is the link. It should work...

http://www.asiorders.com/view_user_event.asp?EVENTID=36401&BIB=2260&S=230&PWD=

Fantastic Amy. You look great. Gosh, I'll say it again because I'm so envious, boy you have great legs!!!!

Thanks,

Lisa

 

[amykab]

And a few pics of DD

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

My only frustration was that prior to the race I got hung up waiting for some friends one of whom I had picked up a packet for (they ended up being late... ) so I didn't get to meet up with any WISH'ers prior to the race. AND these "friends" ditched me during and after the race. Grrr. We had planned to run together. Anyhow, it doesn't matter, I completed my 3rd race at DISNEY and it was alot of fun. I can't wait for the 1/2 in January.

arrgh, that's what happens to me Lisa. Try to do everthing, and please everyone and get crapped on. I know.

I'm glad you had fun anyway. What a feat, to a. be able to run in the first place (I wish I could, a little bit) and b. to run in Disney World. Ahhh, sounds awesome.

I came home from Halloween last night with a message on my phone. Someone I loved has passed away. It was his time. And death is a part of life of course. But regardless.

So I'm off to Quebec this week.

Lisa, I'm sorry. Nothing will take the edge off but time.

But I'm really scared of smoking. I haven't smoked in ten/twelve years. And then when it all happened - all I wanted to do was smoke. I smoked a cigarette just to feel connected to someone. Just to feel there. And I smoked a pack when the next person died.

Lisa, Lots of and PD for safe travels this coming week. And I understand the smoking thing. I was never a regular smoker, but did it socially in college, and then as a stress reliever occasionally. I haven't posted about it on here, but I have been so tempted in these last couple weeks since getting laid off to go pick up a pack, but I have resisted so far. I do understand.

I understand the wanting to smoke. I causally smoked in high school, to be "cool" of course. I stopped when I found I was preggers with Molli.

Now, NOW, I hate to see people smoke and find the curdeled heavy smoker clothing smell to be repulsive. But, sometimes, when I walk by someone smoking and I get a fresh hit, mmmm, makes me want too.

Exercise today: I got in a 5 miler this morning, about an hour. My garmin charger and ipod shuffle charger are MIA ( I fear DD may have put them in the garbage can at the room at CSR, totally my fault for not checking around more thoroughly), ,so I ran without my garmin and with my regular ipod. It felt all weird.

Ha, the little terror.

Ummm Lyz. I'm waiting on the Halloween pics. Entertain me please.

I forgot. I was too involved in eating the good Halloween chocolate.

And Nancy - bring on the Nancy words - cause they so make me laugh.

I know, eh!


In serious news, I got the scoup on Dawn's Baylor.

He got burnt on his calve from ankle to knee. Skin completely burnt off. Front and partially the side.

The long of it:

He and 3 friends were at a one of the boys house for a bonfire on Thursday night and spent the night after cause school was out of session on Friday.

The next day they run around the country residence, riding the 4 wheeler and having fun.

They make their way to the previous nights bonfire to hang out. Well, the embers were still burning so they thought the'd get it "going" again.

One of the boys threw a cup of gasoline on the embers and the fire traveled right up the gas to the boy. He tossed the gas cup immediately and the remaining gas flew at Baylor and the fire chased it, right to his leg.

He tried to put it out, using his hand and rolled on the ground. Fire staying. He jumped in an inground pool that was 10-20 feet away. Fire put out.

The boys were in the clear, thought it wasn't that bad. They pulled up his jeans and it looked awful.

They went up to the house and he got in a tub of water. (mom not home, at work.) They called a neighbor nurse who came over and told them he needed to go to hospital.

Dawn was called and she and Dan hauled butt to the property, waaaay out in the country. They loaded Baylor in the ambulance and went to a shriners burn hospital in St Paul, (hallajuh) and they were ready for him when he got there.

His skin is gone and he is on heavy pain meds and the major risk right now is infection, so no school and he is out of hockey and well everything important to a 13 year old.

They let him come home last night and he goes back on Tuesday for evaluation.

Dawn is very thankful because it could have gone so much worse.

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

Amy - snowwhite looks lovely. I espically like the bare little piggies. So cute.

 

[lisaviolet]

And a few pics of DD

Aaaah Amy. Just what I needed. So flippin' cute.

 

[DisneyWorld Delight]

Trick or Treating Pics:

Mol, masquerade ball dress. Mad a cat.

 

[lisaviolet]

Dawn,

I'm so so sorry. You've been on my mind. Prayers for you and your family and especially Baylor.

With love,

Lisa

Lyz - thanks for keeping us posted.

 

[lisaviolet]

Trick or Treating Pics:

Mol, masquerade ball dress. Mad a cat.

Love it Lyz. They look fantastic. Sometimes I just can't believe you have a child that age. But you probably can't some days, eh? Ie. Like wasn't it just yesterday when she was....

 

[lisaviolet]

Just got home from a football game and on the way we got a speeding ticket. Yippee. While he was explaing how he was going to work the price down and demerits down in my head I was going, "blah blah blah blah ....BLAH". I was actually pinching myself not to utter a word. Silence was best for the bills and the points.

 

[lisaviolet]

Hey Lyz,

Your house looks purdy in the pics....

Can you tell I want to do ANYTHING but smoke or feel. Or both. I'm actually checking out your house. But it does look pretty.