Thank you everyone for your kind words. Though I've still been crying non stop, I'm able to accept it a little bit. The worse for now is not that she WILL pass away, but the fact that she's alone at this moment. I cannot bear the fact that I'm not with her during her last moments, if she failed tonight. I'd rather be there putting her down. I hope she's not suffering.
I called the hospital for an update, and no progress. I asked if I can visit in the morning. They asked me to call first......
I'm OK. She's been a great companion. And she deserves her dignity. I felt guilty. I should have bought her toy along. I should have wiped her down first. I could have made it a little easier. I should have stayed home today at least. I just didn't know she would failed so quickly so soon.
By the way, Meow Me is prounced "mau-mi". It's the Chinese name for "cat". Very friendly, very special cat indeed. Oh, I'm going to miss her so much......
(And no, my Hawaii trip is not timed well. I do not think I'll enjoy it at all).
Thanks everyone. DIS helps.