taaren
DIS Veteran
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- Jan 17, 2010
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Hello all!
So, I know I kind of disappeared and I'm sorry about that. I'm struggling a bit with writing this, for several reasons. First, and most obvious I'm sure, is the job loss. I'm spending hours a day filling out applications, emailing my resume, searching for opportunites....it's exhausting and somewhat depressing. I'm still also trying to figure out what exactly I want to do, as I would love to use this as an oppotunity to move to Florida, but don't know if I could pull it off right now with such limited funds. Not to mention that I was feeling slightly better as last week I got the paperwork back from the DLLR saying I was approved for unemployment and the amount was enough to cover my bills until I got a job. Well, I got a letter yesterday now saying payment was delayed as they review my case as I now may not be eligible. All I got when I called this morning was attitude from the woman who told me that it normally takes weeks and I would get a letter about what time and day they will call me to discuss the matter.
The second reason is the trip itself. It had lots of great moments for sure, and I enjoyed a lot of it. However, the trip wasn't great overall for me. I was right in my first thought that I didn't want to do another solo trip. I just felt lonely and bummed about being there alone the whole time and it put a damper on the whole trip. I was actually kind of glad to be leaving and heading home, and ironically told Steve while talking before my flight that I was looking forward to getting back to work the next day so I could make more money toward moving. Totally jinxed myself there, didn't I?
I do still want to do the TR, and I'm hoping that in re-living the trip I will start to think more fondly about it. I really did enjoy so many things about the trip and had a good time on most of the things I did, it was just the sadness that sorta hung over my head that makes it difficult to think about in a positive light.
I'll be back soon with the rest of the Day 1 update, and I hope everyone else is having a good week so far!

I'm sorry things feel so down right now. I've noticed that in general, bad things come in pairs or threes, then usually some good things happen, usually 2-3 at once. Hopefully it'll be your turn for positive stuff soon.
We really do need to plan a DISser trip with a bunch of the Dec 2012 group. Maybe Dec 2014? Then nobody would be solo!