I must have seasonal affective disorder-really bad month so far!

[Xtine76]

Well where do I start-first I apologize to anyone that is offended by my whining.

Well I seem to be in a sort of mid winter funk, the kind where your job really sucks and everyone is micromanaging you.

The kind when Valentine's day comes and ONCE AGAIN you are all alone and you really feel like you have absolutely nothing to offer anyone else.

The kind where you feel like a complete and absolute failure, and when you feel like you are spinning your wheels at work and not living up to your potential.

The kind where you hate the house you live in because it's not even yours but you feel obligated to pay rent and money to fix it up because it is your mother's and you want to help her out. (even when she tells you what to do and how to do it-last time I checked I was pumping MY money into her investment).

The kind where you just want to up and move south, or run far far away. (I'd love to go to never, never land)

The kind where your child-the ONLY thing you really have in your life-tells you how much they hate you every day.

The kind where you cry spontaneously for no reason because everything seems to be wrong.

The kind when you would like to look for a new job, but your computer crashed a month ago and you had to reformat your hard drive and you lost your resume and all associated references.

The kind where you evaluate your life and realize how hard it is to be a single parent with no help and how much you have accomplished given the obstacles you have overcome and how much you have achieved-and you still feel crappy about your life.

I just hope this ends soon and something gets better! I hope my counter is at least below 200, I really need SOMETHING positive.

I need some sort of a change in my life, but I don't know what and I don't know how to make it better.

Thanks for listening-I just needed to vent.

 

[Pop Daddy]

long post

 

[Pam]

Vent away - we all have days, weeks, months, and probably years like that.....

Here's hoping days are just around the corner for you.

 

[phisigprincess]

I understand. The past two weeks I was miserable. Beyond miserable actually. Nothing seemed to be ok with me and all I wanted to do was lay in bed. I called my dad and we agreed it had to be the weather. I need to move somewhere with lots of sun!!! I hope you feel better soon!

 

[DocRafiki]

Is it possible that you could move? I am so much happier since moving to FL, and I wasn't even living in the north. I pretty much felt paralyzed during the winter months. Just the change of moving rejuvenates me, too.

I was reading something recently about how change excites neurons and can be used to fight off depression. You can do something as simple as taking a new route to work to start those neurons firing in a different way. Another thing to try is to move around your furniture.

Of course if you've been feeling this way for months, please go head and at least talk to your MD or a counselor. Life's too short to be miserable for longer than you have to be.

 

[Otimon]

Get yourself a thorough physical checkup and take it from there. You have the power to change how you feel.

When the going gets tough, the tough get going!

Best wishes and hugs being sent your way.

 

[powellrj]

spring can't come soon enough.....sending some sunshine your way!!!

 

[Xtine76]

Thanks everyone, i'm feeling a little bit better today!