Hi Monique!!! I know how scared you are. Remember that your attitude and outlook have a great impact on your recovery. Every woman on my maternal side has had breast cancer..my mom, her mom, her aunt, her cousin...all at the same age. It's really spooky. But, and this is the big but, none of them have died because of bc!! I know it is in my future, I have been to the specialists and been told I am very high risk and what to do. It is scary to know that that awful thing is just sitting inside you. Keep your attitude good...its such a big thing. Come to the boards and vent, ask questions. The Breast Cancer thread is a terrific one. They know what you are going through. A lot of good info over there. And you are in a great state as far as medical research is concerned. All this being said, I'm sending along prayers and some hugs....yet one more prayer never hurts!!!