Crystal: *walks in the rain to her aunt's house* *whistles* *Seven comes to her* Hey Seven. I have a letter to write. I need you to take it when it's done. *writes*
Dear Carly, Katelyn, Jackson and Lewis-
If this letter reaches you, then it means I'm about to do something drastic. I won't expect you to understand now, in fact I won't expect you to understand for a long time. But maybe one day you'll understand, and then you'll know why I did what I did.
I need to stop. I need to stop hurting you, and I need to stop hurting myself. I've pushed myself far past the limits, but I've realized that there is no reward for that. See, I've been waiting all my life for the end point. The point when you hit the bottom, the point where life can't get any worse. But now, I don't think there is a point. I can't sit around waiting to find out. When I hurt myself, I hurt you, and vice versa. You guys are the closest thing I have to a family, even you Lewis. I'd rather you had one short, sudden pain than have a lifetime of pain, because I'm pretty sure we know what that feels like, and it's not something we want to go through.
This morning, my parents disowned me. The circumstances were not in my favor. And not even an hour later, I was told my uncle was kidnapped. I disobeyed orders and went after him. Perhaps it wasn't the smartest idea, but it was my duty. I don't believe in love, I believe in duty and responsibility. I fought for our lives. I never felt stronger than I did fighting the death eaters. But I put a lot of innocent people in danger, some were strangers and some I was familiar with. But, even if I'm sorry about that, I wouldn't change a thing. Today was the worst day of my life.
When you take that day and compile it with all the rest, it's all too much. It's too much to deal with. I can't deal with it anymore. I'm done.
Don't think I don't know what I'm doing. I've tried it twice before. The first time, the process I used actually worked, and I became an Animagus. The second time, Professor Lupin caught me. He's not Professor now, but he was then. I have never seen him angrier than he was then. Sorry for making you angry again Lupin.
I don't expect you to understand now, in fact I don't expect you to understand for a long time. I hope one day you'll understand, and then you'll know why I did what I did. I would have told you all this to your faces, but I know how you would react. As for my uncle, he'll understand what I'm doing and why I'm doing it best of all. That's why I told you to tell him I was going to be fine Jackson, he'd know what I would do and that I would be okay.
Good bye, my friends. May you have great, wonderful lives.
-Crystal
*ties the letter to Seven* Take this to Katelyn, Seven. Stay with her, she'll take care of you. I'm going to miss you Seven. *kisses the top of his head* Now go on! They need to know what I've done. *Seven flies off* It's time, Crys. *leaves the house in the rain.* *walks for a long time, into the woods* *stops among the trees* *pulls out her potions knife* *tears slide down her face* *whispers* Good bye Aunt Silvia and Uncle Roman. Good bye Fiona. *with difficulty and a shaking hand, stabs herself in her gut* Ow. *drops to her knees* *in a whispery voice* Let it all finally end. I do not fear death.
OOC: She doesn't really die. You guys have to come save her from herself.
