Have you ever...

[ohdisco]

Felt like you weren't enough?
That every act that you commit just disappoints people?
Even when you try your hardest, it just isn't hard enough?

I don't know what's wrong with me. I don't know why I can't do well in school. I'm not stupid. It's not that I sleep in. I'm ALWAYS awake during the times my classes are in session. I'm not doing anything during those hours either. I just can't find the strength to go. Even if I'm in the car and I pull into the parking lot, something makes me just drive out of it.

I have an A in my spanish class but a D- in my lab for the class. The class is worth 5 units, the lab is worth .5. Yet, if I fail the lab I fail the class.

I feel utterly useless and worthless. I just feel like I have no admirable qualities, or anything that would make it worth knowing me.

 

[chisnpeke]

I feel sad a lot. I just feel like I have a lot of pieces in my life missing...mostly people I think. I've had a good life and I'm blessed but sometimes I just feel inadequate. I'm only taking one class this quarter because it was just getting to be too much for me. I wonder why can't I do more but this is best for me right now. My freshman year was just too much work and I couldn't handle all of the work.

I'm very lucky though that I have a mom who has always been there for me and supportive in whatever I want to do. She doesn't care if I go to school or not, she just loves me.

I also don't have a ton of friends. I have two close friends and that's pretty much it. I've really lost touch with most of my other friends from high school and even from just my freshman year in college. I don't like to go out and party so it's hard to meet new people when that seems to be all anyone wants to do.