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I just edited the crap out of this. (1/15/16)
Here's a little redone introduction...
Since I was little I always wanted to be a runner. It's still hard for me to say I'm a runner even though I go out, get it done, and have completed a race. I was never super athletic, a fact my family still will tease me over. I have casually ran a mile here or there for years, but never signed up for a race.
Last year was a slap in the face running wise. I agreed to sign up for Wine and Dine (W&D) on a whim, and just jumped into the pool head first. Whelp I trained hard, went to Disney in May and lost track of myself. I did a 10k that looking back was embarrassing, but I finished. I started training again, and tried to make some positive changes in my life. One was putting my 6 year relationship on a break because it didn't fit another persons standard of what a relationship should be. I lost track again when stress and honestly depression got the best of me. People were pointing out how I wasn't happy and seemed very different. I tried to keep it to myself, but looking back wasn't so successful. By late summer, after an unexpected move and getting my relationship going again I was back on track, but pushing it too far. I got pressured into a 10k I shouldn't have ran and ended up hurt, upset, and frustrated. That was also the final catalyst that caused a very important relationship of mine to implode which has had lasting negative effects. So, there I was a few months from W&D at a low in my life. I manned up, trained and got as far as a 6 mile run on a treadmill under the watchful eye of a physical therapist before leaving for Florida. I was stressed, miserable, and running under trained. I didn't enjoy any of that vacation except for the few days I was there post race. I was there to prove something to people that didn't actually matter, and that can never end well because there is always an empty outcome.
W&D ended up being amazing. Just like my first trip to Disney in May gave me a different perspective so did my first race in Disney. I'm not going to lie the race being cut short was a gift. We had no idea how long the race was till days later, but I mentally knew that less than 13.1 was doable. I went out and got it done. My shin splits were awful because my legs just weren't used to pavement, and the first mile was a joke. I accepted that I might be swept, but pushed anyway. I got to the Osborne lights and realized I couldn't be swept. That's where I cried during that race. I stood on the side of the street, and just lost it a little bit. Finishing that race made me realize running is individual. It's for me, it's not to compete. I'm not a let me be fastest kind of person, I eventually want to go furthest though. That's the fun of running we all want different things for different reasons.
So this is my training journal which will go beyond the c2c medal that I'll be earning in May. I have work to put in and weight to lose, and mental stuff to work through, but I'm ready for it.
2016 Race Schedule so far...
Hyannis Half - Feb 28th (first half!)
Dark Side Half - April 17th
Tinkerbell Half - May 8th
Newport 10 miler - June 5th
B.A.A 10k - June 26th (redemption race)
Here's a little redone introduction...
Since I was little I always wanted to be a runner. It's still hard for me to say I'm a runner even though I go out, get it done, and have completed a race. I was never super athletic, a fact my family still will tease me over. I have casually ran a mile here or there for years, but never signed up for a race.
Last year was a slap in the face running wise. I agreed to sign up for Wine and Dine (W&D) on a whim, and just jumped into the pool head first. Whelp I trained hard, went to Disney in May and lost track of myself. I did a 10k that looking back was embarrassing, but I finished. I started training again, and tried to make some positive changes in my life. One was putting my 6 year relationship on a break because it didn't fit another persons standard of what a relationship should be. I lost track again when stress and honestly depression got the best of me. People were pointing out how I wasn't happy and seemed very different. I tried to keep it to myself, but looking back wasn't so successful. By late summer, after an unexpected move and getting my relationship going again I was back on track, but pushing it too far. I got pressured into a 10k I shouldn't have ran and ended up hurt, upset, and frustrated. That was also the final catalyst that caused a very important relationship of mine to implode which has had lasting negative effects. So, there I was a few months from W&D at a low in my life. I manned up, trained and got as far as a 6 mile run on a treadmill under the watchful eye of a physical therapist before leaving for Florida. I was stressed, miserable, and running under trained. I didn't enjoy any of that vacation except for the few days I was there post race. I was there to prove something to people that didn't actually matter, and that can never end well because there is always an empty outcome.
W&D ended up being amazing. Just like my first trip to Disney in May gave me a different perspective so did my first race in Disney. I'm not going to lie the race being cut short was a gift. We had no idea how long the race was till days later, but I mentally knew that less than 13.1 was doable. I went out and got it done. My shin splits were awful because my legs just weren't used to pavement, and the first mile was a joke. I accepted that I might be swept, but pushed anyway. I got to the Osborne lights and realized I couldn't be swept. That's where I cried during that race. I stood on the side of the street, and just lost it a little bit. Finishing that race made me realize running is individual. It's for me, it's not to compete. I'm not a let me be fastest kind of person, I eventually want to go furthest though. That's the fun of running we all want different things for different reasons.
So this is my training journal which will go beyond the c2c medal that I'll be earning in May. I have work to put in and weight to lose, and mental stuff to work through, but I'm ready for it.
2016 Race Schedule so far...
Hyannis Half - Feb 28th (first half!)
Dark Side Half - April 17th
Tinkerbell Half - May 8th
Newport 10 miler - June 5th
B.A.A 10k - June 26th (redemption race)
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