Yesterdays WhooHoo Last December I decided I will push harder in the gym. I made it hard for myself, I got really hungry and tired and went into a mode when I am trying to walk more to catch up with my eating and get even hungrier... Last March when I joined the forums I felt I need to give up dieting mentality and focus on long term habits and consistency with my eating. I went over MFP history and I figured on and off plans really don't work for me! I always assumed at some point I will start working out harder in the gym again. I thought that's what I am supposed to do. That's how you get stronger and fitter and healthier, by pushing as hard as you can. I felt if I don't feel drained after workout, I have done it wrong. It wasn't priority last year and I did great until I made it priority again. I just had really good thing about what I want vs what I am currently getting by pushing that hard What I want - to be healthy, to have energy to do things I love with people I love What I get - sit in pain, cranky, tired, unable to find energy to go out for a cycle with my son I assumed in the past that eventually I will be able to get much stronger and the soreness, tiredness and hunger will reduce but it didn't. It never got me anywhere. I tried enough times to know it just doesn't work for me. I guess, I had to have another failed attempt to have a really good think and decide to change how I view working out. I woke up feeling happy and relieved yesterday. I cut down my strength training workout plans for 3 times weekly under 30 minutes, cut the sets, reps, weight. Some strength training is important for healthy aging. But I am ready to let go of old patterns/beliefs that don't serve me and start viewing working out in more gentle way. Apart from this I will still do my yoga, walks and swim. But I am done trying to constantly up weights, or lift as heavy as I can every time I am in the gym. I actually enjoyed pushing really hard in the gym, I get buzz out of it but I don't enjoy the impact it have on my energy, mood and hunger for days after. One of the bloggers made comment - "NOT making my arms so pointlessly sore I can't shampoo my hair". Big line. I don't see the point of training in way to make me feel like crying if I have to climb few stairs... And I tried it before, it didn't get easier if I just persist. As relieved I was last year leaving on and off diets behind me, I feel the same about the way I exercise now. I guess little sad letting go of a vision of supper strong me! At least in the gym sense, I can totally be super strong person in life. I am 38. I can't do stupid stuff anymore. I can't do the same things again and expect different result. I need to do things to support the life I want to live, making myself pointlessly sore isn't it. What about that for a long WhooHoo? haha. Sorry.